16 May 2022, 06:08
Just a more side thread on how ADHD meds impact your thought process. Some background is on the hypnosis thread but in summary my family seems to have undiagnosed adhd problems which manifest in every single one taking careers in engineering among other oddities. Got treated more for the inability to do things and garbage memory as well as low energy. Background over in to the effects of the meds, non stimulant meds btw.
Now I originally hoped that it would have impact on my ability to use hypnosis or bondage but it seems that while it is amazing it ain't magic. It has greatly improved my memory ability to do things and energy at the cost of draining a lot of emotional energy, Basically you stop feeling and start doing which is good in most cases. Sadly the non stimulant nature means it doesn't go away and persists for the whole day, a small price for easy to get meds and no crash but it means that my sex drive has been greatly reduced. Normally this is great as you aren't randomly horny but trying to get an erection is now really difficult, I can watch all the porn I like without getting an erection.
The effects become significantly more noticeable when you take two in one sitting rather then spread out over the day. I managed to get a colossal amount of work done in a day with perfect focus and without becoming tired but I would start shaking if not doing anything and had no thoughts of food or sex at all.
On the more philosophical side of things this is fairly troubling for me. On one hand the meds were supposed to bring me to a more functional human baseline and while they have succeeded at that it raises odd questions about how we think and how ADHD makes your though processes different as well. I cannot tell for example if my reduced mood is normal or abnormal, I don't suppose normal people get ravenously hungry an hour before lunch and dinner or feel the intense craving for snacks yet normal people also feel the need to eat. That was one of the more easy to compare feelings yet what about happiness or excitement? Do normal people see the world duller then people with adhd do? Sure I gained a newfound appreciation for the mundane and small moments in life but what happened to those grandiose highs and the nerve wracking excitement?
Sorry if this seems a bit incoherent, this was written very late at night.
Addon 1: also the time management section of my brain has finally kicked on, the only downside is that it views spending time getting into an out of bondage as a huge waste of time. When combined with my general decrease in sex drive means that the emotional math just isn't in bondages favor anymore.
Now I originally hoped that it would have impact on my ability to use hypnosis or bondage but it seems that while it is amazing it ain't magic. It has greatly improved my memory ability to do things and energy at the cost of draining a lot of emotional energy, Basically you stop feeling and start doing which is good in most cases. Sadly the non stimulant nature means it doesn't go away and persists for the whole day, a small price for easy to get meds and no crash but it means that my sex drive has been greatly reduced. Normally this is great as you aren't randomly horny but trying to get an erection is now really difficult, I can watch all the porn I like without getting an erection.
The effects become significantly more noticeable when you take two in one sitting rather then spread out over the day. I managed to get a colossal amount of work done in a day with perfect focus and without becoming tired but I would start shaking if not doing anything and had no thoughts of food or sex at all.
On the more philosophical side of things this is fairly troubling for me. On one hand the meds were supposed to bring me to a more functional human baseline and while they have succeeded at that it raises odd questions about how we think and how ADHD makes your though processes different as well. I cannot tell for example if my reduced mood is normal or abnormal, I don't suppose normal people get ravenously hungry an hour before lunch and dinner or feel the intense craving for snacks yet normal people also feel the need to eat. That was one of the more easy to compare feelings yet what about happiness or excitement? Do normal people see the world duller then people with adhd do? Sure I gained a newfound appreciation for the mundane and small moments in life but what happened to those grandiose highs and the nerve wracking excitement?
Sorry if this seems a bit incoherent, this was written very late at night.
Addon 1: also the time management section of my brain has finally kicked on, the only downside is that it views spending time getting into an out of bondage as a huge waste of time. When combined with my general decrease in sex drive means that the emotional math just isn't in bondages favor anymore.