(05 Jan 2021, 03:08 )Ellie Wrote: [ -> ]Off tomorrow so I have several hours tonight. This time I’m doing feminizing abyss for sure.
I did have an imaginary friend when I was a kid, and yeah I know all about being a lonely kid! Definitely described me
I’ve known I was trans since I was as 5 so finding files that actually are making me feel better has been a unexpected blessing (I do NOT trance easily). I’m trying to break down barriers so I’m not so self conscious. I eventually do want to come out and be open, but “nice” files haven’t done it for me. I need to be “forced”
Now I gotta decide which one I buy next...either fairy princess or magic slut mind melt
Ah, I see. That really explains why it works so differently for you. Some people are just born with vivid imagination like that. I was born a realist, for better or worse lol. I never managed to make imaginary friends or play pretend or house or any such games with active imagination even though I desperately wanted to. Logic always took my out of it. Dreams were the only thing I had resembling an inner fantasy world.
It's gotten better now for sure but I don't think I've always been like that. The imagination I have right now is nurtured/learned, not natural I'd say 😋
Also the fact that you're confident that you're trans probably plays a part as well because you're a
eady very receptive to the idea of being a woman. I've thought of myself as a man my whole life up until finding sissy hypnosis so it's taking a bit long to feminize my mind completely. I'm not even sure it's possible, so for now I only think of myself as a sissy, not a woman (or transwoman). That's a title I can really identify with for now.
And yes Demon Girl's Secret Magic Mind Melt is just a quarter shy of 3 hours, very long. I personally really love these long ones because as I dream they have more and more chances to work as my mind goes through its sleep cycle, and might sometimes happen to sync with the file, and these are the times I have the amazing dreams inspired by these files. I don't like anything shorter than an hour.
Speaking of shorter than an hour, SGCC was not very effective for me, not as much as Demon Girl Suck Cock. The latter had me drooling every time I even happened to picture a penis, hard or soft didn't matter. I can feel the obsession with cock in my veins, moving my muscles for me (maybe that's even Demon Girl herself 😉 ). The urge to reach for a guy's bulge in public, to picture his cock, to imagine kneeling in front of him... I've a
eady had these urges but now they're much stronger and they manifest in public much more frequently. 😁
P.s. I love your new name and title, Ellie. 😊 It was definitely interesting reading your experience, and would love to keep reading more.
P.p.s. This is a bit irrelevant and a shot in the dark but I thought it'd be interesting if it was real. Have you happened to notice certain numbers pop up in your life more often? Something like synchronicity with a certain number? This is something that happened to me but I wasn't sure if Kei had anything to do with it. Has it happened to you?