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For who's interested, I just finished reading through Bambi Named and Drained and it's another experience entirely being awake while reading a session.
First of all, I didn't feel much of the trigger's effects, which has been a theme when I'm not listening. I do feel some things, just not the effect they are meant to have, I guess. Still, it managed to "grab" me, and I felt engaged in much of it.
When it mentioned the first bubble and putting everything related to my name inside of it, so it could be taken away, I was very happy to oblige. I wanted it to be taken away if just for the sake of feeling it happen, which it didn't, but the name Bambi did make/is making me smile like a dumb bimbo, I guess.
Afterwards, as the text started describing how the old personality was being taken away and replaced by what Bambi is, I started thinking about what it would feel like and what I would be doing, to which my body immediately gave an answer by starting to grind against my armchair. I felt my eyes go wide, I saw a flash of white light not in front of me, but inside of my head, as if I was looking at an x-ray and there was just white inside my head. I felt something inside of me shrink and when I focused my eyes, I saw my hand towards the imaginary bubble, trying to put something inside. That was probably too much because I snapped out of it and went back to reading.
And then I read: "And as I count back from 5 Bambi's breasts will grow and her IQ will drop". This led to a inner dialogue that I'm still thinking about as I write.
Is it worth it? Why? How? What do you have to gain? What do you lose? Are tits worth a career? For every question one side asked, the other had sort of an answer. Emphasis on sort.
Yes, it is worth it because you stop feeling bad about having a good body and small breasts.
How? Hypnosis isn't magic and won't make them grow, so go spend your money on a breast augmentation.
What do I gain? Bigger tits. I also lose small tits. And on the topic of careers, you can make one around them. Look at the internet, it's not uncommon. Or look at your supervisor. She's a sort of powerful woman who had a breast augmentation. Why not?
At the end I just asked for whatever part of me was debating it to just go away and let me have the moment, and it did.
I read a bit more, got to the final stretch of the text where old self is encased in pink satin, went to my wardrobe and got my own pink satin nightie. Threw my PJs on the ground, the nightie over my body and it's the most refreshing feeling in the world right now. That and I listened to my urges and got a dildo that I'm playing with and making this three times as long to type.
If I had to use one word to describe how I feel right now it would be motivated.
Reading through the script I don't think Bambi is good motivation in general, as in trying to make you a better individual or the likes, but it is good at motivating you sexually, in a sexualized manner. It's very good at describing how things should be while leaving enough for your brain to fill in the blank spaces, which, I think, leads to acceptance.
For instance, I don't feel dumb after a month of using the files or reading the script just now, but I am aware now of the dumb excuses I'm making to allow myself to be led by these ideas.
Honestly, I still keep my opinion the same as before. I'm loving it.
For who's interested, I just finished reading through Bambi Named and Drained and it's another experience entirely being awake while reading a session.
First of all, I didn't feel much of the trigger's effects, which has been a theme when I'm not listening. I do feel some things, just not the effect they are meant to have, I guess. Still, it managed to "grab" me, and I felt engaged in much of it.
When it mentioned the first bubble and putting everything related to my name inside of it, so it could be taken away, I was very happy to oblige. I wanted it to be taken away if just for the sake of feeling it happen, which it didn't, but the name Bambi did make/is making me smile like a dumb bimbo, I guess.
Afterwards, as the text started describing how the old personality was being taken away and replaced by what Bambi is, I started thinking about what it would feel like and what I would be doing, to which my body immediately gave an answer by starting to grind against my armchair. I felt my eyes go wide, I saw a flash of white light not in front of me, but inside of my head, as if I was looking at an x-ray and there was just white inside my head. I felt something inside of me shrink and when I focused my eyes, I saw my hand towards the imaginary bubble, trying to put something inside. That was probably too much because I snapped out of it and went back to reading.
And then I read: "And as I count back from 5 Bambi's breasts will grow and her IQ will drop". This led to a inner dialogue that I'm still thinking about as I write.
Is it worth it? Why? How? What do you have to gain? What do you lose? Are tits worth a career? For every question one side asked, the other had sort of an answer. Emphasis on sort.
Yes, it is worth it because you stop feeling bad about having a good body and small breasts.
How? Hypnosis isn't magic and won't make them grow, so go spend your money on a breast augmentation.
What do I gain? Bigger tits. I also lose small tits. And on the topic of careers, you can make one around them. Look at the internet, it's not uncommon. Or look at your supervisor. She's a sort of powerful woman who had a breast augmentation. Why not?
At the end I just asked for whatever part of me was debating it to just go away and let me have the moment, and it did.
I read a bit more, got to the final stretch of the text where old self is encased in pink satin, went to my wardrobe and got my own pink satin nightie. Threw my PJs on the ground, the nightie over my body and it's the most refreshing feeling in the world right now. That and I listened to my urges and got a dildo that I'm playing with and making this three times as long to type.
If I had to use one word to describe how I feel right now it would be motivated.
Reading through the script I don't think Bambi is good motivation in general, as in trying to make you a better individual or the likes, but it is good at motivating you sexually, in a sexualized manner. It's very good at describing how things should be while leaving enough for your brain to fill in the blank spaces, which, I think, leads to acceptance.
For instance, I don't feel dumb after a month of using the files or reading the script just now, but I am aware now of the dumb excuses I'm making to allow myself to be led by these ideas.
Honestly, I still keep my opinion the same as before. I'm loving it.
