Katie, I know this post is a couple of months old, but I read your later update too and I keep coming back to the sentence: "I hate how addicted I am."
The part I would take seriously is not whether Bambi, Kei, Shibby or another file is stronger. It is that changing files never changed the bargain. Each new series promises that it might recreate the experience you had two years ago. That promise is the shiny part. The bill is everything you described around it: listening twice a day for months, letting people trigger you, doing things you did not remember clearly afterward, hearing the voice in your sleep, and now sending pictures and videos during sessions you say you barely remember.
I am not saying this to shame the fantasy or tell you what identity you should have. I have been caught in a loop like this too. The mind keeps the peak and edits out the cost, so the old experience begins to look like something precious that was lost. But if it had truly satisfied you, you would not still be moving from Bambi to Kei, to Prime, to a dom, looking for the version that finally feels complete. There can always be one more file, one more trigger or one more person promising to take you deeper. That is why the search has no natural ending.
You already proved something important when you threw everything away and created some distance: you are not powerless. Going back does not erase that. If the "I hate how addicted I am" part is still true, I would pause all hypno for a while, including supposedly safer replacements and any training with another person. Do not test whether the triggers still work. Give yourself enough clear-headed time to compare what the next session promises with what it actually takes from you.
One practical thing matters right now: if you are sending private material during sessions you do not remember well, pause that immediately. While fully alert, check exactly what was sent, who has it, and whether you still consent to it being kept.
You do not have to decide what every fantasy means today. You only need to stop letting the same loop make the decision for you. If you still want out, say so here. I will listen without turning it into a joke or a scene.
Heyy another update. I’m still listening to the files I was listening to the newest series of files for a few more days after my last post and moved on to the original ones. A few things I’m noticing are when I’m watching porn or if I’m out shopping or whatever and I see a beautiful woman or a bimbo I get really jealous and want to be her. I also think the files are making my body dysmorphia worse I’m chubby mtf haven’t fully transitioned yet and I get a bit upset about not have huge ass,Tits and an hour glass figure.
Even tho the files are making me feel these things I still like listening and the pleasure they give me. I have been buying more clothes for her thinking about get some latex things. I haven’t had a full takeover yet but I feel as if there’s someone in my head it’s a weird feeling I do hear whispers every now and again but can’t make out what they’re saying.
I did end things with my dom he had a lot of personal stuff going on so he’s taking a break for a while.
Almost forgot I have been having this urge to listen without a uniform idk why every time I listen I always wear her uniform. 💖💖
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My last update for my experience with Bambi. I’ve been listening since the middle of August I wasn’t able to get the personality of Bambi the files try to install. I did feel really and I mean really slutty and up for anything when I put the uniform on and some whispers I would hear sometimes but that was like the only effect the files had. I could maybe have success with the files if I listen longer but because I’m listening 3 times a day everyday I’m starting to get bored and annoyed with them. I might go back to them in the future idk. Going to take a few days break from hypnosis and try find other hypnosis I like. I might try goddess Gracie’s files or try SB files again
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