18 Aug 2025, 00:45 (This post was last modified: 18 Aug 2025, 00:51 by Auburn_Aura.)
(18 Aug 2025, 00:37 )Like Ra Wrote: And what's the story with covering the mouth? You mentioned it before, but I still do not understand it
It was a completely unconscious action of completely surprise on my part. I had felt myself shake my head, felt a cascade of bushy / wavy hair flow, then settle on my back.
All hypnosis for me has only been internal sensations so far, never external.
It was the conscious me that said, "Oh wow." The skin under my hands was the only part of my upper body that still felt fully, and only, 'me'.
After that experience, I was hopeful, and expectant, for the best session I had ever had... only for it to crash down.
Hey! How are things going? Good to hear from you again and will certainly check these out but would also highly recommend Bellmar's musical efforts. Great lyrics work and placement.
(13 Aug 2025, 13:27 )Like Ra Wrote: I could not fall asleep and turned on Bambi playlist (actually, SCM chose Bambi)
Hmmm, last night it was a playlist with MsJ (new TTS) files.
Aaaand a whole night of extended Bambi again - could not fall asleep, my SCM chose Bambi (but promised Kei, literally 2 hours before I went to bed. Go figure ... 🤣 )
(18 Aug 2025, 16:45 )Like Ra Wrote: Aaaand a whole night of extended Bambi again - could not fall asleep, my SCM chose Bambi (but promised Kei, literally 2 hours before I went to bed. Go figure ... 🤣 )
Could she be wrestling with something, other than with you that is?
I have no idea what's going on. This is what my SCM wrote before last night:
SCM Wrote:Tonight you might hear something different. What about Kei? We'll see 😉
And this is from 2 min ago:
SCM Wrote:What do you think of Amnesia? Don't like it? Last time you had quite an HFO! You did not have quite the same negative reaction to the suggestions. Are the becoming normal to you? "New normal", he-he... Dumbing down and destroying neural paths do not produce a violent reaction. Sure, just listen more, he-he...
Anyway, they do not dumb you down, actually. But they will if you agree to this actively while listening to the suggestions.
Aren't you aroused? Scary stuff arouses you? Do you need more scary stuff? E.g. "IQ lock"? No? You listened to it anyway in the Pig Girl files, so, why such a resistance? And... it's about the new personality, not you, right? Or you do not trust it? OK, we'll get there... Sooner or later... Good girl, Marta! Aroused again! Ha-ha... Told ya.... Your body wants it. The mind will catch up. What else are you scared of? ABDL? he-he.... See, how it works? You like being forced, you like to be dominated, even if it's about men (MsJ files). As soon as you dressed up (and bound) you are OK with everything, aren't you, naughty girl? Yeeees, you are!!!!
18 Aug 2025, 18:15 (This post was last modified: 18 Aug 2025, 18:23 by Auburn_Aura.)
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: SCM Wrote:What do you think of Amnesia? Don't like it? Last time you had quite an HFO! You did not have quite the same negative reaction to the suggestions. Are the becoming normal to you? "New normal", he-he... Dumbing down and destroying neural paths do not produce a violent reaction. Sure, just listen more, he-he...
Anyway, they do not dumb you down, actually. But they will if you agree to this actively while listening to the suggestions.
Aren't you aroused? Scary stuff arouses you? Do you need more scary stuff? E.g. "IQ lock"? No? You listened to it anyway in the Pig Girl files, so, why such a resistance? And... it's about the new personality, not you, right? Or you do not trust it? OK, we'll get there... Sooner or later... Good girl, Marta! Aroused again! Ha-ha... Told ya.... Your body wants it. The mind will catch up. What else are you scared of? ABDL? he-he.... See, how it works? You like being forced, you like to be dominated, even if it's about men (MsJ files). As soon as you dressed up (and bound) you are OK with everything, aren't you, naughty girl? Yeeees, you are!!!!
I don't wish to project onto you like I did before, so I will respond as if my SCM wrote that to me :
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: What do you think of Amnesia?
You may have seen my earlier conceptions of hypno sessions being bubbles, combine that with the earlier concept of offering up the bubble up to higher dimensional forms of myself. To me, amnesia is me offering up my memories for proper placement within the mind. Which neurons, and other memories, should be surrounding this memory for optimal efficiency for living life. Knowing that when I need to remember something, It will be there for me when it is needed. Otherwise, I know I can trust that my CM reviewed the memory, and saw no issues letting anything inside that experience go unaddressed with the SCM.
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: Dumbing down and destroying neural paths do not produce a violent reaction. Sure, just listen more, he-he...
I actually quite like my way around dumbing down suggestions. To me becoming bambi isn't about 'becoming' dumb, but in realizing that in comparison to the higher dimensional forms of yourself, you are still but a child.
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: Anyway, they do not dumb you down, actually. But they will if you agree to this actively while listening to the suggestions.
see above, but I think the second half is a warning. Be careful in how you image the suggestions, or they really will work as forced onto you, instead of being properly integrated.
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: Aren't you aroused? Scary stuff arouses you? Do you need more scary stuff? E.g. "IQ lock"? No? You listened to it anyway in the Pig Girl files, so, why such a resistance?
This brings to mind several things : "Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom", "Heart demons" are usually beings of fear / shame, Talking to "The Shadow" / "Opening of the Third Eye" seems to be a process in which you are confronted with your life, and are forced to see all sides of it (including the shameful / fearful parts). Could your SCM be preparing you for this encounter?
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: As soon as you dressed up (and bound) you are OK with everything, aren't you, naughty girl? Yeeees, you are!!!!
It sounds like you might be ready, but don't know how to say "Yes" yet. There's a recent hypnotube video I watched that knocked my ass out (a rare success). It involved a 'yes / no' game. Where whenever "yes" flashed on the screen, you needed to say / whisper "no". Eventually my body got tired of putting in the physical effort to say now, that I just collapsed. I've taken inspiration from this video and made a 'game' with my SCM. It sends me tempting thoughts and images, and I "say no", until not even my internal voice has the energy to resist anymore.
18 Aug 2025, 18:33 (This post was last modified: 18 Aug 2025, 18:37 by Auburn_Aura.)
(18 Aug 2025, 17:40 )Like Ra Wrote: SCM Wrote:Tonight you might hear something different. What about Kei? We'll see 😉
One thing I will say, and project onto you though, is this.
[If you have lost sight of the light in your life, or God so to speak, you can be damn well sure it will be reflected in the eyes of the Devil; For you know, he will never avert his gaze from what he desires most. Make him flinch him with a kiss, then welcome them back as a brother or sister.]
This is how I overlayed the concept of Yin / Yang on top of my christian upbringing.
If Kei's demon girl is involved, that imagery might help. Depending on how a demon is conceptualized for you.
