(30 Sep 2019, 18:45 )Like Ra Wrote: [ -> ]... whoa ... 
I think the most disturbing and kinkiest part of the ordeal is that after he dropped me off at home, I F(_)cked myself with the dildo while entranced.
Only after I sucked it off did I "come back to reality" and I went to the bathroom and saw some... stuff around my lips, and I was freaked out, I had done ATM for the first time, and I wasn't really in control, because honestly I think ATM is gross;
but while in B@mbi mode I "had to" suck it to "come back" and I did so automatically.
once I snapped out of the trance I was so freaked out and disgusted that I used someone else's dildo, I immediately threw it in the trash.
I really should have used a uniform, but if I had I don't know that things would have played out any differently.
Just sharing my experience is embarrassing, but those files really grabbed my mind and made me into a "mindless play toy" for a while, I regret leaving the IQ reduction file (and one more) in the playlist, I don't know how that may have affected my academic progress (if at all) after I came out of it.
I still have issues recalling parts of my childhood, and I misspell common words at times; but this could be due to PTSD or concussions.
I believe that you can learn to forget things that harm you; reject suggestions that don't serve you.
I don't know if it's related to B@mb! files or not but my laugh has changed and I giggle more often, maybe my repressed femininity is finally being allowed to flourish thanks to all this sampling of feminization (& bimbo) hypno.
I really want to transition (minus bottom surgery); I cannot tell if the thought originated with me or came about due to hypnotic suggestion (perhaps a combo of the two, after all good hypnosis allows one to come to conclusions on there own).
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