Bambi Sleep stuff

[Auburn_Aura]

Interesting metaphor, but ... what does it mean for you?

I just realized it sounds like I threw her into a volcano and danced around the caldera. Like a pagan to the old gods.
But to explain the metaphor a bit further, I basically gave up complete and total control over the use of bambis triggers.

The dream up until that point had been about telling me to let go of bambi altogether, and basically just go through a purge.
I then took bambi's bubble, but instead of dropping it to the ground, I ended up holding it up as a gift, with my head hung down.
I felt a sense of surprise, and after a few moments of silence, the thought "this changes things" came to me.
Then the previous image of the child came paired with a strong emotion that completely dropped me out of dreamspace.

What will you do with it?

That part hasn't come yet, wish me well please 😊

[Auburn_Aura]

Well yesterday I did have my first takeover. The shock of it caused me to raise my hands to my mouth, and whisper "oh wow" to myself. The hands around my mouth acted as a barrier to prevent a full takeover, but I got the message that I was too soon and didn't have my uniform on.

Later during the night I tried to do a proper uniformed session, but I got a lecture instead. Woke up in a purge mindset.

Well this round of fractionation (obsess / purge) was interesting. It looks like I've hit the point where I need to consolidate and rest the mind.

[jadefortyfour]

Well yesterday I did have my first takeover. The shock of it caused me to raise my hands to my mouth, and whisper "oh wow" to myself. The hands around my mouth acted as a barrier to prevent a full takeover, but I got the message that I was too soon and didn't have my uniform on.

Later during the night I tried to do a proper uniformed session, but I got a lecture instead. Woke up in a purge mindset.

Well this round of fractionation (obsess / purge) was interesting. It looks like I've hit the point where I need to consolidate and rest the mind.

A familiar routine for us as well...

[Like Ra]

I got a lecture instead.

Any details?

[Auburn_Aura]

I got a lecture instead.

Any details?

Putting on a 'full uniform' was a sign of impatience, and me attempting to 'force the setting of the scene' with my expectations / desires, instead of it being the shared game between these different aspects of myself.

My eagerness at FINALLY getting success, after 15 years of nothing, distorted the connection.

Essentially, I demanded too much from myself, too quickly; And now, I must learn the lesson of patience.

[Like Ra]

Putting on a 'full uniform' was a sign of impatience

Mmmm... Ain't you supposed to wear uniform during listening to Bambi?

[Auburn_Aura]

Putting on a 'full uniform' was a sign of impatience

Mmmm... Ain't you supposed to wear uniform during listening to Bambi?

Bambi was offered up, and was returned in a different form. Therefore, a new uniform must be crafted from scratch.

[Like Ra]

Therefore, a new uniform must be crafted from scratch.

And which one were you wearing?

[Auburn_Aura]

Therefore, a new uniform must be crafted from scratch.

And which one were you wearing?

A full head setup, bambi only wanted the mouth covering (mimicking the hands).

[Like Ra]

A full head setup, bambi only wanted the mouth covering (mimicking the hands).

Was it a new uniform? And what's the story with covering the mouth? You mentioned it before, but I still do not understand it.