(17 May 2022, 02:48 )Like Ra Wrote: Very interesting observations!
I've heard from various sources, that ADHD medicine is very effective for, for example, preparations for exams. Regardless of the ADHD presence. And what you describe sounds very positive to me, yet something within you is looking for dopamines.
The question is: What is more addicting - ADHD drugs or fetishes?
Give or take 5-6 months have passed since you asked this question and I answered. I can say with definitive proof that ADHD meds are more addicting and by an extremely wide margin since they crush most emotions except contentment and annoyance/disappointment. I only do some self bondage around once per week these days if I feel like it. I haven't spent another dollar on anything fetish in months.
It seems bizzare to say but I feel a lot "colder" in a way to sexual things, for example imagine if a person walked by wearing your favorite look, like pantyhose, some high heel boots and a short skirt and it looks stunning but you just think "cool, gotta get me some of those one day" with the same feeling as if you saw a neat looking car on the street or a nifty gadget online. Gone is the feeling of horniness or the random boners, now it just seems like something to get done when you get around to it.
You might raise counterpoints that not all fetish is strictly and purely about sex but the lightning fast adaptation by meds has crushed most others too. Even on something like the breathplay swimcap the first week or so felt intensely domineering and uncomfortable as my lungs would feel sour, a week later and I can now remain perfectly calm and level headed even while choking, breathing deeply or not breathing at all. Now all I feel is my heart beating faster and louder when I am running out, the only discomfort comes from "forgetting" that I can't breathe and attempting to pull in more air, my lungs feel uncomfortable because the muscles pull on the lungs but the lungs cannot expand due to lack of air. I haven't tried pushing it to the extreme mostly because there isn't any point, I can feel my thoughts become fuzzy and falling apart as I slowly pass out. There isn't amy great emotional high due to lack of air or great anguish of being choked, just unconsciousness probably followed by death.
The real destroyer of bdsm however was the adhd medication utterly crushing pain and discomfort, I had a nasty case of food poisoning that occurred during a competition with me puking and having diarrhea at the same time and I managed to finish the competition. I was more annoyed with the rife cheating at the competition than I was at being sick and it absolutely was not fun or enjoyable but getting that sick should have been far more uncomfortable then it was. After my dosage got upped for other reasons I barely feel it at all. I can grab my nipples, yank on them hard, add clotheslines or whatever but it just doesn't feel uncomfortable anymore.
Even applies to emotions too, most feel like experiencing them from beyond a wall of ice, distant and muted. I have heard of people complaining that Strattera makes them feel like a zombie or a machine but it suits me just fine. So no, you can't even really emotionally dominate me either.
On the other hand thanks to the meds I lost weight, hit the gym and gained muscle. I won more district awards and leadership positions. I can't reveal any more specific as it would become too obvious who I am but I would quit anything else before I quit adhd meds.
