11 Nov 2020, 00:34
(10 Nov 2020, 22:01 )Like Ra Wrote: [ -> ]You like girls, so imagine a pretty girl. Let's call her... Sylvia. Sylvia has a hobby. She loves to dress up in leather and steam-punk gear and play a 5-string fretless bass in a gothic-jazz band. And Sylvia is pretty much successful in it, some music-lovers even call her a bass-virtuoso.
But Sylvia has a dream. She wants to be a princess. What do princesses look like? They are supposed to be beautiful, fragile, elf-like and dressed up in pink and white organza dresses, wear a tiny crown and stitch embroidery, while her prince is on His Majesty's Service.
But devotedly shredding bass in an aggressive and provocative attire and having calluses on fingers does not match the image of a princess! So, while waiting for the prince to meet her somewhere, Sylvia decides to drop the bass, and sit at home learning to stitch, what she, actually, hates...
I get it now. So you are saying that I should date women in the meantime? That would probably be very distressing for me, because I would just envy her the whole time while she would constantly tell me to "man up" if i ever made any moves to transition. So I would essentially be stuck in a nightmare. I would not want her to treat me like a guy or her boyfriend. Because her and everyone else would just see me as male.
I also think you are misunderstanding my attraction to women. Yes they are beautiful, sexy..whatever, but i am more drawn to admire, emulate or envy them. When i see a woman online or irl, I don't think about getting her number or asking her out, rather i admire her personality, style and beauty as something i should aspire towards. I certainly would feel very awkward and uncomfortable if I were to be alone and intimate with a woman. I just could not assume the male role of seducing or loving her....So I am sorry Like Ra if you misunderstood, but I am not a straight male with a fetish. I do not picture myself with a girlfriend nor do I see that as my goal/ideal for happiness in this lifetime.