Quote:Same poster here, don't know if anyone is interested in hearing how SCC is effecting me.
This was original gonna be wank/sexual gratification shit. But the conditioning has hit me hard. The way the pleasure is linked to obeying, my mind has built up these associations with being a sissy cocksucker. Does what it says I guess. When I first tranced to this my heart would race, it felt dangerous, it was fun, but I felt in control like it couldn't really effect me. Lately my sessions are more relaxed, there's no racing heart, adrenaline dump, it's a weird feeling. It feels natural, it feels normal, expected almost.
I think this is when things are gonna kick up a notch for me. It's like layers of depth of hypnosis. I was hitting the surface level and now I'm really gonna hit the center when my defences are down. At this point I don't really have an end goal with this hypnosis, I just want to see how far I can go with it. Gonna have to pull the plug eventually, but I've honestly never had something leak into my day to day life and this stuff seems to do it
I wouldn't say I'm highly suggestible to hypnosis. But I have had triggers effect me. And my biggest worry is the really vague triggers in this file. I have a feeling they're going to cause some anxiety in my day to day life. But that's my own fucking fault.
I have a really self destructive sort of disposition with all this. I want to see how much there is a "core" to a person and their protective mechanisms. Obviously a 100% straight dude wouldn't be listening to this file. But I've never sucked cock, never had the urge, short of being forced to as fantasy. The cock was always symbolic of emasculation or something in my head going with the sissy thing. But this file seems to warp your sexuality to the point where the idea of sucking cock seems expected, like it's always been this way and it would be pointless not to because you're told you're a cocksucker.
You all might think I'm repressed or this file is an excuses to engage in these fantasies. Believe what you want. But I think there's some conditioning going on in here where patterns are linked up in the brain, not necessarily bound by correlation but just the right shit firing at the right time.
I sound like a fucking junkie. I'll readily admit this is horrible, self destructive addictive behavior chasing a high. That much I know. I won't rationalize that this is a "healthy expression of sexuality" ohhhhh boy it's not, not by a long shot.
Quote:>don't know if anyone is interested in hearing how SCC is effecting me.
I'm still very interested in "field reports".
>When I first tranced to thisā¦
Can you describe your trances and the preceding conditions further? On specific points:
How long did you not eat before listening to the file?
How long did you not masturbate (or sexually stimulate yourself in any way) before listening to the file?
Did you experience distinct visuals? If so, were they sharp/blurry, lasting/fleeting? Did they engage other senses like smell or touch?
Related to the previous question: Was the whole experience like a connected fantasy environment or more like short projections in the dark?
Was what you felt disassociated from your physical body?
What about your self-awareness?
> ā¦my heart would race, it felt dangerousā¦ racing heart, adrenaline dumpā¦
When there was fear and adrenaline, did you also feel more subtle, weird phenomena "further down"? (If so, pls don't describe them in detail here)
>Lately my sessions are more relaxed, there's no racing heart, adrenaline dump, it's a weird feeling. It feels natural, it feels normal, expected almostā¦ I think this is when things are gonna kick up a notch for me. I was hitting the surface level and now I'm really gonna hit the center when my defences are down
So you are saying that these more relaxed sessions seem more effective to you? Is the trance state stronger that way for you? Or are you talking about some resistance that is now gone?
>At this point I don't really have an end goal with this hypnosis, I just want to see how far I can go with it.
There is no hard limit. You can fuck yourself up ever further with these files. It is the sexual equivalent of pic related.
There are some safeguards. Bad conscience is one of them close to the surface. You can overwrite that with pleasure till it stops bothering you, and then even think yourself all the better for it.
>I want to see how much there is a "core" to a person and their protective mechanisms.
When will you know that you have reached said "core" and not just an outer layer mirroring your depravity?
>And my biggest worry is the really vague triggers in this file. I have a feeling they're going to cause some anxiety in my day to day life.
Getting constantly triggered into sexual arousal is aeady unhealthy enough on its own. It will cause anxiety after a while, no matter the specific trigger. Additionally, the triggers of these files are a bit worse that others, because they fit "thematically" to the physiological end energetic responses of your body.
>Obviously a 100% straight dude wouldn't be listening to this fileā¦ The cock was always symbolic of emasculation or something in my head going with the sissy thing. But this file seems to warp your sexualityā¦
>You all might think I'm repressed or this file is an excuses to engage in these fantasies. Believe what you want.
