Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:36
like
describe me how powerful on your mind the program has become N
?
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:39
So
When I listen, or get triggered
My eyes kinda just glaze over and everything gets fuzzy
And then I think I ussually lay down, cause its really haed
Shit
Im trancing a lil thinking about it
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:40
dam,n
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:40
Its really hard to stand up and listen
And also I kond of spasm w some of the pleasure triggers
Other than that all I ussually remember is blankness
And a very very very fuzzy feeling
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:41
how irresistible has it become ?
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:41
And im kinda feeling it again
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:42
?
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:43
When I describe it
When I think about it
I get reallt fuzzy
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:43
that's hot
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:43
Esspecially when I try to remember
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:43
Remembering makes it worse
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:43
that's just hot af
tbh
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:43
Haha thanks
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:46
Ive cried after one session
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:46
wow
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:46
Yeah
It really really really scared me
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:47
omg
ye
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:47
It was the first time I had lost like, full control
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:48
Like, I couldnt think what it didnt want me to think and it forced me to see what it wanted me to see and I just shut out everything and let it consume me
And then it essentially fucked me
Forcefully
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:48
ahahahah
that's not the worst part
mirk:
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:49
It wasnt funny lmao, I was legit bawling afterward, like O cpuldnt speak after comming out of it for like 5 minites
I just kept repeating the same thing and couldnt stop
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:50
bambi was the first
to make me feel like i was out of my body
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:51
Yeah, it def does that
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:51
and that someone could control my brain over my proper control
i lost sense of space
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:52
Thats why I stopped listening for like a year or two after firstisten
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:52
i felt immense pleasure ofc ahah
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:52
Ofc
Thats whats so sadistic about it
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:52
tho
it was a bit scary but
i knew
it was what i looked for for so long
something so close to real life magic
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:53
Right?
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:53
yeee
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:53
I mean
Be fucking careful
I was carefree with it
But its sbared me
Like I love it
But it made me love it
Le_ChienMaigre ??Aujourd'hui à 22:54
i see your point
AyavianAujourd'hui à 22:54
No, you dont
The session after I cried
The next one I did
Cause I was still addicted after crying and like tramatized by ut
It broke my resistance
Forcefully