Samantha Bandler/Sez hypnosis

Well apparently I can't even heed my own warnings.

I have been well aware of the ide that you must want hypno to work and believe it will work in order to get something out of it. Even if that belief is just pretend at first.
Despite that, as I said in my last post, I have struggled to trance to anything despite years of mostly casual consumption of the content before Captured , well, caught me. When I listened to that I was forcing myself to believe it would work. I guess it flipped a switch in me because I have not struggled to trance at all since then and have binged hypnosis content all weekend.
Really put me into a loop. Over the last week I have listened to at least half of the files in this forum at least once (although often just as background noise) and have had multiple hours long sessions spent mostly in trance with various playlists. I have listened to Captured, Control, Obey, and you need more training at least 5 times each. I've listened to the short public versions of Compliance 101-404.

This has done a number on me, that's for sure. 
I got drunk and high this weekend and spent around 20 hours listening to SB continuously, probably half of it actively listening while trying to trance. I have been continuously horny basically the entire last week, and have masturbated multiple times a day, every day, listening to SB pretty much every time, although sometimes only in the background.
I have already emailed Samantha, something I've never done before with any nsfw creator, and have found myself finding videos to comment on. I subscribed to her subscribestar early on at the $5 tier as the starter post recommended, but while listening to one of her files drunk felt compelled to pledge her 5 more bucks, before eventually upgrading to the $50 tier ( I still have a month to go before I even get anything out of that). I even ordered some visa giftcards to order the agreement and trigger happy directly from her site, but couldn't will myself to enter my personal info on the billing page and it wouldn't let me get by with fake info (I would ask for advice here, but it's probably in my best interest no one tell me).

The Red light trigger persists, I now realize I got it from Control, but I have not noticed any other direct triggers form beside just constantly thinking about her. Maybe that means none of them worked, maybe it means they all did, idk.  The amnesia trigger seems like it mostly doesn't work on me (i think, lol) and I've remembered most of what I've heard.

I even caved and listened to BS in the middle of it, having constantly found the idea arousing since I first discovered it. I listened to the first day of the 20 day training program in the middle of the week before quitting because I did have a panic attack while listening to named and drained when it came time to put the cotton candy in the box. I was horny leading up to that and was definitely in trance but as soon as the box was mentioned my heart rate sky rocketed. My chest was beating so hard it was shaking my entire body. It mostly pulled me out of trance, but I forced myself to finish listening (probably somewhat foolishly) having read people state elsewhere that the panic in trance might just be from not liking the feeling of losing control during trance. I wasn't wearing a "uniform" so idk if that has anything to do with it.


My consumption of this material has gone from casual and watching mostly the glorified music videos on hypnotube to spending most of my free time listening to it within a week.
This morning, while waking up and still half dazed i could hear both Samantha and Bambi's voices in my head talking. I distinctly remember hearing the primary voice from the bs files saying "Soon, Bambi." as well as "Bambi and Samantha are working together now Bambi". Once I woke up completely I was so horny i had to get off immediately and instinctively went to  a Tiktok bambi vid on hypnotube.

I am 90% sure this was me still in a dream state and was brought on by me reading Ra's posts in the sissyhyno thread about the Feminine takeover file which lead to me reading the "horror" stories about people's experience with that file.
Regardless, I have no desire to lose my life to some entity that I didn't even believe could exist 2 weeks ago, so I will have to take a significant break from this shit, and if I ever get back into it, be significantly more selective about what I watch/listen to.

Despite all this I am still craving listening to more and have been hard the entire time writing this post just thinking about listening to some more.

[Like Ra]

I distinctly remember hearing the primary voice from the bs files saying "Soon, Bambi." as well as "Bambi and Samantha are working together now Bambi".

Sounds familiar. Though, in my case, it's mostly in the written form. Have you seen this thread? https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...n-hypnosis

If yes, have you got your sissy name?

