(13 Jul 2021, 07:47 )madjack Wrote: Would like to know a few more details about your set-up (any 'toy's involved, what was the gag like, etc)
Just a regular butt plug (but I also have an inflatable, vibrating one that I will include in upcoming sessions) and the hood. And my second,
smaller set of fake titties (although I could have used my sunday best silicone tits for this one since it lacked a chest harness).
I usually only go for ballgags, preferably with a head harness, sometimes with an added mouth panel. Cleave gags just don't do it for me. But the inflatable butterfly gag is an exception, the tightness and the way it just fills the mouth is so very appealing. Since it tends to just slip out when fully inflated, I require a way to hold it firmly in place. The
deprivation hood (Type 1, which was recommended here) is a perfect fit for this. The hood is crafted very well for its price, honestly wasn't expecting that level of quality. I even got two of them, so I have both the 5cm and 10 cm penis gag panel. The 10 cm one just ever so slightly triggers my gag reflex, so it's great for training. I also have
this one, which fits the hood nicely, but it's currently too much and immediately makes me gag as soon as I start to inflate it. I will work my way up to it
I might go for a third hood, because I kinda want a screaming pink one now.
But when using the inflatable butterfly gag I need to keep being in full control, since overinflating it while it's kept firmly in place can lead to some serious breathing restrictions and/or gag reflex triggers, so it's out for stringent scenarios that require struggling or more elaborate ways to free myself.
Therefore the tie in the video is very tame - the set of cuffs is just connected by a double snap hook. I usually opt for very easy escapes without relying on any mechanical/timed release methods, but I'm also planning on upping my game in that area to add more forced control and duration. I just need time to figure out safe and reliable releases. Field testing is underway. Don't look into my freezer.
(13 Jul 2021, 07:47 )madjack Wrote: Cock sucking is a comparatively recent fantasy for me and one I've took no further that a penis gag (which came with the hood - did you get one with yours?). I should stress that it's the 'cock' element not 'a man with a cock' that I fantasise about, and not just in my mouth..
Yeah, that's the thing - after some soulsearching and exploring my desires, I don't "feel" gay (or, more precisely, bisexual) in the sense that I want to be involved with a man romantically or sexually other than craving - or fantasizing about - the feeling of having a juicy cock in my mouth and shoved down my throat. Gay porn doesn't do anything for me. M2F transgender though is a different story. I did my research 😁
Sure, dildos work for mimicking the sensation and help train to suppress the gag reflex.
There are these double layered ones that are softer and more slippery when properly drooled on, but I just can't help imagining the real thing would just feel
so. much. better.
Also yeah, dildos can't properly come in your mouth, down your throat and all over your face (I'm aware of and I own a squirting dildo, but it's ... meh).
I guess for me the submissive nature of the act of enthusiastically sucking cock is the fantasy.
Some might argue "yeah, you're a closeted bisexual, get over yourself" and I wouldn't have a problem with that and would happily admit it to myself once I ventured down that path and enjoyed it.
I also might not like it at all.
As of now, I really can't tell.
(13 Jul 2021, 07:47 )madjack Wrote: I wish I has Guisi's flexibility and bravery - that guy really pushes a bit too close to the edge on occasions, great images but I fear for his safety.
He uses a lot of elastic cord for his arms, hands and around the chest, so it looks a lot tighter and more inescapable than it actually is, but it's impressive and oh so stimulating to watch nonetheless.
Life's too short to pretend you're not into some kinky shit.