I have been listening to SB's files for a while now, specifically ones focused on dressing up. I also had a few custom files made, some of which are for sale on the site. I can only say that the files seem quite effective (at least on me) and that I'm having a lot of fun with them. So far, I haven't suffered any negative consequences. If anything, I feel more accepting of my own crossdressing urges and therefore much happier. Interestingly, I also have a higher sexdrive than before.
Currently, my circumstances are such that I can't dress up as I temporarily live with family (I just returned home after a long stint abroad). As an outlet I have extremely vivid dreams about dressing up and even being a woman, specifically seeing myself as a woman in the mirror. I also feel a strong urge to look up images of woman wearing slutty make up, woman sucking cock, and women in pink outfits.
In the last three weeks I wasn't able to listen due to circumstances and the effects and urges quickly dissipated, so there you go. Having said that, yesterday I started listening again and right after I had a very vivid dream about dressing up and my urges to dress up came back very strong. Thus, one can only conclude that the previous sessions have left some kind of impression or "base" that remained even though the immediate urges disappeared.
Some background on me: I'm CIS male, very hetero, love of crossdressing from a very young age. Sound mind, succesful career, feel very good about myself and life.
Sometimes, I worry a bit about about the changes being more profound than I think--especially in the long run--and losing control. Also, what will happen when I'm on my own again? Will I slip immediately into an outfit not being able, or wanting to change back into normal clothes? So far however, I'm just enjoying the process of having thoughts, feelings, and urges being programmed into me. Is there a chance that some day I will wake up being gay and/or wanting a sex change? I just don't think so. I'm eager to hear other people's perspective though!
Thanks for your attention, fellas!
(This post was last modified: 12 Apr 2022, 13:52 by Maximiliaan_75.)
Currently, my circumstances are such that I can't dress up as I temporarily live with family (I just returned home after a long stint abroad). As an outlet I have extremely vivid dreams about dressing up and even being a woman, specifically seeing myself as a woman in the mirror. I also feel a strong urge to look up images of woman wearing slutty make up, woman sucking cock, and women in pink outfits.
In the last three weeks I wasn't able to listen due to circumstances and the effects and urges quickly dissipated, so there you go. Having said that, yesterday I started listening again and right after I had a very vivid dream about dressing up and my urges to dress up came back very strong. Thus, one can only conclude that the previous sessions have left some kind of impression or "base" that remained even though the immediate urges disappeared.
Some background on me: I'm CIS male, very hetero, love of crossdressing from a very young age. Sound mind, succesful career, feel very good about myself and life.
Sometimes, I worry a bit about about the changes being more profound than I think--especially in the long run--and losing control. Also, what will happen when I'm on my own again? Will I slip immediately into an outfit not being able, or wanting to change back into normal clothes? So far however, I'm just enjoying the process of having thoughts, feelings, and urges being programmed into me. Is there a chance that some day I will wake up being gay and/or wanting a sex change? I just don't think so. I'm eager to hear other people's perspective though!
Thanks for your attention, fellas!
