My Trance Diary

The below is a running trail that my subconscious mind takes me around during a trance session.

Trance for me is quickly becoming a mix of fetish, with a bitter pill of therapy attached to it. (The therapy is, what does this 'thing i am doing' stir in my memories and emotions, and why)
I am finding that if I :
-letting myself become bored is becoming a 'trigger' to let my CM (Consious Mind) step back and let the SCM (Subconscious Mind) take over control,
--I am starting to see trance / hypno / meditation as the training wheels to this process
--letting your body fully relax, is essentially the first step to prevent 'overstimulating the connection' so to speak

It's not a full takeover [yet(hopefully)], but it is becoming part of my way for direct communication.

Overall the goal is simple, give the SCM direct access in order to help communicate the parts of myself that I need to accept in order to fully integrate the 'shadow' from Jungian psychology.

[These will denote thoughts that I deem directly from my SCM, essentially thoughts that aren't fully structured or integrated]
(these will denote thoughts that would be purely from the regular conscious mind so to speak)
all other text will be the 'normal' thoughts of someone will 'high' under trance.

Conceptualization of minds:
look through the world through 3 lenses : This will lead to 8 conscious thoughts streams if that's a possibility (I recall the rule of 7 trance Induction)
-Good vs Evil : like the angel and demon on your shoulder as seen in LOTS of cartoons (truth vs deception?)
-Male vs Female : the masculine nature and the femnine nature are often at odds with each other, understanding both (along with both positive and negative from step above) is needed to play the game of life sustainably
-Physical vs Internal : I have recently noticed during trance that sometimes a noise from the outside world lines up too well with a thought and emotion from the internal world. It leads to some wonderfully interesting thought chains [warning, this is the abyss, have a trusted guide](it reminds me of recent suicide articles in regards to teens with AI lovers)


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[The art of meditation and trance might be the process of teaching the personalities to the left and right hemispheres of the brain on "swaping" places]

Would this be ambidexterity of the mind?

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Has anyone else read the manga "Nana to Kauru" its a guilty pleasure of mine. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nana_%26_Kaoru

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https://nhentai.net/g/596553/ : This got too extreme for me, but I had to read the whole thing. (SCM said no whenever I went to close the tab)

https://nhentai.net/g/596551/ : Pt 1 was much better

https://nhentai.net/g/596353/

I am not sure what to make of this: https://www.reddit.com/r/wholesomeanimem...g_next_to/
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I got to say, the reddit algorithm for this sub hits well for me https://www.reddit.com/r/anime_irl/

I remembered a subreddit : https://www.reddit.com/r/ghostpenis

[(The movie Demolition man)]

[(Hentai movies rei rei, f3])
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rei_Rei
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/F3_(manga)

[The intentional sensory overload scene from "The accountant"]

"The only way out is through"

[Session over](time to review notes) 
An image to wrap things up.    

[Like Ra]

Could you please clarify what this thread is supposed to be about? "My Trance Diary"?

Has anyone else read the manga "Nana to Kauru"

https://www.likera.com/blog/wp/archives/...a-to-kaoru

Could you please clarify what this thread is supposed to be about? "My Trance Diary"?

Appologies, I sometimes get ahead of myself.

I have edited the first post to add a prefix at the top.

Has anyone else read the manga "Nana to Kauru"

https://www.likera.com/blog/wp/archives/...a-to-kaoru

There are far more chapters than are on that blog. (https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nrldoJQ...sp=sharing)

the final breather with the handcuffs was *chefs kiss* (chapter 117 (vol 16) is the start of the breather)

I think we in the hypno community can appreciate the psychological strength those pair of handcuffs contained.


The final couple pages from chapter 61 in the blog, where he picked up a small doll form of nana, reminded me of my recent dream of bambi sitting in my lap playing with 'dolly' in her hands. I wonder how bambi will dress dolly tonight.

