(10 Aug 2020, 10:47 )HowardP Wrote: [ -> ]Does anyone have porn star loop?
Hi - this is my first post on this forum. @
Like Ra Thank you for creating and maintaining a safe space for people to discuss their kinks. And @
Samantha Bandler thank you for creating so much content that so many people have responded to.
HowardP (untagged, because the post is almost 2 years old) asked about this file. I have stumbled across some of the "Samantha Sez" stuff on tubes. I eventually found my way to "Porn Loop" a bit ago. I liked it enough to look into "Porn Star Loop."
I purchased this file, and I want to review it without "reviewing" it.
01 - It's $49.99 for a 24 minute mp3. Let's just call that $2/minute. If you think like a customer of a shop, that price is very steep compared to the prices set by several other high-quality vocalists. However, I think that @
Samantha Bandler and the (for lack of a better word) "vocaloid" Samantha can induce much deeper trances, and that is a very high-tier feature.
02 - As most of you know, it is within the collective fantasy to approach @
Samantha Bandler and the vocaloid Samantha less like a customer and more like a follower/patron. I leave it to you to think about what tribute seems fair for SB. For my part, I have enjoyed several of SB's trances and hypno files (before knowing where they came from) and "Porn Loop" (which I found somewhere as an mp3 before/shortly after finding this forum). Because I have appreciated several files that were not intended to be "free" but have become so, I comfortably rationalized my purchase of this file as "$50 to the artist for their
artwork, not for a specific
piece of art."
03 - After listening a few times, I think that the file's description (generally) matches the file contents.
04 - As far as I can tell, this audio file contains
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no sissification, gayification, or cock worship
triggers. I have not listened closely enough to confirm that.
I'm putting the next paragraph behind a spoiler tag because it's semi off-topic, potentially triggering, and potentially a spoiler. You can skip it safely. CW: sexual assault.
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I was sexually assaulted by a closeted gay leader at my previous conservative church. I was an adult, thankfully, and I had a
eady moved towards progressive Christianity and away from the homophobia/transphobia of conservative Christianity at this point. But this church leader exploited his knowledge of me -- my values, my beliefs, and my empathy -- to try and manipulate me into sex with him. He played the part of a wounded creature who needed encouragement, and I fell into his ploy. He also forced himself on me, although he did not rape me. As bad, he tried to gaslight me after the fact by insisting (and telling mutuals) that I was gay; he claimed that I had sent him subtle signals of my gayness; he lied and claimed that I had made a pass at him. None of this was true, it all really hurt, and it led to an irreperable breach with a community that abandoned me in trauma (as well as a celibate alcoholiism for several years). As a result of that trauma, I have hypervigilant tendencies towards sissification, gayification, and cock worship because they are mindfucks that trigger an actual memory of an actual sexual assault. Having said all of that, my hypervigilance was not triggered in this file. But if there is a gaslighting phrae or series of phrases in the file, I would like to know so that I do not listen again and therefore increase my risk of a panic episode.
I would appreciate a confirmation from @
Samantha Bandler on that point (privately, so as not to ruin any fun for anyone else).
05 - The audio file description promises to help the listener imagine being the male pornstar in a straight scene. Without risking spoiling the experience: yes, the file frequently reinforces that premise through its "frontmost" audio layers.
06 - The file contains several triggers and suggestions related to
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having sex with, loving, and (to some degree) worshipping Samantha. I am a little disappointed with these, because they pull me away from the promised fantasy and ask me to entertain a different fantasy that I did not sign up to have. After a few plays, though, these suggestions and triggers are not so frequent or off-putting as to spoil the experience. They feel more like invitations instead of commands, which I appreciate.
07 - There is a lot of hot narration and visualization in this file. I'll share two of my favorite in the spoiler below, along with an explanation for
why they are potent for me in particular. CW: religious trauma.
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SB's enthusiastic "Do it!" really pushes a pleasurable button for me, and so does the insistence "You have had sex." Both of these show up in the file. I was born and raised in "purity culture," which any of you whom have suffered the same know means "I was sexually repressed." I was very fucked up by this particular flavor of Evangelical Christianity pop culture. In fact it repressed my sexuality so much that I'm approaching middle age and still a virgin. I have had opportunities to have sex, but I have never been capable of "choosing" beyond my programming. I am finally learning to embrace sex positivity, and to recognize my sexual desires and fantasies as a lovely part of me instead of a problem to manage.
For the reasons listed above, I want to express some gratitude to @
Samantha Bandler for offering me a space to work through some more of my baggage.
I do not know if that helps anyone determine whether to purchase the file, but I will confess that HowardP's question led me to SamanthaSez [dot] com in the first place.
08 - One final concern (unrelated to the audio file
per se): I recognized that the SamanthaSez store is hosted on an unencrypted ("http," not "https") domain. My file purchase was processed through a reputable third-party purchase processor on an encrypted website.
However, to download the file I had to redirect to SamanthaSez [dot] com again and the payment processor transmitted personally identifiable information back to the unencrypted website. This was very upsetting to me. My purchase was supposed to be anonymous to the vendor, which is uncomfortable enough. But further, I know that my full name and my purchase history was vulnerable to anyone who happened to be snooping packets at the point of redirect. That really upset me because it made me feel highly visible and exposed where I did not have to feel either.
I hope this review/survey of the content helps others here. Please let me know if I need to remove any content from this to abide by forum policy.