Whether you deep down really do like the cock or not, is beside the point. It is normal for someone sexually unsure (or just inexperienced) to experiment in fantasy. The point is (as you correctly write) that these files are not a healthy way to do that. Porn and sissy files in general probably aren't, but these files are worse.
Quote:>How long did you not eat before listening to the file?
Well the morning sessions were done on an empty stomach. I mostly listened at night. At night probably the longest not eating was about 3 or 4 hours.
>How long did you not masturbate (or sexually stimulate yourself in any way) before listening to the file?
In general I abstain from masturbating. This past month I've done it twice though as a direct result of this file. But that post nut clarity really makes me want to stop. So I'm almost always listening without having had any sexual stimulation.
>Did you experience distinct visuals? If so, were they sharp/blurry, lasting/fleeting? Did they engage other senses like smell or touch? Related to the previous question: Was the whole experience like a connected fantasy environment or more like short projections in the dark? Was what you felt disassociated from your physical body? What about your self-awareness?
Gonna go ahead and roll all these into one. More like short projections. I'd have a few times where I'd slip and find visuals sort of playing in my head like a movie. I wasn't trying to do anything, they were just there. Usually with these I'm pretty dissociated, other ones I'm in a lighter trance and it feels like I'm just sort of going along with the instructions vs them projecting out from my subconscious. The deeper ones I've felt stuff, I'm not a very visual person. It felt like I had a more tactile experience. The visuals were there, just not super vivid.
>When there was fear and adrenaline, did you also feel more subtle, weird phenomena "further down"? (If so, pls don't describe them in detail here)
No usually at this stage my body was quite tense and it felt like "playing along" vs real mind fuckery.
>So you are saying that these more relaxed sessions seem more effective to you? Is the trance state stronger that way for you? Or are you talking about some resistance that is now gone?
Yes, more effective. It's probably also the resistance, but the more relaxed sessions my mind isn't as on guard. So stuff can slip through outside of my conscious awareness. It's the difference between just following instructions in the file vs feeling like I'm not in control and I'm reacting automatically. I'll regain consciousness sometimes when I feel like everything is going too far. Letting down my guard like that takes a lot of focused effort and I'm still not 100% open I think because just opening my mind up and letting whatever pour in without a filter seems like a recipe for trouble. A few times in the file when the subliminals kick in I find my body gets tense, like it wants to reject them from entering my mind.
>When will you know that you have reached said "core" and not just an outer layer mirroring your depravity?
Good point. I guess I thought if I kept going eventually I'd get bored. There's really no way to verify it. But given the fact that everything in this file isn't exactly in line with goals in my life and I generally don't feel good about binging it, I'm pretty damn sure it's a distraction vs a self discovery process.
Quote:Be careful. I thought the poster further up was just exaggerating(the one further up talking about sex energy and whatnot), but this file has the real potential to fuck you up. The deciding factor is if you have issues with addiction. If you can listen to this shit, get your rocks off, and then continue about your day you'll be fine. But if you have even the slightest bit of an addictive personality this shit is like throwing gasoline on fire.
I'm not even talking about what the file does to you as far as being girly or sucking cock or whatever. It's a cheap high. And every time you think of it outside of trance it triggers that associated pleasure and it's not good. To make things worse there's one specific suggestion in there about always thinking about cock, like it just overrides your mind whenever you try to do anything else. Sounds kinky in the moment, but I can tell you when you're trying to focus on work and it feels like your brain is being pulled in a different direction to the point where you can't focus it's not sexy anymore. It's dysfunctional. Oh and swallowing your saliva causes a deep need for cock, that's another winner of a trigger that just pulls you right back into that obsessive tunnel vision mind state.
Kei has the ability to drill into your subconscious pretty well. Unfortunately what they put in there is extreme. If you're not gonna go along 100% and alter your life around it, you're going to come up against nasty resistance as your mind engages between a tug of war between trying to live out a normal life and being constantly dragged into the fantasy. And our minds will always gravitate towards pleasure subconsciously. That's why I said if you have issues with any kind of addiction this file derails the train of your life so to speak because nothing compares to the pleasure you get from it while listening. Sounds like a drug addict right? It got to the point I was losing sleep because I would stay up late listening to this and then my brain started associating night time with listening. So it was too active when I did try to go to sleep without listening.
