Kei's MindWarp

[Iniga]

Having energy episode.. Sorry. updating medication today hopefully. Thanks trying to calm down maybe everything will be restored soon except the youtube channel which is perma gone probably

Lots of hugs Kei & am very glad to hear you are doing better. Take your time, your own well being has priority. We can all wait patiently until you have recharged & if and when you feel like being creative again, share & enjoy the fruits of your passion & creativity. Lots of love & more hugs.

[Samantha Velvet]

Having energy episode.. Sorry. updating medication today hopefully. Thanks trying to calm down maybe everything will be restored soon except the youtube channel which is perma gone probably

Take care Kei, hope you get better soon.  💓 💓

[jmjars]

Hi everyone!! the entities are relentless in harassing me to take these videos down. The voice who is doing and has given me his names is Benjamin, and ikura. Take what you want from that he has pushed me very bad things. And I don't want him to me hurt anymore. please and he says he will stop when i close it all down. they have been able to control my voice a couple times today and other stuff that has made me bonkers and they are constantly talking about how they are going to make me love being abused and to commit suicide after I am force to constantly have sex with no control. and they are controlling my hands constantly I don''t want abuse so I will do as the torture commands but that it. I am doing this because he is relently in torturing me. also whatever

it hurts me to see so much pain in you. none of us really understand just what is happening to you, so i beg you to do what you feel is right, even if it means you have to take down those videos. i think we're all greedy for what you bring to us, but what is right for you is most important!

[Like Ra]

the entities are relentless in harassing me to take these videos down.

Which entities made/help you with creating the videos? Can you ask them to protect you? Can you let the entities deal with each other?

I thought, the reason for wiping everything out was quite the opposite - you lost the support from the entities, which pushed you forward with the files. Something what happened to me during the last days. It's like the magic is gone from where it suddenly appeared. You feel emptiness, being left or dumped, with all the consequences.

[mymynd]

Hi everyone!! the entities are relentless in harassing me to take these videos down. The voice who is doing and has given me his names is Benjamin, and ikura. Take what you want from that he has pushed me very bad things. And I don't want him to me hurt anymore. please and he says he will stop when i close it all down. they have been able to control my voice a couple times today and other stuff that has made me bonkers and they are constantly talking about how they are going to make me love being abused and to commit suicide after I am force to constantly have sex with no control. and they are controlling my hands constantly I don''t want abuse so I will do as the torture commands but that it. I am doing this because he is relently in torturing me. also whatever

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us I really hope we can help you, even just a little.

I don’t want to come off as intrusive or anything like that, but…
are you currently in therapy?
Have you seen a doctor about this?

What do you usually do to manage or regulate your thoughts?
Do you have any specific techniques or methods you use?

I’m guessing (though I know assuming isn’t always good) that there may be something in your situation that’s making it hard to cope with these thoughts.

Have you noticed any patterns like when these entities/thoughts tend to get stronger or when they feel weaker?

Besides what you've aeady told us, are there any other things that contribute to feeling this way?

Do you see your situation as entirely negative, or are there any mixed or conflicting emotions involved?

Of course, you don’t have to answer any of this if you don’t want to.
I just want to understand more so I can try to help.

I truly believe that with time, any situation can be managed or regulated little by little.

I don’t know you personally, but I sincerely hope you’re able to handle what you’re going through and find peace.

And if you ever feel like it, please let us know how you're doing. We genuinely want you to be okay.

Lastly, if you’re worried that you’re doing something wrong by making those videos—please don’t be. At least from my perspective, they’re just quirky little fantasy clips. Harmless. Actually, I find them really interesting and I think most of the folks here would feel the same.

[trans_bbygirl]

Hi everyone!! the entities are relentless in harassing me to take these videos down. The voice who is doing and has given me his names is Benjamin, and ikura. Take what you want from that he has pushed me very bad things. And I don't want him to me hurt anymore. please and he says he will stop when i close it all down. they have been able to control my voice a couple times today and other stuff that has made me bonkers and they are constantly talking about how they are going to make me love being abused and to commit suicide after I am force to constantly have sex with no control. and they are controlling my hands constantly I don''t want abuse so I will do as the torture commands but that it. I am doing this because he is relently in torturing me. also whatever

Please protect yourself Kei!  Seek help from your family or therapist if you have one. We care about you so much!

[Keilight]

Thank you all for your kind support! I just woke up from sleep and I'm doing better. I'm trying a new medication and my sibling is helping me to get into their therapist. I feel I might not be coming back to this again and I'm going to try to move in a more loving direction with my art again. I just don't have the moral compass tuned well enough to understand how I feel about my creations. I need to work on more neutral things so I don't have to be trapped in thoughts of doubt of if I'm truly be a positive force. I know my work has given so many people happiness and love and I know that there will be people who deeply miss my creations, but I feel right now that I deeply need to move forward in a many where I don't have to question whether or not what I'm doing is okay for me mentally. I need to minimize these doubts. My next project is going to be making ISEKAI anime fantasy with my new ai tools and flasher tech. In these stories I'm going to have trans characters in it and stuff and it's going to be really fun and cool!

