Purge syndrome or Periods or cycles of lost&found "interest"

[MIWSTIUS]

Wow, you guys go through some extreme levels of highs and lows 😳

I suppose my fetishes compare as superficial.
Thankfully, I think the odds of purging have been eliminated completely - probably because it's not very deep and I've made my Lycra fetish, part of my actual public wardrobe (leggings) - pretty much everyone knows about it and nobody seems to have a problem with it.

[brandynette]

Ive been going deeper & deeper into it ever since i created Brandynette in 2014. I haven't purged for real, my longest time away was 6 weeks & i can remember.
I remember cuss i was on a psychotherapy retreat somewhere in the Alps & my network sucked so badly i wasn't even able to login to my Pornhub.
The last week on retreat i was so horny i started chanting bambi mantras before falling asleep. At least the ones i could remember.

Before that, before doing a full dive into hypno porn i was purging every 4 to 6 months. i was also hating myself for doing it, not the purging but the jerking off to the idea of me being a girl.
it always went on like this. jerked to manly man porn every week or two, then I'd get some rando chick to fuck, while fucking her id imagine i was her & then steal her panties.
After id jerk off wearing her panties id either throw the panties away or store them for next time if the smell was too intoxicating.

Im glad i turned my sissy porn addiction into something productive like creating content & websites.

[Like Ra]

I remember cuss i was on a psychotherapy retreat somewhere in the Alps & my network sucked so badly i wasn't even able to login to my Pornhub.
The last week on retreat i was so horny i started chanting bambi mantras

Interesting retreats 😂 Ever tried vipassana?

[brandynette]

[quote="brandynette" pid="73851" dateline="1715757661"]
Interesting retreats 😂 Ever tried vipassana?

OH NO! Not Buddhism! Accepting the past is no more & the future might not be just to be in the present!
Logic gate:
If my past is no more, bambi won't remember who i was before her & be unable to trigger me in the present.
If my future won't be then bambi has no goals getting to an orgasm is a matter of chance where i have no control over my own sexuality.

Mindfulness Meditation where i link past, present & future onto me while letting emotions flow is my favorite party trick.

[Boundsissy]

I’m actually going though that right now. Last selfbondage session was about a year ago. I get bored when I can’t come up with new ideas. My stuff gets thrown in the back of the closet and I lose interest. Just yesterday I have a spike in the urge of trying to get back into it again. Im looking for new toys, outfits and shoes.

[Like Ra]

Mindfulness Meditation where i link past, present & future onto me while letting emotions flow is my favorite party trick.

Hang on ... This is what vipassana is about... Plus information detox.

[brandynette]

giggle, just wanted to be annoying for a while. Thank you for the info though!