(10 Nov 2020, 00:00 )Like Ra Wrote: [ -> ] (09 Nov 2020, 22:07 )female123 Wrote: [ -> ]Here it is
Would it be possible for you to speak with professionals?
Not really, as I'm still a university student that lives with a very traditional and conservative family. They don't suspect anything but always push me to build a more muscular stature, which I absolutely hate, and when I say that I like the way my body is now, they tell me that I look like a girl. Secretly that's a huge compliment, but they use it as an insult.
Other times when I try to grow and style my nails, they say cut them because I look like a creep and its embarrassing in public. Then I ask why my sisters get to style their nails, and they say its because they're female.
Same thing when I try to grow out my hair.
Other than those public attempts, most of the time I do stuff in private, like listen to mtf/estrogen stimulation subliminals, cross dress, painting nails, shaving and eating more xenoestrogen foods etc.
As for erotic hypnosis, something about those files makes my mind subconsciously search out for feminine details when looking in the mirror. It really helps me manage my dysphoria as I become way less critical of my male form and instead try to focus on the feminine features.
Somedays, as i mentioned before, seeing women or them and their boyfriends in public triggers my depression (and envy) to the point where I cry myself to sleep because I think life is so unfair!
As far as i know this has been going on for 10 years, its only gotten worse recently as I realize my youth passing by.
One more thing I would like to add is that I have this very strong inner intuition that I was a Japanese/Korean or Chinese woman in my previous lifetime. I've even had dreams about it. In this life I was born male and live in Canada. Don't know if you believe in any of that or if you've had any flashbacks yourself 😁
Anyways...I am also curious to know your score🙂