(19 Nov 2022, 13:52 )Maximiliaan_75 Wrote: I have been using Samantha Sez files for about a year now. In the beginning the effects were mild, or at least they seemed mild. However, recently, the effects have snowballed and I'm continuously haunted by extremely strong urges to suck cock, dress up, and even transitioning from male to female. It starts as soon as I wake up in the morning. After I orgasm the urges go away for a bit it only comes back stronger. I remember reading the following passage on a forum somewhere before I ever listened to Samantha Sez files: "The suggestions in files like Samantha's and others are not instant. They get deeper and deeper into your mind over time and you will not even realize when your mind will start getting triggered by those suggestions being deep deep in your subconscious mind. Then you will not understand what is happening to you with new thoughts, new urges and fantasies. That will be just the beginning." Well, believe me if I say it actually does work that way. Now that's it actually happening, I feel quite scared. However, I kind of made up my mind aready and decided that I will keep diving into the rabbit hole and see where it takes me. I have nothing to lose at this point in my life.
when I first started a couple of years ago, an online friend had introduced me to a SB file. At first I was like ??? but then I found myself responding more and more until I finally started interacting with her on email when she still did that, which she may not do anymore. She was really friendly, she would coax me into trying new and different hypnosis files and things to do. Pretty soon I was so deep into so many sissy fem things it was disconcerting, I thought about trying to stop the hypnosis, but like you say I would lapse one time, go under and then the feelings got even stronger and before I knew it, I was back to listening every night, sometimes multiple sessions a day. I am still not sure what that means!
(19 Nov 2022, 23:11 )hypno.orgasmatronic Wrote: I was back to listening every night, sometimes multiple sessions a day. I am still not sure what that means!
(19 Nov 2022, 23:11 )hypno.orgasmatronic Wrote: Pretty soon I was so deep into so many sissy fem things it was disconcerting, I thought about trying to stop the hypnosis, but like you say I would lapse one time, go under and then the feelings got even stronger and before I knew it, I was back to listening every night, sometimes multiple sessions a day.
I'm also in a similar experience! I don't even purge and relapse anymore. It's too fun to stop, and the addiction has definitely set in. Do you also have a desire for more changes too? That's something that I've noticed keeps creeping up in the back of my mind...
26 Nov 2022, 13:50 (This post was last modified: 27 Nov 2022, 11:15 by Like Ra.)
Dress up 2. She pushed me down a mental trip I did not ever desire and made me feel trapped in another’s body and able to feel everything around me as the weaker person. Glad you can not find it anywhere anymore. I heard the file a few years ago and know if I saw it again I would end up back down that rabbit hole.
27 Nov 2022, 08:25 (This post was last modified: 27 Nov 2022, 11:17 by Like Ra.)
I was listening to some Samantha files yesterday and several of them (i.e. Highheel brainwash 2) contain the sentence: "do you like to eat chocolate?" and "do you like roses" and/or "do you like the smell of roses?" Samantha likes to use symbology/metaphors, so it should be clear to you what this is referring to. Very cunning. I can't say I have developed a taste for eating faeces. Sniffing and licking buttholes however, that's a different thing... 😊
After a long weekend of trancing for hours everyday, here's what I've been noticing:
• any attempts to listen to other tists are futile. I can't even get into trance with Bambi.
• I've started having more frequent femme/sissy dreams. They mostly seem to center around wearing girl clothes all the time (wearing panties underneath my work clothes, dressing up fully when at home). I've had at least 2 dreams about being in a relationship with a dominant woman.
• I feel "different" when wearing my normal male clothing. I don't really notice the sensation until I change into feminine clothing...and I get this wash of pleasure the entire time I'm dressing up.
• I crave trance. The idea to listen to files pops up a lot throughout my day. I've considered listening to Pink Thoughts while doing desk work to enhance my trance experience at night.
• I constantly check SBs sites for new content. This is definitely addiction setting in and it's hard to stop myself from doing so.
• Trance has been unbelievable lately. I feel very blank during trance...almost like I'm floating there in limbo. I feel very accepting during it as well, and have no problems with any suggestions (that I can recall). Before I know it, it's the end of the file. If I decide to get up to go to the bathroom/grab a drink of water, I find that I don't remember which file I just listened to.
I feel extremely happy about the changes too. I used to be scared, but, at this point, I welcome them and am curious to see how deep I can go.
