Hello all. This is my first post here and I think it is needed really, this thread has helped me to come to terms with so much, and also to piece together some parts of my life including parts that I forgot about. Also sorry for the length, but I got a lot to say.
I am a 17 year old male with Autism and after reading this I can really say that it makes a lot of sense. First of all let me explain a bit…. I don’t like being hugged or touched….. I removed myself from physical human contact at a very early age due to the autism. That will link in with the desire and great feel that I get from bondage and when I do it.
I only recently thought about it (only recently thought I got into bondage……..) and I would have to say my first experience was when I was between 5 and 8, can’t remember when…. It was turning my blanket into a mummy bag to mummifie myself. This gave me a good feeling and I was really happy doing this for a long time at bed time before my older brother came to bed.
Then the autism part of me started, and I started to explore a lot and if I remember right I even started to use some basic forms of the bondage I have been learning recently but with bed sheets….. but I soon stopped as we moved house.
In the new house I decided to experiment a lot more, and I had a lot more freedom to try new things, so from between 11 to a month ago I have been messing about mainly with tights and whatever else I could find, but not really much to do with bondage, mainly as I was lacking the equipment of thicker rope (I like it quite tight) so I didn’t do much, or I did a bit of tight bondage but for 5 mins only….
I then remembered that I got some rope, about 1cm diameter and 2m long and 2 pieces of it 😉 I was happy, so I started to look up lots of different techniques to doing self-bondage. I was really worried for a bit……..i thought I was getting into self-bondage a bit too early……I thought 17 was too young and I should wait until I am 20+ and maybe more mature……… (don’t know why I thought this, as due to the autism I personally matured really quickly) .
I then found this site and over the past couple of days I have been reading this thread, and it has helped me a lot to piece together everything and see where it all comes from, but mainly too notice that 17 is not too young, and that I have a
eady been into it science I was about 6. I can now relax a lot more and can enjoy myself, and by reading all that I have by the sounds of it, it only gets better over time and experience.
Also just to add to what has been said before, I also have a high functioning mind but I do also find that bondage calms me down a lot…. Don’t know why but it does. I have recently been trying to go to sleep in bondage and I had a wonderful night sleep last night, did not wake up at all, and best of all had some fun before getting out of bed 😉
So, now that is over, time for some story’s from me 😉 I’ll do them in age order.
When I was really young, I use to take an inhaler every day, but I never wanted it…….. I did occasionally sit down and do it myself and was ok, but not normally……. Usually I would run around the room and refuse to take it, all of my family had to pin me down to make me take it, I guess this was really my introduction to the idea of restraints…. Was pretty much the only physical human contact for some time and it was forceful which leads more and more towards bondage.
Now when I was about 9, I mummified myself, was having fun but then my brother came upstairs to get a book for school…… I froze….. panicked a lot…… don’t think he even understood what was going on at all, he just got his book and went, but I was so excited and worried at the same time afterwards for a couple of weeks then…and didn’t even get fully caught doing anything wrong.
Now, about age 12, I managed to ‘borrow’ some of my mums shoes, I found them useful as I could do bondage in then with what I got and they would not hurt (they were just above the ankle so provided some support). One day we were packing for holiday and there was a small suitcase under my bead, the shoes behind them….. mum asked me to get the suite case, but I moaned so she offered to get it which I said yes to…not thinking……..
She was gone quite some time……didn’t think anything of it for some time until I suddenly remembered where the shoes where. But by then I knew it would be too late, I couldn’t do anything….i was waiting for mum to come and talk to me about it….got really worried.
Nothing. She never mentioned it to me, and I feel I am better for it, I could tell for a week or so she was funny with me, or at least I thought she was but then everything was back to normal, so either she decided to let it be, or she forgot. Also after a week the shoes returned but I have never touched them science…
I do feel with little stuff like shoes it is probably best to put them back, and then say nothing. Just like with most of the story’s about catsuits. After a while, it is forgotten and all is fine, even maybe the parents are ok with it, or they understand that the child needs to explore and discover things for themselves.
Now for something like with bondage in the first post, i myself as still living with my parents, don’t really know what to think……. For me, on one side I would like to know the my parents are supporting me and are willing to help me if anything goes wrong, or if I need any help, but the other side (probably autism side) would not want to say anything to me at all, and totally ignore it.
I guess it depends on how serious it is really to what you should do about it. In the terms of the ‘toy box’ which keeps on getting toys removed, I would personally want to do something about it, but not directly. I would say personally to leave a note like what is suggested about when you buy a new toy. In this note I would make clear that you do/don’t want them to be using them, but mainly to make sure that they are cleaning them and remembering to put them back. As a child they won’t ever want to get a toy when your about, as they don’t want you personally knowing when they are doing it.
As for the bondage, I would say to maybe leave a note, saying in a nice way that you know, and that if he ever wants to ask you for anything or any help then just to ask you, and you will help him. This way be is not intimidated or put on the spot, and it is up to him if he wants to discuss it or not. Just make clear that you don’t mind him doing it, as not to offend him.
I would say in both your cases, it is wrong to ban them from doing these…..as you do them, and you probably know that at their age if you could you would do the same as well 😉
Right, so that is it from me, I hoped that as being young myself, I have possibly help people out, if not at least I might have interested some people. Also sorry for the length again, but this is really me trying to make even more sense of it myself even as a type it