Tied to bed, listening to Bambi Hypnosis and being a good Bimbodoll

[Bound Whore]

Oh look, Boundhub cleared my first ever upload.
Totally caught me off-guard to see myself in the "new" videos.

https://www.boundhub.com/videos/454339/l...bimbodoll/

These don't embed, eh?

[Like Ra]

These don't embed, eh?

I'm not sure Boundhub can be embedded. Can you upload to xHamster?

What Bambi files were you listening? Any results during/after your self-bondage session?

[Like Ra]

Found a way to embed - it will not stay this way if the URL is dynamic. The file is only 6 min long, can you upload it into the forum?

[Bound Whore]

I'm not sure Boundhub can be embedded. Can you upload to xHamster?
What Bambi files were you listening? Any results during/after your self-bondage session?

Will use xHamster in the future.

I started with the 10 part Bubble Induction series a while back.

No immediate full on hypnosis effects so far - apart from slight arousal from the fantasy itself -, but I was listening once while I was hiking and I found myself in a trance-like state after a while, walking on autopilot, eyes half closed. Definetely felt a slight ... rush? tingle? when the triggers (Bimbodoll, Good Girl, Drop for cock) were mentioned.

I'll make a longer post later, as to how I got interested in the topic, short version:

Let's just say I always felt completely straight all my life (m, early 50s), but lately, for maybe 3-4 months, whenever I watched blowjob porn (thanks, Covid!), I started to feel divided on whom to envy more in the video, the dicksuckee or the dicksucker. I also never really was into sissyfication, heck, even mixing in some light crossdressing is a fairly new twist in my kink life (which was pretty much glamour bondage since my early 20s, see my shortfuse post in the EOTD thread the other day). I don't have the desire to dress up much outside of bondage scenarios. I blame Guisi for that, he triggered the inclusion of fake breasts in my routine. Lucky bastard with his androgynous features and the ability to tie his elbows together. So fucking hot.

So I'm exploring this side of me now. I don't feel particularly conflicted about it, I'm just wondering if it's just part of a fantasy or something ... deeper. Is cocksucking (or the desire to do so without ever actually following through with it) a keystone in this corner of the kinkverse?
Have any of you developed the fantasy and dipped their feet into bicuriosity/heteroflexibility (or jumped right into the deep end?)
How did that go? Is there a thread for this? If not, there should be 😁

Well, it's kind of on the table for me now, maybe an opportunity will present itself down the line.

Sorry for rambling, I don't have much opportunity to talk about this side of me with friends or family.
It's also a fairly new development.

Oh look, I made a longer post aeady.

[madjack]

Hi @Bound Whore

Wow - what a way to pop your video posting cherry!   😁

Great scene and post - intrigued by your clothing and love our mutual good taste in hoods   

Would like to know a few more details about your set-up (any 'toy's involved, what was the gag like, etc)

Judging by your longer reply to @Like Ra it seems we are very similar in our experiences, apart from the hypnosis thing, which isn't on my 'to-try' list (yet...)

I've posted elsewhere about my decent/ascent (all down to personal perspective) into kink (here if you're interested) so won't repeat all of that stuff, but will comment on some of your specific questions:

Cock sucking is a comparatively recent fantasy for me and one I've took no further that a penis gag (which came with the hood - did you get one with yours?). I should stress that it's the 'cock' element not 'a man with a cock' that I fantasise about, and not just in my mouth..   Having said all that, I'm not ruling out anything and have exchanged ideas with someone (he knows who he is  😉 ) of very similar tastes (ahem!) which has improved and advanced that fantasy considerably. Never say never!

Cross-dressing followed a similar route - like you, bondage photographers/sites such as Jim Weathers, Shortfuse, Devonshire, Seether/SPI, House of Gord, etc all fuelled my fetish and love of lingerie bondage. The natural progression was to imitate the models in my self-bondage, though I think my purchase of silicon breasts was spurred on most by @Culmor and @Anne who make them look so good to wear! (thanks guys for denting my bank balance even more!). 

I wish I has Guisi's flexibility and bravery - that guy really pushes a bit too close to the edge on occasions, great images but I fear for his safety. 

