Ok here goes:
My actual experience with Bambi hypno after 2 months, NO bullshit or fantasizing
I knew about Bambi hypno for a while, and I've been into erotic hypnosis for years. Hypnosis has never worked on me as well as on other people, so I figured, "hey, why not give this a try"; I am stuck at home due to a long term injury anyway. Other than that, I think it's fair and important to say that my fetish is not only hypnosis, but also crossdressing (I know, duh).
Also, I know his is a fetish forum, but still: fair warning, talk about explicit sexual topics ahead
The
first few weeks were rather uneventful, it was the honeymoon period where I listened to the files, relaxed, tried to imagine that those things are happening to me, but they weren't much more than either a meditation, or a jerk off session. During this time I only listened to parts of the original series; I specifically avoided any mindfucks, or the BF/master themes, even though I'm gay myself. I just wanted to be safe
The
second month is where things took a turn, even though I paid no mind to it then. I wanted more, so I started looking into the memory play parts of Bambi. THAT was the first instance of hypnosis that has actually worked on me; I was left sitting in my chair, completely blank, for a good 30 minutes after the file ended; so of course I wanted more! I found that combining the memory play tracks with others allowed THEM to work too, as I was able to get into proper trance that way. That is when I started to permanently wear my bra that I've used just as a uniform until then.
The
last 2 weeks, ending with today were... honestly, awful, as well as euphoric. I cannot tell you which files I've been listening to, though that's been coming back to me slowly. I gave myself a carpal tunnel from all the masturbation connected to listening to more and more of the files (which is absolutely uncharacteristic for me). I'm finding it hard to spell or remember words at random, and I can see that people can tell something's not right with me. I now feel a deep sense of dread when I can't wear the bra. And now, now I find myself on a damn TOR network, because apparently those files aren't enough of me and I want more of them. My sleep schedule is absolutely broken from all the naps I took at my table (it's morning right now and I'm still awake).
Today, thanks to an unrelated stressor, I finally took a step back and realized what I've been doing these past few weeks and decided to end it and not look back.
Again, just as a reminder, I am absolutely not writing this as a fantasy, but I do need to vent about it a little, so I'm here, as it's not really something people would understand.
Looking back, and knowing what I know about hypnosis, I think there's a certain aspect that makes Bambi more effective than other hypnosis series / hypnotists; the nature of the trigger commands. over time, the effects will of course happen, if you're willing, but they happen subconsciously. You're talking with someone and you insert a "like" into the middle of the sentence, but that happens subconsciously. But of course, this is still hypnosis and it IS *you* doing those things, so even though they were made unconsciously, you notice them happening. That deepens the idea that the hypnosis is actually working. Then there's of course the fact that some of these files try to connect to the act of sleeping, another one uses blinking as a trigger, the windshield... I've heard about one that apparently uses the act of turning a key as a trigger. Simply, lots of very vile triggers that you can't really escape or take a break from.
Even now, after consciously deciding to stop, I managed to get myself triggered just by watching a show that referenced a specific part from one of the inductions. I bet there is a way to make this safe, I know that a lot of trans people give it praise. But like this? Absolutely not. I came in with clear boundaries, wanting a bit of lewd fun, and I ended up like this.
Of course, I know the effects will fade over time. I'm not stupid. But I will say that it has caused me extreme amounts of stress that I took as a need for more hypno, and now it's crashing down on me.
The worst part? If you had asked me yesterday, I'd tell you that it's completely harmless and fun. It IS fun, but definitely not harmless for some.
Back to positive hypno... after a break ^^'
some other minor experiences I've had, on the positive side:
- having a full, real-feeling fantasy about my boyfriend who I only see once in a while
- taking a break from all the worries (even though they came back and multiplied; something something bottling your emotions)
- getting THE best sleep of my life (back when I began listening), as someone who struggles with sleep regularly
- having a fantasy about being stuck in a box full of throbbing wall-cocks
eady, but I wanted to say: thank you so much for your support. I don't where I will be, but I will try. If I am still here but forget you, then remind me of our conversation (even though I rarely forget people).