I will have to take a significant break from this shit, and if I ever get back into it

That's normal, as, according to experience, the hypno stuff stops working if you continue to listen to it. You will eventually return/relapse (that's close to inevitable), and the "abstinence period" will act as hypnotic fractionation.

significantly more selective about what I watch/listen to

Good idea. Though, with some progress, your limits will be widened anyway.

I got drunk and high

I think, this is a bigger problem than hypno 😉

Anyway, welcome to the club 😅

I distinctly remember hearing the primary voice from the bs files saying "Soon, Bambi." as well as "Bambi and Samantha are working together now Bambi".

Sounds familiar. Though, in my case, it's mostly in the written form. Have you seen this thread? https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...n-hypnosis

If yes, have you got your sissy name?

I will have to take a significant break from this shit, and if I ever get back into it

That's normal, as, according to experience, the hypno stuff stops working if you continue to listen to it. You will eventually return/relapse (that's close to inevitable), and the "abstinence period" will act as hypnotic fractionation.

significantly more selective about what I watch/listen to

Good idea. Though, with some progress, your limits will be widened anyway.

I got drunk and high

I think, this is a bigger problem than hypno 😉

Anyway, welcome to the club 😅

- I listened to one of the files from the main list early on which talked about it, I think HEBLN, but I didn't feel compelled to come up with one. I listened to it SB's CSS from the beginning of that thread last night but I wasn't focused completely on it. I came up with a name to follow the instructions, Carla, but it felt like i was just making something up, not like it came to me.
I didn't read the entirety of your automatic writing posts, but I skimmed through them. I've always thought the idea was bs, but i'm not so sure after this morning. It wasn't just those two phrases. I spent probably 10 minutes half awake, sort of coming up and down while hearing their voices. I kept hearing "samantha says obey", and "samantha says submit" over and over again, with "drop deeper now" mixed in, and every now and then "Bambi Sleep" or "Good girl", or "Bambi does as she's told" mixed in. Sometimes it felt like i was saying it to myself because i wanted to, other times it felt like someone else was talking to me. I tried to push it down and either go to sleep or wake up multiple times, but it kept coming back. Every time it came back I would hear "Silly Bambi".

I have a tendency to half wake up and then snooze the alarm for half an hour most mornings, and I regularly have continuing dreams during those moments, which is why i"m not completely freaking out right now, but it was one of the most surreal experiences I have had in years.

-And yeah, it's probably worse than anything an audio file does to me, but I'm not so sure after this weekend.

I distinctly remember hearing the primary voice from the bs files saying "Soon, Bambi." as well as "Bambi and Samantha are working together now Bambi".

Sounds familiar. Though, in my case, it's mostly in the written form. Have you seen this thread? https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...n-hypnosis

If yes, have you got your sissy name?

I will have to take a significant break from this shit, and if I ever get back into it

That's normal, as, according to experience, the hypno stuff stops working if you continue to listen to it. You will eventually return/relapse (that's close to inevitable), and the "abstinence period" will act as hypnotic fractionation.

significantly more selective about what I watch/listen to

Good idea. Though, with some progress, your limits will be widened anyway.

I got drunk and high

I think, this is a bigger problem than hypno 😉

Anyway, welcome to the club 😅

- I listened to one of the files from the main list early on which talked about it, I think HEBLN, but I didn't feel compelled to come up with one. I listened to it SB's CSS from the beginning of that thread last night but I wasn't focused completely on it. I came up with a name to follow the instructions, Carla, but it felt like i was just making something up, not like it came to me.
I didn't read the entirety of your automatic writing posts, but I skimmed through them. I've always thought the idea was bs, but i'm not so sure after this morning. It wasn't just those two phrases. I spent probably 10 minutes half awake, sort of coming up and down while hearing their voices. I kept hearing "samantha says obey", and "samantha says submit" over and over again, with "drop deeper now" mixed in, and every now and then "Bambi Sleep" or "Good girl", or "Bambi does as she's told" mixed in. Sometimes it felt like i was saying it to myself because i wanted to, other times it felt like someone else was talking to me. I tried to push it down and either go to sleep or wake up multiple times, but it kept coming back. Every time it came back I would hear "Silly Bambi".

