I stumbled across links to this forum a few times while browsing erotic hypnosis sites so I thought I’d finally sign up. All my life I’ve had fetishes which means I’m very open minded. I’m bisexual and I’ve been a crossdresser since I was 7 years old, which means I’ve been at it for 37 years now and I’m not planning on ever stopping. 😊
I once saw my dressing as a fetish or as an unacceptable perversion that had to be hidden away but eventually I realised it was just the crap I had been conditioned to think. There was no internet when I was a kid and my parents were very traditional so it’s not surprising I thought some pretty stupid things about myself. When I finally came to the conclusion that at least some of what I think and feel is definitely female, things completely changed for me and my old inhibitions melted away. I got curious and knew I loved my kinkiness. I prefer to identify as female and in a sexual situation I’d prefer to dress female too, it just makes me feel more confident about myself and its exciting!
The thing is I tried going on TG sites and far too much of it is about conformity and fitting in. I want to be myself not what other people say I should be. I noticed when I was being told what I should wear I never felt happy. Thank goodness for the sissy sites and those that love dressing hyper-feminine like I do. I don’t really think of myself as a sissy but I picked up a few of the kinks along the way. Namely the outfits, the enjoyment of chastity and definitely a lot of their thinking. However I’m not a fan of the humiliation, the whole “you’re not a real man” and the femininity is a weakness crap because I feel that just undermines my identity and I did way too much of that idiotic thinking for years. I appreciate some people like that but not me.
I’ve always loved high heels and thigh length boots which really turned me on. The first time I wore a pair of those black patent boots I was in ecstasy. They made me feel sexy, powerful and confident. Nylon was another addiction for me from the first day I wore a pair of pantyhose or stockings. It was like an electric current running through my body. PVC has always excited me and does weird but nice things to my mind. I feel very different about myself, fantasise about being a dominatrix and seem to have the confidence I don’t normally feel in male mode. I love the feel of PVC and the way the light catches it.
Latex was another turn on for me but that stuff gets expensive fast and I need to slim down some before I invest in anymore because it limits my current purchase options. Catsuits, hoods, gloves; those things make me feel incredible! Leather, faux leather, wet-look are also other styling addictions. When I got into sissy stuff I discovered the joys of chiffon and satin which really blew my mind.
Wearing a gag was another exciting surprise for me and I think I’d really love to be tied up. Not into the spanking and whipping mind you, but I’d do it to someone else if they wanted it and taught me to do it properly and safely. I guess I’m a bit of a switch which is probably the correct term in these circles because I can get very submissive too and since I have to be dominant/overly masculine in general it really helps me to switch off. I’m also into hypnosis and love the idea of transformation fantasies and also brainwashing. Becoming a rubber doll is another little kink I have that I’d like to try one day. I’m also really curious about those Zentai suits too and I’m intrigued to discover how my thinking will change when I eventually wear one.
Anyway probably written far too much but first impressions suggest this site is a good fit for me. It would be really nice to talk about these things openly for a change rather than thinking about them in isolation.
I’m finishing up my road trip and ended with an elaborate encasement with leather straps and all sorts of fun stuff!
Here’s ‘Me’ in several layers of pantyhose encasing every inch of my body. I’m tightly plugged as well as gagged. Additionally, I’ve run chains through several eyelets of the leathers to lock my legs tightly together.
This was so intensely arousing. I enjoyed myself for a good hour or so before giving in and “rewarding” myself. 😉
Some usual words can have very unusual yet very logical meanings. The new meanings can be understood much easier if accompanied with a descriptive picture 😉
Does anybody know any good video hoster, that allows mild erotic? Yesterday YouTube blocked my account for no obvious reason (there was no even mild erotic stuff in that file), and it became too unreliable for fetish stuff.
Myvideo.de ceased to exist.
Xtube, pornhub, redtube (it's one company) is a viable alternative, but their ad campaign is too annoying with lots of nasty pop-ups.
Just had to fire up a session after meeting a new person Ms. Dean that had killer thighs that just left me so turned on.
Those thighs required something new. The video is the highlights of a few hours of fun.
First the release, standard key drop, the release is a pole that needs pulled. I’ve used similar configuration of this release for 20 years. In this session I wanted the setup that required my thighs to pull the pole release. Once it was pulled out the rope came free and the key would drop. The video starts showing how the release works.
Some of the issues I had to solve were how to keep my cuffed hand highs enough not to be able to grab the pole and second not being able to walk away and get to the release. The walking away was solved with a rope around the knees connected to a wall behing the backdrop. the hands part didn’t work as well. I had a rope around my chest that the wrist cuff went thru to hold my hand up in the middle of my back. I think given enough time I would be able to get my cuffed hands down to grab the pipe and pull it to get the keys to drop. I’ll need to come up with a better harness to keep the hands in the middle of my back. The pole was too weak. I could just sit down on it causing it to release. I’ll use a steel pole the next time or maybe the harness that holds the hands up could be connected to the ceiling.
The session starts around 1 min and it takes me a minute or so to get cuffed in and another minute to get the key to drop. Much to fast. After the session I start working on variations that I show some clips of tests.. Not knowing exactly how the test would work so I didn’t using the restrictions as much since I wasn’t sure of the results. I setup the pole to have an ice end, so it was cold and slippery and that worked a little better so I decided to add some soap to the ice, again it worked a little better, then I decide to go all in with the soap and soap up my thighs. This works the best and I could not get it to release, so I was glad I didn’t restrict my movements. I just walked away from the pole and went and pushed it to release the key. I'll refine this with some more tests for after my date with Ms. Dean
