Crazy Whore Now; Pig Girl Brainwashing Boosted Daytime; Bambi Sex Animal.
Crazy Whore and Bambi Sex Animal both audio and video, depending on mood. After listening to all three of the above 3-4 times each, put on Bambi Sex Animal the video, and around the 30 minute mark suddenly finally the inner life manifested and I laughed with joy and felt young again.
But, as I said, two and half days of accumulation of stuff had to pass, before this effect suddenly kicked in for me.
On day one I noticed that at times during listening fantasies manifested, but they felt hyper real, not unlike the hyper reality of tripping with hash or mushrooms in my youth. But that tripping in the past made the surrounding places and people hyper-real, whereas in this case the fantasies felt hyper-real, the way the real world felt way back when.
On day two I knew that this was possible, and looked forward to experiencing it, and at some point started feeling the body waking up, giggly energy currents from feet soles to head and shoulders. Occasional wild grimaces and deep guttural sounds with no linguistic meaning. Periods of the tongue licking very intensely at the air. Occasional shaking and spasms, but I knew these were reactions of a tensed up body trying to wake up so didn't freak out but rather tried to enjoy it.
I think starting the day with the paranoid political file somehow helped, maybe it took care of the innate proto-patriarchic crypto-fascist masculine guilt by allowing it to have it's own time, and after it wore off I could continue going deeper with the erotic hypnosis.
On day three I knew I was chasing the hyper-real feel of the fantasies, plus freeing up body reactions, but in the evening, midway through the video Bambi Sex Animal, suddenly "became alive", and paused the video and just enjoyed being there, being myself, and being completely alive.
So it was a gradual process, with every day bringing unexpected new effects, and on the third day a culmination.
After this culmination I knew I had reached the state I wanted deep down to reach, but nevertheless, being in a highly hedonistic mood, did the rest of Bambi Sex Animal, and then again, and then some Crazy Whore Now, and then I don't remember, but when I went to sleep very late, sleep wouldn't come, and I had to fight the impulse to just put on more stuff and listen to while I sleep. But I knew I shouldn't do this, because I won't be able to handle the real life stuff that starts soon, so it's time to stop the adventure for now, and revisit it again in the future when circumstances allow.
At some point, I finally managed to nod off and dream mildly erotic dreams. Woke up intensely horny though.
Crazy Whore and Bambi Sex Animal both audio and video, depending on mood. After listening to all three of the above 3-4 times each, put on Bambi Sex Animal the video, and around the 30 minute mark suddenly finally the inner life manifested and I laughed with joy and felt young again.
But, as I said, two and half days of accumulation of stuff had to pass, before this effect suddenly kicked in for me.
On day one I noticed that at times during listening fantasies manifested, but they felt hyper real, not unlike the hyper reality of tripping with hash or mushrooms in my youth. But that tripping in the past made the surrounding places and people hyper-real, whereas in this case the fantasies felt hyper-real, the way the real world felt way back when.
On day two I knew that this was possible, and looked forward to experiencing it, and at some point started feeling the body waking up, giggly energy currents from feet soles to head and shoulders. Occasional wild grimaces and deep guttural sounds with no linguistic meaning. Periods of the tongue licking very intensely at the air. Occasional shaking and spasms, but I knew these were reactions of a tensed up body trying to wake up so didn't freak out but rather tried to enjoy it.
I think starting the day with the paranoid political file somehow helped, maybe it took care of the innate proto-patriarchic crypto-fascist masculine guilt by allowing it to have it's own time, and after it wore off I could continue going deeper with the erotic hypnosis.
On day three I knew I was chasing the hyper-real feel of the fantasies, plus freeing up body reactions, but in the evening, midway through the video Bambi Sex Animal, suddenly "became alive", and paused the video and just enjoyed being there, being myself, and being completely alive.
So it was a gradual process, with every day bringing unexpected new effects, and on the third day a culmination.
After this culmination I knew I had reached the state I wanted deep down to reach, but nevertheless, being in a highly hedonistic mood, did the rest of Bambi Sex Animal, and then again, and then some Crazy Whore Now, and then I don't remember, but when I went to sleep very late, sleep wouldn't come, and I had to fight the impulse to just put on more stuff and listen to while I sleep. But I knew I shouldn't do this, because I won't be able to handle the real life stuff that starts soon, so it's time to stop the adventure for now, and revisit it again in the future when circumstances allow.
At some point, I finally managed to nod off and dream mildly erotic dreams. Woke up intensely horny though.