I love you all so much and I'm sorry for anything that might have offended anyone with it. Thank you all so much for your support and I will keep you all updated on how I'm doing I hope to keep you informed.

[RabbitSeason]

Thank you all for your kind support! I just woke up from sleep and I'm doing better. I'm trying a new medication and my sibling is helping me to get into their therapist. I feel I might not be coming back to this again and I'm going to try to move in a more loving direction with my art again. I just don't have the moral compass tuned well enough to understand how I feel about my creations. I need to work on more neutral things so I don't have to be trapped in thoughts of doubt of if I'm truly be a positive force. I know my work has given so many people happiness and love and I know that there will be people who deeply miss my creations, but I feel right now that I deeply need to move forward in a many where I don't have to question whether or not what I'm doing is okay for me mentally. I need to minimize these doubts. My next project is going to be making ISEKAI anime fantasy with my new ai tools and flasher tech. In these stories I'm going to have trans characters in it and stuff and it's going to be really fun and cool!

I love you all so much and I'm sorry for anything that might have offended anyone with it. Thank you all so much for your support and I will keep you all updated on how I'm doing I hope to keep you informed.

Your health and safety have to come first, of course. I know whatever you do you'll knock it out of the park.

[brandynette]

Thank you all for your kind support! I just woke up from sleep and I'm doing better. I'm trying a new medication and my sibling is helping me to get into their therapist. I feel I might not be coming back to this again and I'm going to try to move in a more loving direction with my art again. I just don't have the moral compass tuned well enough to understand how I feel about my creations. I need to work on more neutral things so I don't have to be trapped in thoughts of doubt of if I'm truly be a positive force. I know my work has given so many people happiness and love and I know that there will be people who deeply miss my creations, but I feel right now that I deeply need to move forward in a many where I don't have to question whether or not what I'm doing is okay for me mentally. I need to minimize these doubts. My next project is going to be making ISEKAI anime fantasy with my new ai tools and flasher tech. In these stories I'm going to have trans characters in it and stuff and it's going to be really fun and cool!

I love you all so much and I'm sorry for anything that might have offended anyone with it. Thank you all so much for your support and I will keep you all updated on how I'm doing I hope to keep you informed.

Dont feel bad Keilight! i know exactly what you are going through, especially when it comes to self-doubt & mental health!
Remember being part of the mod at hypnotube discord & listening to Mia while she was turning us all into girls, she went into an aspect of transition shocking me, i panicked, fled & some weeks later ended up purging my entire porn career.
it wasn't the porn, it was brandynette. my artist name & porn brand turned into an alter ego. uncontrolled she was hurting me in real life. brandynette was fetish self harming the girl i was becoming, she had to go so i purged her! brandynette had to go! deleted 4 years of my own porn. destroyed my websites & servers.

did therapy, made sure of what kind of transition & my goal. Once i went on hormones & started to enjoy my regula sexuality again i started to miss certain parts of brandynette & so i rebuilt her before letting her come back

I find its perfectly normal for you, as creator to doubt certain fetishes. this is a healthy part of the prossess, who knows where your content will end up at as you have always had amazing creativity & exeptional skill to get me horny AF

your latest content, the one on X is wild! its way more extreeme, you made me flinch freack & purge it all in one sitting! Brutal! 
Will you delete everything or will you like me, leave it as prof of existance?

if you will delete it all can i ask you to pack me an archive. i swear i wont share publicly or use it later.

hope you get mentally certain of your creativity again. In the mean time i wish you the best & will always be a fangirl of everything you created

[rosalina8]

Thank you all for your kind support! I just woke up from sleep and I'm doing better. I'm trying a new medication and my sibling is helping me to get into their therapist. I feel I might not be coming back to this again and I'm going to try to move in a more loving direction with my art again. I just don't have the moral compass tuned well enough to understand how I feel about my creations. I need to work on more neutral things so I don't have to be trapped in thoughts of doubt of if I'm truly be a positive force. I know my work has given so many people happiness and love and I know that there will be people who deeply miss my creations, but I feel right now that I deeply need to move forward in a many where I don't have to question whether or not what I'm doing is okay for me mentally. I need to minimize these doubts. My next project is going to be making ISEKAI anime fantasy with my new ai tools and flasher tech. In these stories I'm going to have trans characters in it and stuff and it's going to be really fun and cool!

I love you all so much and I'm sorry for anything that might have offended anyone with it. Thank you all so much for your support and I will keep you all updated on how I'm doing I hope to keep you informed.

I'm late but me and Pauline wish you a good recovering and whatever you do, We're sure you will make quality material !