I have a tendency to half wake up and then snooze the alarm for half an hour most mornings, and I regularly have continuing dreams during those moments, which is why i"m not completely freaking out right now, but it was one of the most surreal experiences I have had in years.

-And yeah, it's probably worse than anything an audio file does to me, but I'm not so sure after this weekend.

It's definitely Carla.

I went back after reading your response and tranced deep to Cocotrance's css video. It felt like someone pulled my mouth open and pulled carla out of it.
I need to stop this.

You will eventually return/relapse (that's close to inevitable), and the "abstinence period" will act as hypnotic fractionation. 


I love this line, thought, and idea.

Well apparently I can't even heed my own warnings.

I have been well aware of the ide that you must want hypno to work and believe it will work in order to get something out of it. Even if that belief is just pretend at first.
Despite that, as I said in my last post, I have struggled to trance to anything despite years of mostly casual consumption of the content before Captured , well, caught me. When I listened to that I was forcing myself to believe it would work. I guess it flipped a switch in me because I have not struggled to trance at all since then and have binged hypnosis content all weekend.
Really put me into a loop. Over the last week I have listened to at least half of the files in this forum at least once (although often just as background noise) and have had multiple hours long sessions spent mostly in trance with various playlists. I have listened to Captured, Control, Obey, and you need more training at least 5 times each. I've listened to the short public versions of Compliance 101-404.

This has done a number on me, that's for sure. 
I got drunk and high this weekend and spent around 20 hours listening to SB continuously, probably half of it actively listening while trying to trance. I have been continuously horny basically the entire last week, and have masturbated multiple times a day, every day, listening to SB pretty much every time, although sometimes only in the background.
I have already emailed Samantha, something I've never done before with any nsfw creator, and have found myself finding videos to comment on. I subscribed to her subscribestar early on at the $5 tier as the starter post recommended, but while listening to one of her files drunk felt compelled to pledge her 5 more bucks, before eventually upgrading to the $50 tier ( I still have a month to go before I even get anything out of that). I even ordered some visa giftcards to order the agreement and trigger happy directly from her site, but couldn't will myself to enter my personal info on the billing page and it wouldn't let me get by with fake info (I would ask for advice here, but it's probably in my best interest no one tell me).

The Red light trigger persists, I now realize I got it from Control, but I have not noticed any other direct triggers form beside just constantly thinking about her. Maybe that means none of them worked, maybe it means they all did, idk.  The amnesia trigger seems like it mostly doesn't work on me (i think, lol) and I've remembered most of what I've heard.

I even caved and listened to BS in the middle of it, having constantly found the idea arousing since I first discovered it. I listened to the first day of the 20 day training program in the middle of the week before quitting because I did have a panic attack while listening to named and drained when it came time to put the cotton candy in the box. I was horny leading up to that and was definitely in trance but as soon as the box was mentioned my heart rate sky rocketed. My chest was beating so hard it was shaking my entire body. It mostly pulled me out of trance, but I forced myself to finish listening (probably somewhat foolishly) having read people state elsewhere that the panic in trance might just be from not liking the feeling of losing control during trance. I wasn't wearing a "uniform" so idk if that has anything to do with it.


My consumption of this material has gone from casual and watching mostly the glorified music videos on hypnotube to spending most of my free time listening to it within a week.
This morning, while waking up and still half dazed i could hear both Samantha and Bambi's voices in my head talking. I distinctly remember hearing the primary voice from the bs files saying "Soon, Bambi." as well as "Bambi and Samantha are working together now Bambi". Once I woke up completely I was so horny i had to get off immediately and instinctively went to  a Tiktok bambi vid on hypnotube.

I am 90% sure this was me still in a dream state and was brought on by me reading Ra's posts in the sissyhyno thread about the Feminine takeover file which lead to me reading the "horror" stories about people's experience with that file.
Regardless, I have no desire to lose my life to some entity that I didn't even believe could exist 2 weeks ago, so I will have to take a significant break from this shit, and if I ever get back into it, be significantly more selective about what I watch/listen to.

