I'm in my mid-40s. I've been crossdressing since my early teens, and I have feminization desires way before that. I'm married since my 20s, no children, and looks like our efforts to have them are coming to a sad conclusion. This obviously strains our marriage, and now I am at a point where I am no longer denying my true self: I am transgender person, willing to take every measure to feminize my body and mind to the extremes. You may call it sissification or bimbofication that I want to do to myself.
I've started to listen to hypnosis with the intent of changing myself (B.mbi sleep and others). I have started to self-hypnotize myself with a combination of mantras, porn and sissy hypno. I had a slow success: I managed to get from where I was grossed out of men's
body to really salivate on them, to really long for pleasuring them. I was scared to accept this at first, but today, I have now an undeniable desire to be romantically and sexually involved with men.
Nowadays I am focusing mostly on audio hypnosis that I generate for myself using AI voices and some kind of audio concatenation and mixing. I find it very rewarding, especially because I can use my native language and it sticks better. I'm using short mantras like:
"I want to suck my man's cock."
"I can't wait for the hormones to grow me tits."
"I want to show off my round ass in tight miniskirts."
"I crave for showing of my big boobs to men."
"I need to divorce my wife to marry a different man and become his slutty wife."
I used to watch porn to make their more effective, but that works only if I limit them to a specific topic and use only 5-10 of them.
I am looking for more though: inspiration for mantras, even specific texts and goals. I want to increase my desire for transitioning to a level where I cannot resist it anymore, where I don't care about my past and focus only on my feminine and possibly very slutty future. If you have mantras you like, scenarios that I need to learn or facts that I need to accept, please write it here or in DMs.