Bambi Sleep stuff

[Like Ra]

I believe what happened to me

Could you please elaborate?

Sadhguru

That's a cool guy! 👍

Jung

Unfortunately, he does not have any youtube or tiktok channel 😉

[Auburn_Aura]

I believe what happened to me

Could you please elaborate?

I believe my situation is the mirrored image of yours. I've mentioned a recent hypno experience in another post that you might remember "https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...8#pid82038"

Essentially my musing since then have shown me that the voice of my upper chakras, the disciplined masculine, were never reaching the lower chakras. The bridge of my soul was forcing my lower level chakras to live the life my mother was acting out / or wanted me to act out, in order to reflect to "her", just how much damage the following can do :

Not trusting your husband to provide, even when he loses his job, even when it seems like he is doing nothing.
['Trust in the Lord with all they heart, lean not on your own understanding', this includes to the timing of things]
Divorcing your husband when you have a child between the ages of 2-4
[These are the most formative years, the years that truly shape the story the soul sings.]
Even if the step father, does everything right, and does no evil. No matter how much the child loves and cares for the step father, there is still a void left behind.
[Sometimes a child cries because they want the comfort of their mother, and sometimes a child cries because they need the reassurance of their father]
The song of my childhood is a fractured one that can only be sung at certain times. Much like a multilayered hypno session with parallel story tracks.

[Auburn_Aura]

Jung

Unfortunately, he does not have any youtube or tiktok channel 😉

I got my knowledge of Jung two ways, Copious amounts of Jordan Peterson ("Maps of Meaning" and "Personality and Its Transformations") as a base,
and since my 'mystical experience', the AI algorithm on youtube has been quite generous in serving up Jung analysis against ai image backgrounds.

in general I have always been quite good at seeing deeply with surface information
[Too quick (read both as smart and impatient) for his own good, the cup starts to fill by itself before you can add the proper mixing of ingredients]

What's being served up on youtube for me are "awakened empath" type of videos, not all of it rings true of course, but I can see the nodes on where those branches would have grown
[Example: 

Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aggWMmHddJY
]

[Like Ra]

I believe my situation is the mirrored image of yours

Ermmm ... Sorry, I still do not understand.

the voice of my upper chakras, the disciplined masculine, were never reaching the lower chakras. The bridge of my soul was forcing my lower level chakras to live the life my mother was acting out

Another new concept to me - I never associated chakras with male or female energies.

[ironically_Alison]

Auburn, i assume youre hinting that BS is forcing a confrontation (in the case of likera's dream) between the masculine self and an anima that needed reintegrating but probably should do it on the masculine self's terms?

im not trying to paraphrase to take away your right to express this in more openended terms. im just asking if im on the right path here?

[Auburn_Aura]

Auburn, i assume youre hinting that BS is forcing a confrontation (in the case of likera's dream) between the masculine self and an anima that needed reintegrating but probably should do it on the masculine self's terms?

Actually I think it's the opposite. I think that LikeRa's SCM is fearful of what the awakening of masculine energy would bring.
EDIT : But this described my particular situation well. Part of my SCM, the shadow of my anima, is Bambi [Amy being the ego of my anima]. THEY are trying to get me to see that it's ok to want to love and be loved.

the voice of my upper chakras, the disciplined masculine, were never reaching the lower chakras. The bridge of my soul was forcing my lower level chakras to live the life my mother was acting out

Another new concept to me - I never associated chakras with male or female energies.

There is a part I remember seeing in the book "Eastern Body Western Mind by Anodea Judith" about how different energy blockages create different natural body stances. The image showed 4 feminine figures and two masculine figures.

My mind immediately mapped it onto my current table :

Gender	Chakra Name	Chakra Location?	Meditation Mantra	(The Bridge?)	Deadly Sin
Both / Androgenous	Crown Chakra	Corpus Callosum?	I KNOW	Submission	Sloth
Feminine (Neg)	Third Eye Chakra	Pineal Gland?	I SEE	Wisdom	Pride
Masculine (Pos)	Throat Chakra	Brain Stem	I SPEAK	Truth	Wrath
Opposite Sex	High Heart Chakra	Heart	I AM THE ALL THAT I AM	(You)
Your Sex	Heart Chakra	Solar Plexus	I LOVE	Generosity	Greed
Masculine (Neg)	Solar Plexus Chakra	Stomach Plexus	I WILL	Gather Strength	Gluttony
Feminine (Pos)	Sacral	Gonad Plexus	I FEEL	Ambition	Lust
Both / Hermaphrodic	Root	Tailbone	I AM	Secure	Envy

I believe my situation is the mirrored image of yours

Ermmm ... Sorry, I still do not understand.

As much as I treasure my ego death experience, it was in many ways both kind and unkind. With your SCM wanting to do the more dangerous files (SNF / Dly in the box), I am worried you are too fearful of what the positive aspect of the masculine has to say. That's why Amy voiced her opinion, asking you not to fear.

For me, it is the positive aspect of the feminine that I fear most. My Bambi is someone who is very [too] tightly controlled.

[Like Ra]

Tonight was another Bambi-night.

I think that LikeRa's SCM is fearful of what the awakening of masculine energy would bring.

OK, if we take this statement as given. Why does SCM make me listen to the "extended range" (including some files with more dumbing-down and amnesia suggestions) of Bambi and Pig Girl? To shift my conscious mind towards feminization? Because it fears masculine energies? Yes, I do have misandry and gynephilia. Highly amplified by hypno-stuff during the last years. And various "gayification" containing sissy-files only "sharpened" my misandry 😂

Also, I thought, that SCM does not fear, it's CM, what can be scared. And SCM is supposed to be emotionless, it's something what's connected to the higher dimensions, while CM lives in the 3D world and distracts us by the constant internal dialogue.

[Auburn_Aura]

Also, I thought, that SCM does not fear, it's CM, what can be scared. And SCM is supposed to be emotionless, it's something what's connected to the higher dimensions, while CM lives in the 3D world and distracts us by the constant internal dialogue.

Hrmm...two possibilities

An image that comes to my mind is "qi deviation" from chinese cultivation mangas. If the ego fears and crystalizes that fear, it may 'corrupt' the scm. In the old testament book of exodus the phrase "The Lord hardened pharroh's heart" comes to mind.

The other posibility is that my own fears were projected onto your dream. As ironically alison observed, my SCM chose bambi as the messenger for me to confront my own fears of trusting feminity.

Those are the two paths of yin and yang that I can see.

[Like Ra]

Still, only 1-2 triggers work. For the rest - apparently, I'm immune to Bambi.

[Auburn_Aura]

Still, only 1-2 triggers work. For the rest - apparently, I'm immune to Bambi.

In that case, I will lean towards projection, and meditate accordingly. Thank you for your time and contemplation on this.