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Bambi Vape Addiction Experiment - Update #1

I made a post about two weeks ago talking about the experiment I was starting, incorporating vaping into my training regime. Several of you messaged me expressing interest in this and asking for an update, and I'm happy to share the progress so far!

--Health and Safety Disclaimer--

Look, this is a personal thing I'm doing for the sake of science and my own warped pleasure. This is obviously a really bad idea, and this post is not meant to condone this practice at all. If you should decide you want to copy my method and do this yourself, I would highly advise you talk to a doctor or mental health professional first. Be safe, and don't sue me!

Onto the sauce 😉

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The idea has been a reoccurring one for me for some time now. I'm not the most conditioned when it comes to these files, but I have dabbled in them since the latter half of the last decade. During that time, I have experimented with some other substances (again, not condoning this), like THC, DXM, and alcohol. These events were more like one-off trials than something I did habitually. These are fairly unhealthy habits and I felt it was too detrimental to my mental health to continue them. (As far as the efficacy of each of these goes, that's worthy of a post in itself.)

But then you have nicotine: a highly addictive, legal and readily available chemical that, on its own, is reasonably safe to consume on a daily basis. And the insidious idea to incorporate this in my training as a regular thing kept popping into my mind, so I decided, what the hell?

I brought the conversation to my favorite AI model, and had a lengthy discussion about different kinds of psychological conditioning, and the best methods for associating one addictive action with another. It basically confirmed my theory that, if you were to only vape when using the files, and at no other time of day, your brain would eventually associate the pleasure and cravings for nicotine with pleasure and cravings for the files. Nicotine, being the little demon it is, causes a frequent "itch" that needs to be scratched. Thus, the experimenter should find themselves needing the files to scratch that itch as well, even some day when the nicotine is removed from the equation.

Now, there are various methods one might consider for the administration of this chemical. Some have brought up the idea of using a patch, and I understand the value in this as it will provide a continuous stream of nicotine while one is in trance, no need to move your arms to hit a vape. Ultimately, this is unsatisfactory for my purposes. The conditioning would be strongest, according to my understanding of the science, if you blast your brain with high doses of the chemical all at once while you're performing the other action you want to link it with.

What I can say at this point, is this is the only way I will be administering the nicotine. The obvious pitfall is you have to move your arms during trance, and this can break the trance for some, or in cases where you're instructed to be still and not move it can make it especially difficult. I'm currently playing around with ideas to make something of a mask that holds the vape at mouth level, and would allow for hands-free access to take a hit while under trance. Beyond that, a rig that could periodically administer the vapor through a gas mask or sorts would also be perfect, but this is something that's a bit beyond my technical ability to construct.

To answer the next obvious question: is it working? Yes. You better believe it. I had previously abstained from nicotine for about a full year before going into this, for some context.

The pleasure from GG commands is heightened under the influence of nicotine. The calming relaxation and my ability to drop deeper is also heightened. This is somewhat paradoxical to its nature as a stimulant, and I wonder if other people would react the same way, or if their minds would wander too much. I only have my own experience to recount, and this is how I experience it.

The association in my brain is aeady building. It can take up to 2-3 weeks to build a habit or an addiction, and I'm not quite there yet, but I can aeady feel myself craving to listen to the files more and more.

One can imagine, several months or even years of this practice would create lifelong associations of nicotine with BS hypnosis. The same way, people who drink coffee with their morning cigarette find just the act of drinking a coffee to trigger cravings to smoke. Any ex-smoker will tell you, the cravings for nicotine never really go away, they only fade in intensity. Imagine being totally, physically addicted to the files, like, forever. Any time you vape, smoke, or perhaps even see or smell the smoke and vapor from someone else, it might trigger those feelings to go blissfully deep into trance. 

In case I haven't stressed this point enough, allow me to beat a dead horse: it's a bad idea, Bambi. Only the most warped and lifestyle-dedicated listeners should even consider doing this. But to paraphrase the words of Ross Ulbricht, former owner of the Silk Road: I'm not your daddy, and adults should be free to be the masters of their own minds and bodies. Use discretion.

If there is sufficient interest in future updates, I will make another post in a couple of weeks.

I hope you all found this educational and entertaining. 😉

EDIT: I said nothing of the frequency of my sessions, so let me clarify that. At the start I was doing at least two sessions a day, multiple hours each. Though I did not keep good track of exactly how long, it was several hours a day. There was a short period a few days ago where I stopped for some health reasons, but some subtle cravings were still in the background of my mind. I have since continued daily sessions.