07 Oct 2023, 09:35
I listened to Demon Girl: Permanent Fuck Puppet a few days ago and have been hanging out with a bad ass demon girl named Cassandra ever since.
Cassie has been helping me act more feminine, be more seductive, eat healthier and a better friend. She's also a killer wingman and helps me notice and talk to cute guys. She even helped me train away my gag reflex, and do breathing exercises so I can deepthroat better! While the files advocate for submissiveness and some have "sissy" themes, Cassie pumps me up and encourages me to be a more confident and assertive woman.
Only drawback so far: Cassie will occasionally take control of my body, so far its all been consensual just out-of-my-comfort-zone things I wanted to do but couldn't do myself. For example, She made me pour out a glass of milk I had just poured because it had too many calories. Also consensual but weird: Cassandra has prevented me from having an orgasm without spit-roasting myself with dildos since we've been hanging out -- she says it's essential to get rid of my gag reflex, and it seems to be working! She did also take over my hands to buy a Bad Dragon "demon dildo" from Amazon so that I can be more tangibly intimate with her -- can't wait until it gets here tomorrow.
I've randomly felt her hand on the back of my head or on my shoulder throughout the day. It feels like a very light touch but is very warm. One night, while falling asleep she fucked my third eye again... that was odd. But then I got to be little spoon after and she caressed me and whispered the sweetest things in my ear while I fell asleep.
She gradually fades but before she did, she told me she would always be with me but that her "significant presence" was dependent on my sexual energy and she needed me to edge for a few hours and specifically ask for her to come back if I wanted to hang out with her again for a few more days.
FWIW: I'm an only-child who has known she was trans since I was 3 years old when I had an imaginary best friend who was a girl and who would hang out with me to do girlie things with. So I realize this is mostly just wish fulfillment, but i'm very happy to have summoned/created Cassie, and what are egregores if not Wish Fulfillment Persevering. Seriously, having an imaginary BFF as an adult is fucking awesome, even if she's probably just me highlighting a part of my personality.
Have any of y'all ever worked with a therapist using Internal Family Systems? This felt very, very similar just much much more tangible and auditory/pseudophysical, which is probably just my suggestibility.
Cassie has been helping me act more feminine, be more seductive, eat healthier and a better friend. She's also a killer wingman and helps me notice and talk to cute guys. She even helped me train away my gag reflex, and do breathing exercises so I can deepthroat better! While the files advocate for submissiveness and some have "sissy" themes, Cassie pumps me up and encourages me to be a more confident and assertive woman.
Only drawback so far: Cassie will occasionally take control of my body, so far its all been consensual just out-of-my-comfort-zone things I wanted to do but couldn't do myself. For example, She made me pour out a glass of milk I had just poured because it had too many calories. Also consensual but weird: Cassandra has prevented me from having an orgasm without spit-roasting myself with dildos since we've been hanging out -- she says it's essential to get rid of my gag reflex, and it seems to be working! She did also take over my hands to buy a Bad Dragon "demon dildo" from Amazon so that I can be more tangibly intimate with her -- can't wait until it gets here tomorrow.
I've randomly felt her hand on the back of my head or on my shoulder throughout the day. It feels like a very light touch but is very warm. One night, while falling asleep she fucked my third eye again... that was odd. But then I got to be little spoon after and she caressed me and whispered the sweetest things in my ear while I fell asleep.
She gradually fades but before she did, she told me she would always be with me but that her "significant presence" was dependent on my sexual energy and she needed me to edge for a few hours and specifically ask for her to come back if I wanted to hang out with her again for a few more days.
FWIW: I'm an only-child who has known she was trans since I was 3 years old when I had an imaginary best friend who was a girl and who would hang out with me to do girlie things with. So I realize this is mostly just wish fulfillment, but i'm very happy to have summoned/created Cassie, and what are egregores if not Wish Fulfillment Persevering. Seriously, having an imaginary BFF as an adult is fucking awesome, even if she's probably just me highlighting a part of my personality.
Have any of y'all ever worked with a therapist using Internal Family Systems? This felt very, very similar just much much more tangible and auditory/pseudophysical, which is probably just my suggestibility.
