dammet @
Like Ra you are the psychotherapist i deserve as punishment for my ego!
i was an INTJ. as me mentally unstable & south Amerika Ferral was presenting psychopathic traits. if i remember 10y ago where my Scott Levinson self-psychopathy showed i was as high as the highest.
i don't lie. i always tell the truth. & you will never be able to prof the contrary as i believe or can make myself believe my own lies. it's a skill issue if you can't. psycho trait 1
i used to manipulate my female partners with my girl skills as if im the best choice in a certain situation i would later use & abuse to reinforce. trait 2
my goal was to prove myself by pleasing as many fems sexually as posible. wich i did. "20min talking & she's sucking me!" trait 3
completely abstract & psychotic ego & moral compas making no sense or im just changing it as i see fit to accomplish whatever i wanted. trait 4
3 of 5 would have been enough to be classified.
there are types & levels of psychopathy there aren't any on/off psychopaths
besides consuming substances i have never committed a crime. why?
cuss im one of the many "good" psychopaths
my old behaviour is explained by no mental health treatment of undiagnosed schizoaffective & the emotional traumas, unresolved identity & general mental health instability due to stress related to constantly being in fear of dying due to general latin American criminality.
how i think i did it? or how i believe it works if you want to alter myself? Maybe everyone?
it was around when i started to write my first 100 line of JavaScript, not coincidentally my list of similarities between LLMs & our brains is both work on the same principles of neuronal networks it can train & program to handle information more efficiently. we literally based LLMs on brains somewhere in the 60s. both can self-update to add and remove neurons. biological neuronal plasticity or update to address current workload. if electro chemical impulses or electric api tokens. the idea & basic logic is the same.
somehow by chance or destiny i can't tell i realized lying to myself & believing it cuss i want too, was the solution for understanding how Hypnos work on my brain. i could use & harness it as a skill so i fixed my "i believe my lies!" to "it's not a lie if i feel it emotionally!" to its current form "my mind makes it real if i imagine it hard enough! duh, that's called method acting" not for me. it's not acting if i can't get out of the roles at will
psychology? rinse. rinse & repeat. repeat
keep it going step by step your mind is making it real
Do as you are told by your Turbulent Commander!
im clearly an ENTJ-T
i can 90% relate to
https://www.xpersonalitytest.com/entj/entj-t