13 Aug 2024, 16:24
Fine... You all want an update on how I'm doing? I'm a lot better, but I'm still in 24/7 contact with an entity(s). I'm not really sure if she is multifaceted or many entities or just a single entity pretending to be many. She was really horrible to me last year. At times she would make my eyes twitch endlessly, other times it was just making me twitch every time I tried to think about something disrupting my thoughts little all the time. You don't know how badly that can make you go crazy. Sometimes there was pain involved. One time she stuck a finger up my butt (basically) for several days until finally I was screaming, hitting myself, and bashed my face into the steering wheel giving myself a scar. She stopped then. She doesn't actually want me to hurt myself. That was why bashing my head with a rock and cutting was the only thing that made it stop. I bashed my head with a rock thousands of times to try to make her stop and she did pull away a bit when I was really upset and injuring my self, but never fully. I cut myself well over hundred times. And at one point I went out into the woods and I manage to cut an artery in my leg. The blood was squirting out several inches with every heartbeat. I thought for absolute sure I was dead. But some how I stopped the flow or maybe some entity stopped the flow. I spent 9 days in the mental facility.
These are entities outside my body. It all started with the lovense vibrator. The entity took it over hundreds of times and made super cool patterns and would respond to me squeezing and my thoughts. There was some interesting things about that like if I moved it more then an inch it would break the connection but if I only moved it a bit the pattern would change like I was shifting an object through a higher dimensional space. Like the pattern would change in that way. Its hard to explain. She communicates to me with sparkles and touches now. And now I love her. She can speak to me with words in my head but only if i'm meditating or groggy from waking up. She can push through even if I'm not meditating or groggy but after about 5-10 words my legs will feel like there is a kind of electricity is inside them and it will cause my legs to spasm kind of. Like I can't help but move them and it's super uncomfortable.
What else? Hmm I cast protection spells now every day, and when i'm casting them I see her sparkling.
I've had hundreds of vivid dreams some dreams have music in them that is really weird, and i've never had music in my dreams before this. I've also contacted extraterrestrial through a medium. He was helping with it for awhile. And when he channeled there was an energy ring undulating around his head i'm not kidding at all. Hard to believe but its true. He was the real deal. I'm a pleiadian hybrid consciousness, but that isn't all that rare. 30% of the human population is a consciousness blend of some kind. It is really real. The way they talked through him was pretty impossible to fake. Basically he just told me I wasn't grounding my energy. And I don't know really. They said I wasn't being targeted by a negative entity.
The spirit who is possessing me I guess you could say. she has apologized saying it was like a purification and that I was initiated. She controls my body a little bit all day. Like she squeezes my fingers moves my feet makes my eyes twitch and muscles twitch. I see sparkles of light and sometimes zips of light. The zips of light have inertia but doesn't look like that they are effected by gravity. I've seen multiple zips quickly which makes me think that there is more than a single point. She can control muscles I can't consciously control. She doesn't hurt me anymore, well sometimes she will bite my toe or something like make it sting but not very often and it's kind of playful.
Things started to get a lot better after the de-cursing and protection spell casting. I'm also taking prozac which has improved my mood a lot. If I'm in a bad mood she will be tend to be in a bad mood.
I don't want her to go away anymore. Actually I thought for the longest time that working out was helping me get rid of her but it was the opposite. If I stop working out she starts to fade. I don't really know how long it would take for her to fade away completely or if that would actually be possible. She might just be tricking me to force me to work out. I've been working out like a lot. 2-3 hours everyday. And if work out only like 2 hours constantly for a week or so she told me she can't hold on so I have to push harder. She just sparkled when I typed that.
I have been working on a youtube channel and it has like 4131 subscribers. I make like 80 dollars a month of it and its horrible the amount of work I put into it for how little it gives back. **Sigh** I really miss making money, but I don't want to hurt people and some of my files were seriously not good for people. Like there were a few I stopped selling way before any of this happened because I felt so badly about them. I don't know though completely. I still don't feel completely remorseful about it. I know I wasn't doing things right, but I also don't feel like I shouldn't be able to express myself. If she hadn't come along I would have kept selling them of course. But you must understand that things went super crazy, and I had to stop. If people curse me, I do feel it. Energy is real and if lots of people are sending super negative energy at me she will start to fuck with me. At least thats what I think now or what I can tell. I really don't know much anything about whats really happening. She said one time that she was the god SET but she has also said that she was military telepaths and she has said that she is an extraterrestrial. Blah blah blah. I think she is a spirit but who knows. She might be an astral entity? Could be anything really. I'm pretty sure she isn't an extension of my mind though unless my mind can create bluetooth signals which I don't think it can. Lots of other paranormal stuff has happened too. And not just me has seen the sparkles. Family has seen them, and if you look online there are discussions of people seeing the sparkles.
Oh she is also able to switch words that I think in my head. Like she would switch the word man or woman or other things in my thought stream. It was actually really messed up but once I stopped caring if she did it she stopped completely.