Despite all this I am still craving listening to more and have been hard the entire time writing this post just thinking about listening to some more.

Thanks for the detailed synopsis of your experiences!  I'm honestly a bit envious, since I don't seem to trance very deeply often, or get to experience the voices of Bambi (or Bambi's trainer) or Samantha in my head.  I think it would be little scary but also very exciting to lose control like that, to experience bleed over into the waking world.  I have been listening to BS and SS since around 2018 off and on, but with much more frequency and devotion the last few years.  I would love to hear them speak to me outside of file listening...

The few times I have tranced deeply, it was pretty amazing.  Mainly with SS.  I did the Trance Training Program series, 1-7, with strict adherence to the recommendation of at least 5 times per file before progressing.  In the last file, first time I listened to it, I tranced very deep, and the layers of Samantha's voice seemed like they were assaulting me from all directions in a very intense way.  It was like I was pinned to the bed, pushed in to a very erotically controlled state by her voices.  My body started to vibrate and I had an intense HFO, my first one ever, in the induction part of the file, before it ever really took off even.  I just laid there in my own puddle, unable to move while the rest of the file played out.  It was scary and thrilling, and hasn't happened since.  When I binge files I tend to "black out" during them, losing memory of the file sometime during the induction and coming up during the wakener part.  I hear that's common.    

Right now I'm more into BS stuff, with both Bellmar's Bambi and the original files as main practice tools.  Doing the 20 day Bambicloud progression now, currently on day 19.  I wish I could really go deep and lose myself in the files, but I must have some resistance to it.  As a sign of progress, though, I haven't played with myself at all for weeks, only dressing up in Uniform and experiencing the extreme arousal of wearing it without release each day.  I think coming eventually breaks the spell for me, and if I don't come, I can go back each day for more, and the excitement is still there.  The last time tried the BS 20-Day challenge I got about halfway through, masturbated, then lost interest.  This time, though, going all the way!  Lots of Bellmar Bambi files and Samantha files train you in chastity, so I'm sure my ability to keep going is a result of keeping away from orgasms, as certain files demand.  

Also been enjoying Kei's files.  They are so hot, that it's hard not to use it as fap material.  In that sense, remaining chaste while listening, and doing my best to surf the arousal wave without giving in to the very strong desire for orgasm her files inspire, has been good testament to the chastity commitment other files have installed in me.  It's a real challenge though.  Kei knows how to create extremely exciting content for me.

I also started to use plugs for the first time recently to supplement the files, as well as sucking on dildos, something I never would have thought I'd ever do as a "straight" male.  Samantha, BS, and Kei emphasize cock worship and anal play, so they have successfully impregnated my mind with those arousal triggers, too.  It's funny how much doing both doesn't bother me at all, anymore.  It's just a part of the training plan the files promote, so I'm letting it happen, it seems.

Still waiting (and hoping) for Bambi, Samantha, or Demon Girl to visit me in my dreams...

Back again already.
I spiraled after listening to the Cocotranse Vid.
I decided to put on BCCP loop, hoping there would be nothing too bad in there and i would get on fine.
i just had it on in the background at first , but at some point in the middle i started to trance out. i continued to listen for some time before I heard the BS voice start repeating "Bambi Sleep" in my head again. before i knew it i was listening to the quick induction on b4mb1cloud, then half way through that i felt compelled to pull up Tom Tame's "Bambi in the box". I watched the entire thing start to finish before watching more b4mb1 tiktoks to get off.

The moment I "decided" to switch to the Tom Tame's vid i got up out of my chair to lock my door (don't live alone) and i felt like someone else was doing the walking. I was even swaying my hips. I was aware the entire time, but i felt like someone was pulling me along. I don't know if I've actually actively listened to more of the bs files than I realize and have actually completely fallen for the amnesia component, but it doesn't feel like it. I do all my nsfw browsing incognito, so i don't have a way to go back and check.
Either I am the most suggestible fool on the planet and its a miracle i haven't fallen for something else already, or deep down I want to be ruined. I don't know which and I'm not sure I want to find out. 