Now I'm going to have to revisit my own self-bondage videos and sort out some re-posts after all the ones I shared got deleted in the 'great Porn Hub purge'  😡 - more of my life wasted in cyber-space  

MJ

[Like Ra]

If feels so ... satisfying? ... relieving? exciting? ... when you continue to meet people with, like, 90% overlapping fetishes 😋

[Bound Whore]

Would like to know a few more details about your set-up (any 'toy's involved, what was the gag like, etc)

Just a regular butt plug (but I also have an inflatable, vibrating one that I will include in upcoming sessions) and the hood. And my second, smaller set of fake titties (although I could have used my sunday best silicone tits for this one since it lacked a chest harness).

I usually only go for ballgags, preferably with a head harness, sometimes with an added mouth panel. Cleave gags just don't do it for me. But the inflatable butterfly gag is an exception, the tightness and the way it just fills the mouth is so very appealing. Since it tends to just slip out when fully inflated, I require a way to hold it firmly in place. The deprivation hood (Type 1, which was recommended here) is a perfect fit for this. The hood is crafted very well for its price, honestly wasn't expecting that level of quality. I even got two of them, so I have both the 5cm and 10 cm penis gag panel. The 10 cm one just ever so slightly triggers my gag reflex, so it's great for training. I also have this one, which fits the hood nicely, but it's currently too much and immediately makes me gag as soon as I start to inflate it. I will work my way up to it
I might go for a third hood, because I kinda want a screaming pink one now.

But when using the inflatable butterfly gag I need to keep being in full control, since overinflating it while it's kept firmly in place can lead to some serious breathing restrictions and/or gag reflex triggers, so it's out for stringent scenarios that require struggling or more elaborate ways to free myself.

Therefore the tie in the video is very tame - the set of cuffs is just connected by a double snap hook. I usually opt for very easy escapes without relying on any mechanical/timed release methods, but I'm also planning on upping my game in that area to add more forced control and duration. I just need time to figure out safe and reliable releases. Field testing is underway. Don't look into my freezer.

Cock sucking is a comparatively recent fantasy for me and one I've took no further that a penis gag (which came with the hood - did you get one with yours?). I should stress that it's the 'cock' element not 'a man with a cock' that I fantasise about, and not just in my mouth..

Yeah, that's the thing - after some soulsearching and exploring my desires, I don't "feel" gay (or, more precisely, bisexual) in the sense that I want to be involved with a man romantically or sexually other than craving - or fantasizing about - the feeling of having a juicy cock in my mouth and shoved down my throat. Gay porn doesn't do anything for me. M2F transgender though is a different story. I did my research 😁

Sure, dildos work for mimicking the sensation and help train to suppress the gag reflex.
There are these double layered ones that are softer and more slippery when properly drooled on, but I just can't help imagining the real thing would just feel so. much. better.

Also yeah, dildos can't properly come in your mouth, down your throat and all over your face (I'm aware of and I own a squirting dildo, but it's ... meh).
I guess for me the submissive nature of the act of enthusiastically sucking cock is the fantasy.

Some might argue "yeah, you're a closeted bisexual, get over yourself" and I wouldn't have a problem with that and would happily admit it to myself once I ventured down that path and enjoyed it.
I also might not like it at all.
As of now, I really can't tell.

I wish I has Guisi's flexibility and bravery - that guy really pushes a bit too close to the edge on occasions, great images but I fear for his safety. 

He uses a lot of elastic cord for his arms, hands and around the chest, so it looks a lot tighter and more inescapable than it actually is, but it's impressive and oh so stimulating to watch nonetheless.

[Bound Whore]

If feels so ... satisfying? ... relieving? exciting? ... when you continue to meet people with, like, 90% overlapping fetishes 😋

It really does. Even typing out your thoughts without the fear of judgement is so cathartic.

[helpless85]

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[Like Ra]

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Sounds intriguing 😋

Cleave gags just don't do it for me.

Yep, they make no sense.

I kinda want a screaming pink one now.

I kinda totally understand this 😉

or fantasizing about - the feeling of having a juicy cock in my mouth and shoved down my throat.

Oh yes!!! Dress me up, tie me down and shove that shaft down my throat!!!! (Must confess, I do have some experience)

He uses a lot of elastic cord for his arms, hands and around the chest,

That's interesting...