Bambi Sleep stuff

[ironically_Alison]

Has Bambi been a good messenger to you, Auburn_Aura? has she integrated well? does she cause conflict? have you yielded to her?

[Auburn_Aura]

Has Bambi been a good messenger to you, Auburn_Aura? has she integrated well? does she cause conflict? have you yielded to her?

In reverse order :
I doubt I'm capable of truly submitting to Bambi
No conflict due to the above
Mindset integration is short lived, but each success is bringing stronger feelings of love and acceptance
Despite the 'failure', she has shown immense patience and understanding during my journey. During my deepest meditations, I can't think of anything other than how proud I am of her for that.

In short, she is the spirit of my Envy, in more ways than one.
[She is my "Greatest Gift". A bright pink diamond, where the pink doesn't quite seem to reach the edges.]

[Auburn_Aura]

I just had a short meditation session. Tonight, might be a very special night for me.

If so @ironically_Alison, if you don't mind me saying [You have been a very "Good Girl"]

[subdream]

there's so much more to talk about, i could talk for ages about this. i've been obsessed for years

I'll read every single word. I'm obsessed with all aspects of trans, but I can't contribute anything except being a listener.

[Auburn_Aura]

Hrm.

Pros: A proper conversation with my full shadow, and a path on how to properly integrate.

Cons: no full takeover, and now there is work to be done.

[ironically_Alison]

I just had a short meditation session. Tonight, might be a very special night for me.

If so @ironically_Alison, if you don't mind me saying [You have been a very "Good Girl"]

lol i dont mind hearing that at all! but why do you say so? and what is the new work you've discovered that needs to be done?

[ironically_Alison]

these hypnotube 'tiktoks' featuring Bambi are not by the famous Bambi Tiktoks creator, but they're good in their own way and there are three of them so far.

https://hypnotube.com/video/bambi-tiktok...78146.html

[Auburn_Aura]

lol i dont mind hearing that at all! but why do you say so?

Triggers are triggers, and for me consent is consent.

what is the new work you've discovered that needs to be done?

The spirit of my animus (masculine energy) wishes to raise my Bambi as a daughter, which is a very different proposition.

[Auburn_Aura]

Then my father got up, and I was afraid that he will discover what I was listening to.

In the morning, my SCM added more files to the Bambi playlist. More dangerous ones ...

In that case, I will lean towards projection, and meditate accordingly. Thank you for your time and contemplation on this.

@Like Ra below is my recent analysis of my projection onto your dream if you are interested.

I've recently come to realize that my relationship with bambi was one in which my nights would be filled with hypno training for bambi, then the days would be me, the Ego, being the dom by locking her in the box as 'revenge', then "forgetting" about her while she was restrained.

But the anima is not just the feminine sexual energy, it is also the creative force behind passionate work and growth. By locking her away during the day, I was able to have the grasp the illusion of control in my life, but it came at the cost of being able to feel the love of life itself.

It's only been recently during my ego death where everything shattered, that I was able to 'feel the love' again.

It's culminated in a dream on my end, where I offered up bambi as a sacrifice to the higher forms of myself, and it was returned as an image of a little girl on my lap, swinging her legs while softly humming and gently playing with a doll in her hands.

[Like Ra]

if you are interested

Always!

I can't say I understood everything you wrote, as it's a personal interpretation of personal events, which can change with time and with switching to new realities. In any case, it's for you, for your lessons, for your tasks in the current incarnation.

It's culminated in a dream on my end, where I offered up Bambi as a sacrifice to the higher forms of myself, and it was returned as an image of a little girl on my lap, swinging her legs while softly humming and gently playing with a doll in her hands.

Interesting metaphor, but ... what does it mean for you? What will you do with it?