I've been passively consuming this stuff (even the BS files technically, but only as they have been included in other videos and have never really given them any focus) forever, so maybe it's just been slowly building up, waiting for the dam to break.

I don't know how much of this is my own choice, as like i said, i have found the concept of this happening arousing for basically a decade at this point, but I find it unsettling at the same time. It took me probably 20 minutes to get my head back on straight after Tom Tame's video.

I feel like a walking cautionary tale.

[Like Ra]

I went back after reading your response and tranced deep to Cocotrance's css video. It felt like someone pulled my mouth open and pulled carla out of it.

Hello Carla, Marta is here 😉 Carla, please, take over, and meet other girls in this thread: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...-out-space

This happened to many of us, who listened to the CSS or Female Takeover -like files.

I spiraled after listening to the Cocotranse Vid.

Try this one: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...7#pid54997 😉 (related to this thread)

i felt like someone else was doing the walking.

Yes, this is how it should be felt. See this thread: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...osis-works

I don't know how much of this is my own choice,

Very good question! And, as you guessed, we have a separate thread on this: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...e-a-choice

Back again already.
I spiraled after listening to the Cocotranse Vid.
I decided to put on BCCP loop, hoping there would be nothing too bad in there and i would get on fine.
i just had it on in the background at first , but at some point in the middle i started to trance out. i continued to listen for some time before I heard the BS voice start repeating "Bambi Sleep" in my head again. before i knew it i was listening to the quick induction on b4mb1cloud, then half way through that i felt compelled to pull up Tom Tame's "Bambi in the box". I watched the entire thing start to finish before watching more b4mb1 tiktoks to get off.

The moment I "decided" to switch to the Tom Tame's vid i got up out of my chair to lock my door (don't live alone) and i felt like someone else was doing the walking. I was even swaying my hips. I was aware the entire time, but i felt like someone was pulling me along. I don't know if I've actually actively listened to more of the bs files than I realize and have actually completely fallen for the amnesia component, but it doesn't feel like it. I do all my nsfw browsing incognito, so i don't have a way to go back and check.
Either I am the most suggestible fool on the planet and its a miracle i haven't fallen for something else already, or deep down I want to be ruined. I don't know which and I'm not sure I want to find out. 

I've been passively consuming this stuff (even the BS files technically, but only as they have been included in other videos and have never really given them any focus) forever, so maybe it's just been slowly building up, waiting for the dam to break.

I don't know how much of this is my own choice, as like i said, i have found the concept of this happening arousing for basically a decade at this point, but I find it unsettling at the same time. It took me probably 20 minutes to get my head back on straight after Tom Tame's video.

I feel like a walking cautionary tale.

Don't forget to check out Tom Tame art...this is fun to look through while audio is playing.
tom tame deviant art

I went back after reading your response and tranced deep to Cocotrance's css video. It felt like someone pulled my mouth open and pulled carla out of it.

Hello Carla, Marta is here 😉 Carla, please, take over, and meet other girls in this thread: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...-out-space

This happened to many of us, who listened to the CSS or Female Takeover -like files.

I spiraled after listening to the Cocotranse Vid.

Try this one: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...7#pid54997  😉 (related to this thread)

i felt like someone else was doing the walking.

Yes, this is how it should be felt. See this thread: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...osis-works

I don't know how much of this is my own choice,

Very good question! And, as you guessed, we have a separate thread on this: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/Thread...e-a-choice

Thank you for the suggestions, but I'm going to have to do my damnedest to say no at this point.
I have no problem with the idea of being "forced" into an altered state of mind when horny at home.

The idea of a second personality forming in my head is titillating, to be sure (I'm literally shaking with excitement every time I open this thread. Seeing you type that name fucked with me instantly). But the end result is also too potentially horrifying to be worth it to me now.
I've speedrun what I thought took people years in less than a week. I don't want to ruin my life in a month.

I've been imagining welding that damn pink box shut over and over again for the last 2 hours, once I felt like I was back out of it.

God I wish this didn't turn me on so fucking much.