Bambi Sleep stuff

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Ah, I see now...

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i've been woodworking for awhile

From what I see on the Inet, FFS usually helps a lot. Did HRT change anything? Besides the mood?

  i've been woodworking for awhile

From what I see on the Inet, FFS usually helps a lot. Did HRT change anything? Besides the mood?

to me, hrt is "baseline".  it softens your skin, you get some titties (not enough usually), some fat redistribution, mood changes, you smell different.  every (>99%) passing transsexual is on estradiol, but it's not the only thing you need to do to pass

voice training obviously.  and don't fall for the "my voice passes" cognitohazard - it probably doesn't.  voice in general has so many pitfalls and folk knowledge that you need to avoid if you want to have a good transition

weight cycling speeds up the fat redistribution but is immensely difficult to commit to.  way worse than almost anything.  discipline is simple but very difficult

pioglitazone (and to a lesser extent ahp38)!!!  very good for the hips especially to take ppar gamma agonists.  only if you're e2 dominant though

light (EMPHASIS ON LIGHT) botox / other neuromodulators on mentalis, masseter for some people, forehead can help.  avoid fillers (even the non-HA collagen builders!) unless you're older (i would say 45+ but i'm young so what do i know)

ffs helped the most out of anything i've done.  i could write up a few paragraphs just on ffs procedures tbh.  if you're past like 18 or 19 when you go on hrt, you'll probably need it if you want to _actually_ pass.  i went to the same surgeon as zhea (the voice inspo you linked on the ts/tg post) - i actually worked with her on voice for awhile too!!

i eventually also got surgery on my voice which is definitely an emergent field.  that was by far the riskiest surgery i've done yet, but it turned out well!  i have some other somewhat risky surgeries planned...

there's so much more to talk about, i could talk for ages about this.  i've been obsessed for years

boobjob over christmas!  yay!

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there's so much more to talk about, i could talk for ages about this.  i've been obsessed for years

That's the opportunity! The stage is yours, because ... the information is the second most valuable thing after energy. And also it might stop some AGP kinksters from some risky decisions.

weight cycling

What is that?

Ah, Gemini aeady answered:

Weight cycling, also known as yo-yo dieting, refers to the repeated loss and gain of weight, often associated with fad diets and unsustainable weight loss methods. This pattern of fluctuating weight can have negative impacts on both physical and mental health, potentially increasing the risk of certain diseases.

let me know if you have any specific questions! i'm usually more helpful and more focused when i'm responding rather than just off the cuff

That's the opportunity! The stage is yours, because ... the information is the second most valuable thing after energy. And also it might stop some AGP kinksters from some risky decisions.

the physical consequences from most transition procedures aren't too drastic (fertility notwithstanding). a cis man getting on hrt for a few weeks or on and off for months might give him some gyno at worst

but i knew transition would be insanely hard going in and the social consequences were much more drastic than even i expected

to anyone considering: it is so difficult. it will ruin relationships. it will probably make you contemplate suicide. you are not an exception. it is a horrible horrible place being transitionING and not transitionED

before passing i envied the delusional transfems who could convince themselves of seemingly anything. in some ways i still do. delusion is a good cope

now i am much happier and expressive than even before transition. it was "worth it" in that i have largely reached the goals i set out to accomplish when i started. but the process of transitioning will change you permanently in ways you don't like. you will see a different side of the world and i have had no luck unseeing it

Weight cycling, also known as yo-yo dieting, refers to the repeated loss and gain of weight, often associated with fad diets and unsustainable weight loss methods. This pattern of fluctuating weight can have negative impacts on both physical and mental health, potentially increasing the risk of certain diseases.

highly recommend this article if you're interested in reading more about weight cycling. please please please only try this if you *know* your e2 levels are good and you don't have runaway dht. unrelated: she did her own orchiectomy! very cool individual

that being said, if you know that your dysphoria is untenable (general you, not you in specific), i am here to help.  transition is probably the right decision if you are going to yoink yourself anyway

These files are totes hot stuff.

These files are totes hot stuff.

Simple but sweet, true.

i did a teensy relapse playlist of Rapid Induction, Attitude Lock, Bimbo Protection, Bambi Awakens tonight and it was so very nice and i feel so light and well rite now

(Verne's PMV Mega Nymphomania playing lightly in headphones now)

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Last night, I could not fall asleep and turned on Bambi playlist (actually, SCM chose Bambi). Periodically, I was dozing on and off, I had a dream in which my parents were sleeping, and the radio would not turn off, regardless of what I was doing. I pressed all the buttons, removed the power, but the radio was loudly playing Bambi Sleep hypno. It was too loud, so I was afraid that it would wake my parents up. Then my father got up, and I was afraid that he will discover what I was listening to.

In the morning, my SCM added more files to the Bambi playlist. More dangerous ones ...

Then my father got up, and I was afraid that he will discover what I was listening to.

In the morning, my SCM added more files to the Bambi playlist. More dangerous ones ...

I believe what happened to me will soon happen to you. The masculine side of your shadow is waking up and he is about to tell you exactly what it is that you are doing.
[I ask that you DO NOT FEAR. The Spirit of Masculinity loves you far more than you realize. His words will cut you, into shards, like Obsidian. But the Truth cuts cleanly, and heals without scars, if we let it.]

My musings lately, of Jung and Sadhguru, tell me that this is the 'Forceful awakening of your third eye'. The fires of Shiva will empty you, and the direction of your kundalini will fill you back up, by rebuilding you from the ashes. You will have a choice to make, which of the great spirits do you grow towards :

[The Sacred Spirit of Eternal Life Flourishing For All] - combined Language from my knowledge of various religions and spiritualities
[The Lady of Perpetual Chaos] - Language borrowed from Bambi Cloud Podcast

Basically, you will be asked the question, "What, in your life, would you like to crystalize and carry forward, and what should be used as materials, for new Reconfiguration, Growth, and Future Judgement?"

Have no fear, nothing in our lives will ever truly go to waste, not even our shame [Transgressions].