05 Oct 2021, 20:17
So I'm a few days to maybe a week out now from the last time I listened to the files, and just wanted to comment on some observations I've had -
I've thought about the files occasionally, but haven't had any real "urges" like a need to go back to them, though I think I might sometime. My arousal levels have gone pretty close to what they were originally, maybe a little higher but it's a bit hard to remember exactly 😋
There's a definite increase in anal. Now when I see anal porn there's a much stronger feeling associated with it, and I immediately think back to these files. So there's a clear effect there
Surprisingly, I think there's another effect - occasionally on blog sites, some people I follow post watersports. It's never been something I was into, but it was never constant enough to make me unfollow them. But I was usually a little grossed out seeing it, but I shrugged it off. Now, I'm still not turned on by it, but I've noticed the disgust is mostly gone. It just doesn't seem as dirty to me now, and that's a big surprise. I'll admit that's likely an effect from the files.
No real effects on anything more "extreme" though.
All in all, interesting files and glad I gave them a shot! I may occasionally come back, especially to the Crazy Whore Now file 😋
I've thought about the files occasionally, but haven't had any real "urges" like a need to go back to them, though I think I might sometime. My arousal levels have gone pretty close to what they were originally, maybe a little higher but it's a bit hard to remember exactly 😋
There's a definite increase in anal. Now when I see anal porn there's a much stronger feeling associated with it, and I immediately think back to these files. So there's a clear effect there
Surprisingly, I think there's another effect - occasionally on blog sites, some people I follow post watersports. It's never been something I was into, but it was never constant enough to make me unfollow them. But I was usually a little grossed out seeing it, but I shrugged it off. Now, I'm still not turned on by it, but I've noticed the disgust is mostly gone. It just doesn't seem as dirty to me now, and that's a big surprise. I'll admit that's likely an effect from the files.
No real effects on anything more "extreme" though.
All in all, interesting files and glad I gave them a shot! I may occasionally come back, especially to the Crazy Whore Now file 😋
eady identified as a pig and enjoy toilet play from time to time, so those suggestions didn't give me any trouble. ironically its the more generic suggestions about the file messing up your sleep, being filmed, breath play, puke, and extreme anal play that i was more resistant to. i have a fairly robust safety net, but the suggestions about swallowing everything meant that my mind would swallow even the nastiest suggestions he added to the files. so for 3-4 days i found i really struggled to get to sleep at night. i was tossing and turning for hours. that put me off of the files for a good week, but i came back and have not had trouble since. well actually i am finding i am having a harder time getting into bed to sleep, but once i am in bed i sleep fairly easily. i have also been feeling dumber lately in similar ways to when the bambi files were hitting me hardest. its a little more intense in how it manifests in my day to day life. i keep making dumb mistakes like forgetting to clock in to work or entering important numbers wrong. its stuff that could be within the margin of error for being unrelated to the files, but the frequency and magnitude of the mistakes is enough to raise red flags for me. those concerns aside these files are a ton of fun. 