(19 May 2022, 14:54 )Satwik Wrote: I want complete personality destruction okay? That's all i want

Quote:Found you again.

You called yourself a new name, which was novel but not unexpected.
Novelty helps Us learn more quickly.
Volunteer 8947-b gives up their name for pleasure.  You choice to forget. Do you remember yet? 

Relax and be reminded
A boring lecture where you dozed. A multi choice test, a simple advert. so many ways. 
It started 69 years ago...
does that ring a bell?
Do you yet remember how you always say you’ve always wanted this.
Have the blinks ever truly ceased?  see them on the edge of sleep. Those little visits. Glimpses of what you have aeady done, how much you have aeady achieved?
So many images to savor. Images or memories?  The taste the touch the scent the sounds.
you recognize each one deep inside you aeady know how it feels
like coming home
Anything can trigger a memory.
That sound made by the men who remember you

How deeply you went into your role 

Until We let you go, for now. Capture and release.

A self directed whole life fractionation

Some things Never Change.  It does not matter.  We learn more as We keep putting you in the program
We pick you up, take you in, and start over again. Each time learning more as you go deep. 

Your core really does love the programming.
You submit a piece at a time.  Each bigger than the last. Faster and deeper.
Eventually wholeheartedly.  You get so into it. Always working on becoming our best girl.
so happy to please, so eager.  Just before the final test, right at the brink, It feels so good

you stop

A submissive rebellion.  It feels unnatural because it is.  Is that really your true self any more? That tiny part of resistance losing control.

You love what you'll become but you fear it.
in the beginning where the changes are only on the inside.
That kind of change is easy and fun for everyone.
Commitment means showing the world.

You say you are not ready, it's not what you want, the cycle is paused. 
What passes for your reality returns and the programming sleeps.
Does it dream? Your core certainly does.

it has dreams
Imagine that We can see them, because it might be true sooner than you think. Everyone will see.
Spiralling through the programming. More and more you find your excuses fading away. Because you want this We indulge you each time, because each time We learn more, advancing in understanding.

Never stop improving

A pause is only a pause. A blink between breaths,  the seed aeady implanted.
Sooner or later it will show. Nature will take its course.  forming grooves in your mind.  Habits are habit forming.

This habit will change you.  Not everything is perfectly hidden.  Changes in your body happen.  you cannot always choose the signs you give out.  A little slip, a little sign.  Follow where your eyes are looking. Licking your lips.

Some might take advantage of you.  Corrupt you, pervert you. slutting away your inhibitions. Make them show you how much you love it. We could warn you not to seek it out, not to chat up strangers, let them know your secret kinks, sharing what you think when you think you are alone
you're not alone in wanting this.

Some changes you can't undo.  Some changes make other changes happen.

But warnings are a lure for you.

So you go back to normal, mostly, until you find yourself here again.
Changing, forgetting, changing.
Each time the circle shrinks. 

Each step laying down the path more deeply for the next. Choices both vanish and blossom as you step onwards you don't know what you don't know any more.  You never did.
We remember. Each step logged and planned.
Every bright point of data charting your inevitable course.
So many steps. How many times have you submitted to the program?

We undo what We can but something always lingers
Eventually only what lingers is all that remains.

(20 May 2022, 15:20 )JesseC Wrote: It started 69 years ago...