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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 61. Over the top and secret desires

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If you push yourself to the limits and out of your comfort zone, two things can happen: magic or breakage.

If your secret desire has finally come true, also two things can happen: happiness and relief or disappointment and vacuum.

What happens if you combine both? If you push yourself to the limits to make your wish come true?

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 60. Shaking flesh

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And again back to the strange paradox of bondage and BDSM in total. For some strange reasons it brings freedom to both parties, indeed. Role and power exchange can lead to emotional and psychological collapse that may heal or … destroy.

That reminds me of one quote:

Don’t… tempt me Frodo! I dare not take it. Not even to keep it safe. Understand, Frodo. I would use this ring from a desire to do good… But through me, it would wield a power too great and terrible to imagine.

So, safety (in all senses) first, OK?

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 59. Despair

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And then suddenly you discover yourself inescapably bound. Absolutely helpless. Unable to see, unable to hear. All you can do is to make some noise with your nose and squirm. You have no control over what’s happening or going to happen. You are not able to free yourself. You totally depend on the one who has just bound you into a “lump of meat”.

Probably you are left alone? You can hear nothing but your own breathing and heart pounding. What if struggling helps? Squirming, crawling, bending, pulling, pushing, screaming… To no avail. You ARE helpless. In a pool of sweat, out of breath, completely exhausted and in despair…

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 58. Curiosity

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Another thing is curiosity. Even if it’s embarrassing, uncomfortable, strange, weird, curiosity pushes us forward. “Blue or red pill?” Oh, I’ve seen what’s back there, show me something new!

That reminds me of one photo session I had with a colleague of mine. “When you pulled out that latex dress, fishnet pantyhose, gags, latex stockings, plugs, ropes and other stuff, how could I stop? Of course, I wanted you to continue! Of course, I was very curious!”

But I always try to be gentle.

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 57. Anticipations vs Expectations

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Anticipation and expectation are synonyms, but what a huge difference in the “results”! Anticipation can “increase the pleasure. Moreover, you are getting pleasure in advance by anticipating something. But expectations can ruin everything. Expectations can even be used as punishment:”You did not meet my expectations“. One of the biggest “managerial bullshit sayings”… Disgusting…

You can anticipate something, and not expect anything at the same time. Having anticipation puts a smile on our faces, not having expectations protects us from disappointments.

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 56. Self-bondage and testing, DSM and inferiority complexes

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Two good points:

1. Before “applying” a new tool on your partner you always must try it by yourself. So selfbondage comes handy here.

2. Can BDSM (mostly DSM) relationships be used during normal family life with your partner? Or do they exclude equal roles that normal, stable, long-term-oriented partnership “should” have? Or are they intended to compensate deficiencies and various (e.g. inferiority) complexes?

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 55. Sometimes you need to speak to someone

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Were you ever in such situation when you had to speak to someone, you are not quite familiar with, to finally stop the spiraling down? No, I’m not talking about doctors or professional psychoanalytics. Just more or less ordinary people like in the manga?

Did (do) you use the Internet (e.g. forums) or do you prefer a live person? Or probably it was/is you who helped lost guys/gals to find themselves?

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 54. What are your breathers?

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Indeed… I always work. I always do something. I do not know what “spare time” is. “Spare” from what? If I’m not doing anything, that means I’m sleeping. And if I need to add something to my list, the task with the lowest priority goes off my list. I want too much. I need to do more. I can’t keep up. 24 hours is not enough. I’m close to panic. I’m close to break down and burn out.

The only “way out” for me is sport. Regardless anything, 4-5 times a week I must be in the dojo. Sport clears my head.

And periodically I must be tightly “coated” by latex, tightly plugged, tightly gagged and tightly bound.

Ohh… I desperately need THAT kind of a breather ….

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 53. Crossdressed and bound for the stage

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Ohhh, I love this chapter… Many reasons.

First of all, it reminds me this post: Associations, triggers, crossdressing and forced feminization

Then, lots of my fetishes are fully “exploited” in this episode )pantyhose, bondage, swimsuit, public crossdressing, public bondage, forced feminization, etc.)

And finally it reminds me how I met my wife. It was a New Year improvised show for kids, where four guys (I was one of them) were dressed in kinda women’s clothes and were playing Santa helpers. My (future) wife put make-up on me. I was not wearing anything fetishy (no pantyhose, swimsuits or anything).

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Nana to Kaoru. Chapter 52. Back to Mr. Freud

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On one hand, it’s very interesting to know/understand what caused or triggered my interest in bondage, self-bondage, gags, rubber, swimsuits and pantyhose. I think I discovered the fun when I was 4 or something.

On the other hand, I love my fetishes, they do not bother or annoy me and I do not want to be “cured”, like I stated here.

What is your story?

See these forum threads:

Self-bondage, fetish and children
How it Began (kids and fetish)

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