You pretty much caught me on this board because I was about to purge this file. I'm done with it. I'm not saying everyone will have my experience and I swear I'm not a shill for Kei. But think about yourself, why you want to listen to this, what your current life is like, what your emotional state is like. Once you listen to this and you know it's there it's fucking difficult to stay away from. The more I type this the more I start thinking "it's not so bad, maybe it's a
It got to the point where I was getting deeper and deeper with this and the suggestions were going in to a deeper part of my mind. The issue is in day to day life I don't want those things, so things like walking feminine or being a girl, there's some serious cognitive dissonance that goes on in the brain outside of trance. It's not a matter of giving in or complying either, if some deep part of you really doesn't want it, that resistance happens at a deeper level you can't touch consciously. It'll just result in depression, anxiety, panic attacks, stupid shit like that. The problem is this file feels good and you keep listening for that, but the other shit slips in. And it will, don't think you can put up a wall or guard against it. The way this file plays out it takes those highly aroused states to bypass the more critical parts of your mind so you're 100% in it in trance. The problem is when you come out of it and your mind is trying to execute two things at once and basically starts grinding.
So that's my rant. If anyone's got any questions feel free to ask. If you want to experiment like I did because I was a dumbass and thought this added more to the erotic thrill with how destructive it could be, go for it. I can't stop you. But I have to now unravel this fucking mess from both my physiological and psychological state. Some people can't trance or get into hypnosis properly and just use this as fapping material, those people won't be effected. But if this file takes and you start going deeper it's gonna go either one of two ways. You'll be 100% on board with the suggestions making life changes and enjoying them, maybe being a little dysfunctional because of how much you're addicted to cock. Or you'll start getting fucked up mentally because this file starts hitting places in your mind it shouldn't have gone in the first place and then you'll have to have enough willpower to stop using it. I really don't see any in between. I know that sounds extreme, but if you preview the file and listen to how it presents things you'll understand.
inb4 I'm just a bitch that can't handle hypno
Quote:Yes I fucked with that brainwashing file DG f3m1nizing aby55 about a year back. Just looped it as much as possible. I never had a takeover or anything like that. But one night I woke up with sleep paralysis and hallucinated something invisible ripping me from my bed and dragging me across the floor, fucking me, and then merging with me. The next few days the weird dissociative feelings of not having autonomy of my body heightened. I can't describe it but if you've ever used the DG stuff you know what I'm talking about, it's like a numbness.
Another one was DG MSC. I'm sure you can figure out the acronym. That one was weird. Like the name suggest a lot of compulsions to do stuff. And I couldn't ignore them otherwise I'd get stressed out. So I'd indulge in the idea of them vs actually doing them. But long term this is another one that would probably mess me up. It's like the compulsions came from deep in my gut and bubbled up to my consciousness, come to think of it I think that's how it's suggested in the file it happens.
As for how I dealt with the invasive thoughts and feelings. Well I didn't really. It fucked me up for a good few weeks. Once the programming started to fade it got easier. I've been counterbalancing all this with other self improvement subliminals, so the programming from that might have helped steer me back on path to not fucking up my life. Sidenote, Kei uses subliminals in the files. I've found with subliminals there's a buffer period. Meaning the initial input, when you're listening to the file and immediately after you're done are not when the effects kick in. It can be 2 or 3 hours when your brain is "digesting" what it heard. If there's some kind of conflict with the suggestions from the sub, this is when it's going to be most apparent. Also if you loop a file over and over you're basically building up a queue of shit that needs to be processed. Because Kei's files can be very tunnel visioned if you saturate your head with too much you will get kind of dysfunctional and become unable to redirect your attention on anything else.
Long story short, if you go deep enough, saturate your mind enough, it's basically like strapping in for a rollercoaster. You might want to get off but it's too late. You just have to ride it out. I'm not saying you're gonna crossdress and suck cock or whatever. But the influence of the file will be there until it fades. Depending on how hard you went, how deep, will effect how long it sticks around. For me it was about 3-4 days of dysfunction, followed by another 4 days of a sort of light influence, and then the next few days it gradually starts to fade.
eady trans (Iāve known since I was 5; Iām in my 40s now), there might not be any possible ānewā effects; itās kinda like throwing dirt on dirt