03 Jun 2019, 17:32
Long post alert. TLDR: I did the bambi files, had a bad reaction short term, notice small long term changes.
I had read that it was common for people to have a mix short term and long term reactions to bambi. But like any sadomasochistic hypnoaddict I succumbed to my curiosity and tried it out.
I watched a few videos on pornhub with the original audio attached to visual stimuli and to be blunt, I was hooked through the sack. Eventually I found my way to the source files, and went a week long binge on them, it was both fantastic and terrible. While under, I felt amazing, like I was on drugs. Afterwards though, it's like my mind and body were trying to push poison out of my system violently. After that week I had a breakdown, deleted all my hypno stuff (I have all my hypno files backedup on a cloud that didn't get deleted) and lost control of my emotional state. I became super reclusive and in all honesty probably should have went to a doctor.
Eventually I got past it and while that was about 6 months ago I still feel the urge to listen to the bambi. I accidentally stumbled across a video with the sleep trigger in it and I felt it pull on my mind. Other changes that I notice are a definitely stronger attraction to crossdressing and "bambi" things, but not to the point where it disrupts my life, happiness, or wellbeing.
A little background on me to put this in its proper light. I'm mid 20s, big strong Male, I work in an industry where I need to be tough and assertive. I also struggle with mental health, I have borderline personality disorder, which means I struggle with my emotions and mental state constantly. But it also means that I can compartmentalize and process dangerous/ toxic things as they form at the small cost of discomfort.
I find it fascinating, looking back at the files, they seem predatory by nature. What their purpose is? I don't really know or really care for that matter, but it was a fun experiment.
I had read that it was common for people to have a mix short term and long term reactions to bambi. But like any sadomasochistic hypnoaddict I succumbed to my curiosity and tried it out.
I watched a few videos on pornhub with the original audio attached to visual stimuli and to be blunt, I was hooked through the sack. Eventually I found my way to the source files, and went a week long binge on them, it was both fantastic and terrible. While under, I felt amazing, like I was on drugs. Afterwards though, it's like my mind and body were trying to push poison out of my system violently. After that week I had a breakdown, deleted all my hypno stuff (I have all my hypno files backedup on a cloud that didn't get deleted) and lost control of my emotional state. I became super reclusive and in all honesty probably should have went to a doctor.
Eventually I got past it and while that was about 6 months ago I still feel the urge to listen to the bambi. I accidentally stumbled across a video with the sleep trigger in it and I felt it pull on my mind. Other changes that I notice are a definitely stronger attraction to crossdressing and "bambi" things, but not to the point where it disrupts my life, happiness, or wellbeing.
A little background on me to put this in its proper light. I'm mid 20s, big strong Male, I work in an industry where I need to be tough and assertive. I also struggle with mental health, I have borderline personality disorder, which means I struggle with my emotions and mental state constantly. But it also means that I can compartmentalize and process dangerous/ toxic things as they form at the small cost of discomfort.
I find it fascinating, looking back at the files, they seem predatory by nature. What their purpose is? I don't really know or really care for that matter, but it was a fun experiment.
eady in the "correct state". 