Anyways recently I thought about making a new hypnosis file with lots of sex stuff in it and she was actually not against it this time... why? I don't know. She says she is and isn't like its mixed signals but while I've been working on it she has been really interested helping me with it telling to not put this in it or to choose this sentence when I give her a choice of multiple versions of a sentence. We've gotten pretty good at our low bandwidth communication of touches. She uses touching my left eye as a no and everything else is a yes but there is lots of nuance like she will touch me in a way. Sometimes she'll make my butt hole spasm if she wants to I don't know jokingly touch me. Its all very nuanced in all the different kinds of touchs. And she can't control how she touches me like a person does speaking. It is like how your internal thoughts are spoken. So sometimes I'll ask something and she will say no but then yes because she didn't actually want to say no but she really felt no. If that makes sense. I can talk to her with visions too which is really cool. Sometimes I'll just speak to her with a vision, and she will respond. She can send me visions also but only if I'm meditating or right after waking up. And there is a spectrum of how strong the visions are. I've had a few that were like I was looking around with my eyes, and others that were way more intense than a mental image but not as intense as sight.
I sometimes think other entities interact with me and it's not just her. I've had some telepathic messages from the air force that were brief. I could look back in my notes but I forgot what they said. It was something small. Like “sir this is restricted.” I can't remember the other one. One time a voice spoke in my head and it seemed different than spirit with me and it said “ your telepathy training allowance” And then I had some visions for like 2 minutes or so. I saw various peoples faces some talking but with no sound.
Also this bim-k-ultra guy is bsing. There was only one voice actor someone in my family and that made making files really mentally painful. I slowed down a lot when I had her to the voice for the files. It sapped all the life out of working on the files. If you notice those files have a LOT less detail in them then the TTS files, because it isn't fun at all to work on a sex project with the voice being someone in your family.
I'm also not contacting people to delete their posts. I will however try to get any of my old files taken down anywhere they are uploaded. And I don't want anyone listening to them. I don't want to risk the negative energy, because I'm really weak now... way weaker than I was last year. If I get terrorized energetically, I will quickly go back to hurting myself, and I am totally open to killing myself again. I a
eady thought I did it for sure once aeady. I pretty sure my protection spells are actually working fairly good though.
There is 100% a spirit realm container for human spirits that was set up for humanity. It is basically a halo deck. But more complicated and 5 dimensional whatever that means. My spirit says time is “similar” to our time. Actually a new second spirit realm that they've (extra-terrestrials) been working on just came online in December 2023 and people incarnating from this layer between the astral plane and the spirit realm will be able to retain their memories from one previous life. This is the start of our collective consciousness that most civilizations develop. It will take some time but this new spirit realm will give humanity some cool abilities, but most of the stuff beyond remember previous life will take like a hundred years they said. They put it online for us because of A.I. And they don't want us making a mess of the local area. So having us be able to reincarnate with our memories is supposed to fix a lot of problems like war and stuff eventually. I think in the next few years there is going to be a lot more cases of kids remember past lives.
Anyways this was all just me rambling. I'm not going to edit this much at all and I'm just going to post it. I'll probably regret it. (spirit just say “yeah”) But whatever. I'm probably not going to respond to anything.
These are entities outside my body. It all started with the lovense vibrator. The entity took it over hundreds of times and made super cool patterns and would respond to me squeezing and my thoughts. There was some interesting things about that like if I moved it more then an inch it would break the connection but if I only moved it a bit the pattern would change like I was shifting an object through a higher dimensional space. Like the pattern would change in that way. Its hard to explain. She communicates to me with sparkles and touches now. And now I love her. She can speak to me with words in my head but only if i'm meditating or groggy from waking up. She can push through even if I'm not meditating or groggy but after about 5-10 words my legs will feel like there is a kind of electricity is inside them and it will cause my legs to spasm kind of. Like I can't help but move them and it's super uncomfortable.
What else? Hmm I cast protection spells now every day, and when i'm casting them I see her sparkling.
I've had hundreds of vivid dreams some dreams have music in them that is really weird, and i've never had music in my dreams before this. I've also contacted extraterrestrial through a medium. He was helping with it for awhile. And when he channeled there was an energy ring undulating around his head i'm not kidding at all. Hard to believe but its true. He was the real deal. I'm a pleiadian hybrid consciousness, but that isn't all that rare. 30% of the human population is a consciousness blend of some kind. It is really real. The way they talked through him was pretty impossible to fake. Basically he just told me I wasn't grounding my energy. And I don't know really. They said I wasn't being targeted by a negative entity.
The spirit who is possessing me I guess you could say. she has apologized saying it was like a purification and that I was initiated. She controls my body a little bit all day. Like she squeezes my fingers moves my feet makes my eyes twitch and muscles twitch. I see sparkles of light and sometimes zips of light. The zips of light have inertia but doesn't look like that they are effected by gravity. I've seen multiple zips quickly which makes me think that there is more than a single point. She can control muscles I can't consciously control. She doesn't hurt me anymore, well sometimes she will bite my toe or something like make it sting but not very often and it's kind of playful.