@Like Ra
https://www.likera.com/blog/wp/archives/...05-ch36-07

It struck me in this scene that kaoru falls prey to the same perfectionist mindset of Nana here. He is so worried about being a perfect dom (to measure up to his vision of nana by being the whole package), that he never realized that all of the DSM he does, is mostly psychological / symbolic. He could never bring himself to delve the depths of DSM, so he never really needed to worry about voicing his unspoken truths.

https://nhentai.net/g/597516/
AI is getting really good. The whole scenario looks like its taking place inside Bambi's pink box.

https://nhentai.net/g/597413/
Hrm, this had more impact than I thought it would.

https://www.reddit.com/r/anime_irl/comme...anime_irl/
Last one for today

https://www.reddit.com/r/animeirl/commen...ve_it_all/
Apparently I lied, came across this post. The slew of the archtypes got me.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sea_angel

This feels like my bambi's spirit animal. A brightly lit crown, a warm glowing heart, and smoldering root. (forgot to mention, swims within the depths of my subconsious)

I got there through a stupid silly reddit post : https://www.reddit.com/r/anime_irl/comme.../#lightbox

[Love on the Lips, Truth in the Heart](??)
[Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil, be no evil, feel no evil, taste no evil, sense no evil, reject no evil]
[Hierarchy of egregors] (is this created and maintained by dreams)

My bubble bath is now over
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@Like Ra this is going in a different direction than I thought it would. let me know if you don't want the more religious / philosophical stuff here.

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[Hierarchy of egregors] (is this created and maintained by dreams)
This one was a rather complicated image. Essentially I felt a thought switch from thing to another just because they were tangentially related (think puns). Then I remembered, how sometimes in dreams, the environment can change from one step to the next. This brought the idea that when we dream, the brain attempts to combine two groups of neurons, this changes the environment, and if this new environment mimics reality enough to be 'survivable' then this 'group of ideas' becomes 'more valid' (ascending the hierarchy) [which ideas are the most connected to all other ideas? what is the great dream of life itself? what is the limit of what kind of life can dream?]

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[Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil, be no evil, feel no evil, taste no evil, sense no evil, reject no evil]
This one started as the 3 wise monkeys, Then I remembered in sekiro, one of the boss battles resembles this, but there is a hidden fourth invisible monkey.
Continuing that trend, I tried to think of what the next monkeys would be.
I finished off the physical senses, then went to the 'sixth' sense, then I went to reject due to the 'Son of Man' mythology. If the Buddha really did return, and or Christ really did resurrect, then the 'For All' has to be quite literal.
Narratively, It also closes off the rest of the earlier saying, by somehow being its opposite in words, but faithful in spirit.

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[Love on the Lips, Truth in the Heart](??)
The only thing that came here was the image of the 7 main chakra gates, and Christ imagery. It seems to be related to my full chart that I originally posted somewhere. But this would basically throw a wrench into that whole thing.

[Like Ra]

It struck me in this scene that Kaoru falls prey to the same perfectionist mindset of Nana here. He is so worried about being a perfect dom

AFAIR, he even mentioned it somewhere, that he has to "relax" just like Nana.

AI is getting really good.

AI? What did it do? BTW, any relations to the mangas you posted?

[Like Ra]

this is going in a different direction than I thought it would.

Yeah, I know the feeling 😅

let me know if you don't want the more religious / philosophical stuff here.

We are aeady in the esoteric part of the forum 😉 We even have a separate "magic" related thread, and I posted a lot of philosophical stuff aeady. So feel free - this is your thread! Just, if it's possible at all, please, make it easy to understand for everybody (I know, it's difficult, that's why I still did not organize my thoughts in an easily consumed "tutorial" 😆)

make it easy to understand for everybody

I'll do my part as I edit when thoughts come to me, but I also make a request, if anything triggers something for someone, please comment. I work best when I can reflect someone else's thoughts

Also, I'm not always sure what I have, that I take for granted.