25 Oct 2021, 00:13
Well it's been about a week of listening to BS. Went a little nuts this weekend with multiple sessions.The trance triggers are anchored pretty deep now. I went from trying too hard to get them to work, to being indifferent about it, then to having them sort of automatically work. Never had that with hypnosis. The bimbo doll trigger seems to have hit the hardest. Last session I had I was surprised when my eyes weren't opening after I dropped off into trance.
I lose comprehension of what's being said in 90% of the hypnosis session. It's going somewhere, but I have no idea where. I'll remember bits and pieces after the session, but then I forget. Like how dreams fade if you don't write them down after waking up.
Urges to get fully dressed up has skyrocketed. Can't do it now though. It's always been a passing thought, but now I'm curious to see how a full decked out uniform would hit.
Had a day where I thought the bimbo suggestions were messing with my cognition. But then realized all I had to eat that day was toast and coffee, so yeah that was not an effect of the files lol. So far keeping bambi tied to the uniform has been fine with no bleed over into day to day life. However I haven't actually listened to the takeover session and I don't think I intend to. Seems like that would be chaos.
I think the lowered inhibitions of BS will overall be a positive for me. Allow me to explore an aspect of myself that's always been there but I've been afraid of.
But I will have to pull the plug on it if it becomes too much of an escape from my day to day life. BS in general is just a very relaxing dissociative state. Which is fine if your life is somewhat together and this is a nice little relaxing trip. It becomes a problem if you start neglecting your real life needs and favoring the quick and easy high of the sessions. Also I have ADHD, a consequence of that is I'm unable to shift my focus from things easily so if something is more immediately rewarding I get stuck on it.
But overall I'd say I'm curious in finding out for myself how much this is RP for people that listen to it vs legit hypnotic effects. Full on hallucinations are attempted in the body lock file, but that seems like a tall order outside of trance.
Also might start my own journal for this experience. Don't want to clutter things up here
I lose comprehension of what's being said in 90% of the hypnosis session. It's going somewhere, but I have no idea where. I'll remember bits and pieces after the session, but then I forget. Like how dreams fade if you don't write them down after waking up.
Urges to get fully dressed up has skyrocketed. Can't do it now though. It's always been a passing thought, but now I'm curious to see how a full decked out uniform would hit.
Had a day where I thought the bimbo suggestions were messing with my cognition. But then realized all I had to eat that day was toast and coffee, so yeah that was not an effect of the files lol. So far keeping bambi tied to the uniform has been fine with no bleed over into day to day life. However I haven't actually listened to the takeover session and I don't think I intend to. Seems like that would be chaos.
I think the lowered inhibitions of BS will overall be a positive for me. Allow me to explore an aspect of myself that's always been there but I've been afraid of.
But I will have to pull the plug on it if it becomes too much of an escape from my day to day life. BS in general is just a very relaxing dissociative state. Which is fine if your life is somewhat together and this is a nice little relaxing trip. It becomes a problem if you start neglecting your real life needs and favoring the quick and easy high of the sessions. Also I have ADHD, a consequence of that is I'm unable to shift my focus from things easily so if something is more immediately rewarding I get stuck on it.
But overall I'd say I'm curious in finding out for myself how much this is RP for people that listen to it vs legit hypnotic effects. Full on hallucinations are attempted in the body lock file, but that seems like a tall order outside of trance.
Also might start my own journal for this experience. Don't want to clutter things up here