Things started to get a lot better after the de-cursing and protection spell casting. I'm also taking prozac which has improved my mood a lot. If I'm in a bad mood she will be tend to be in a bad mood.
I don't want her to go away anymore. Actually I thought for the longest time that working out was helping me get rid of her but it was the opposite. If I stop working out she starts to fade. I don't really know how long it would take for her to fade away completely or if that would actually be possible. She might just be tricking me to force me to work out. I've been working out like a lot. 2-3 hours everyday. And if work out only like 2 hours constantly for a week or so she told me she can't hold on so I have to push harder. She just sparkled when I typed that.
I have been working on a youtube channel and it has like 4131 subscribers. I make like 80 dollars a month of it and its horrible the amount of work I put into it for how little it gives back. **Sigh** I really miss making money, but I don't want to hurt people and some of my files were seriously not good for people. Like there were a few I stopped selling way before any of this happened because I felt so badly about them. I don't know though completely. I still don't feel completely remorseful about it. I know I wasn't doing things right, but I also don't feel like I shouldn't be able to express myself. If she hadn't come along I would have kept selling them of course. But you must understand that things went super crazy, and I had to stop. If people curse me, I do feel it. Energy is real and if lots of people are sending super negative energy at me she will start to fuck with me. At least thats what I think now or what I can tell. I really don't know much anything about whats really happening. She said one time that she was the god SET but she has also said that she was military telepaths and she has said that she is an extraterrestrial. Blah blah blah. I think she is a spirit but who knows. She might be an astral entity? Could be anything really. I'm pretty sure she isn't an extension of my mind though unless my mind can create bluetooth signals which I don't think it can. Lots of other paranormal stuff has happened too. And not just me has seen the sparkles. Family has seen them, and if you look online there are discussions of people seeing the sparkles.
Oh she is also able to switch words that I think in my head. Like she would switch the word man or woman or other things in my thought stream. It was actually really messed up but once I stopped caring if she did it she stopped completely.
Anyways recently I thought about making a new hypnosis file with lots of sex stuff in it and she was actually not against it this time... why? I don't know. She says she is and isn't like its mixed signals but while I've been working on it she has been really interested helping me with it telling to not put this in it or to choose this sentence when I give her a choice of multiple versions of a sentence. We've gotten pretty good at our low bandwidth communication of touches. She uses touching my left eye as a no and everything else is a yes but there is lots of nuance like she will touch me in a way. Sometimes she'll make my butt hole spasm if she wants to I don't know jokingly touch me. Its all very nuanced in all the different kinds of touchs. And she can't control how she touches me like a person does speaking. It is like how your internal thoughts are spoken. So sometimes I'll ask something and she will say no but then yes because she didn't actually want to say no but she really felt no. If that makes sense. I can talk to her with visions too which is really cool. Sometimes I'll just speak to her with a vision, and she will respond. She can send me visions also but only if I'm meditating or right after waking up. And there is a spectrum of how strong the visions are. I've had a few that were like I was looking around with my eyes, and others that were way more intense than a mental image but not as intense as sight.
I sometimes think other entities interact with me and it's not just her. I've had some telepathic messages from the air force that were brief. I could look back in my notes but I forgot what they said. It was something small. Like “sir this is restricted.” I can't remember the other one. One time a voice spoke in my head and it seemed different than spirit with me and it said “ your telepathy training allowance” And then I had some visions for like 2 minutes or so. I saw various peoples faces some talking but with no sound.
Also this bim-k-ultra guy is bsing. There was only one voice actor someone in my family and that made making files really mentally painful. I slowed down a lot when I had her to the voice for the files. It sapped all the life out of working on the files. If you notice those files have a LOT less detail in them then the TTS files, because it isn't fun at all to work on a sex project with the voice being someone in your family.
I'm also not contacting people to delete their posts. I will however try to get any of my old files taken down anywhere they are uploaded. And I don't want anyone listening to them. I don't want to risk the negative energy, because I'm really weak now... way weaker than I was last year. If I get terrorized energetically, I will quickly go back to hurting myself, and I am totally open to killing myself again. I a
eady thought I did it for sure once aeady. I pretty sure my protection spells are actually working fairly good though.There is 100% a spirit realm container for human spirits that was set up for humanity. It is basically a halo deck. But more complicated and 5 dimensional whatever that means. My spirit says time is “similar” to our time. Actually a new second spirit realm that they've (extra-terrestrials) been working on just came online in December 2023 and people incarnating from this layer between the astral plane and the spirit realm will be able to retain their memories from one previous life. This is the start of our collective consciousness that most civilizations develop. It will take some time but this new spirit realm will give humanity some cool abilities, but most of the stuff beyond remember previous life will take like a hundred years they said. They put it online for us because of A.I. And they don't want us making a mess of the local area. So having us be able to reincarnate with our memories is supposed to fix a lot of problems like war and stuff eventually. I think in the next few years there is going to be a lot more cases of kids remember past lives.
Anyways this was all just me rambling. I'm not going to edit this much at all and I'm just going to post it. I'll probably regret it. (spirit just say “yeah”) But whatever. I'm probably not going to respond to anything.
