(01 Jan 2022, 05:33 )Like Ra Wrote: You decide what role hypnosis played here. Did it help to change the reality?

From WMM:

shotane Wrote:Background
I'm a chubby, autistic guy aged 34 from the Netherlands. In almost all facets of life, I have been a bit of a failure. I currently have a temporary, low paying job and no social life. In my youth I have always considered myself a heterosexual male with no real interest in homosexuality or being feminine. In the last few years I have increasingly watched shemale pornography and late 2019 I started watching some video's with a sissification theme. This led me to buying pueraria mirifica and reishi with the excuse to myself that I was going to take low doses, and it might do some good for my hair and skin. In the first few weeks of this year, I started getting slightly deeper into the whole feminization stuff. I played quite a few games on TFGames. Site and I started reading threads on the subject on Reddit. Last weekend I discovered this site and the whole idea of altering yourself by hypnosis. I have always been very skeptical towards hypnosis and assumed that many reports in the forum and journals must be roleplay. It did fascinate me, though, and I started listening this week.

At this point, I would say I'm bisexual with a preference for women. Even though I did take PM for a while (with no significant effect), I very much identify as a man and can't really imagine myself as a woman. I have started listening to these files out of curiosity and a need for something to distract me from my boring life.

Bambi Sleep
I got to this site, because I read something on Reddit about how impactful Bambi Sleep was, and it made me curious towards these files. I listened to 1,2,3 and 10 of the original files on Monday (20-01-2020). Although the audio was relaxing, I stayed conscious and didn't feel like there was anything special going on.

On Tuesday (21-01-2020) I listened to 1,2,3,4,5 and 10, and again it seemed like there was nothing going on. I stayed conscious and didn't feel like I was in a 'trance' or anything like that. Afterwards, I felt like I was a bit hazy, but still in complete control of myself. For some reason, I got curious about whether it was possible to buy hormones on the internet and started looking around on the web. When my haziness retreated about an hour later, I realised I had bought both estrogen and Spironolactone. I was not able to cancel this order. I was really worried after this, because there was not really a point where I did not feel present, but at the same time this was a very stupid and reckless thing to do. I decided that it would be better to not listen again and that I should throw away the hormones as soon as it arrives.

Yesterday (23-01-2020) I decided to listen to 1,6,7,8,9 and 10, because I wanted to hear the files that I hadn't heard yet. This time felt really different. I fell into a deep sleep or trance very early into track 1. This is really strange for me, because I usually have a lot of difficulty falling asleep or even relaxing/letting go of thoughts. I 'woke' up during 9 and experienced an intense climax. This was unlike anything I have ever felt before. After the end of the session, I seemed to be completely myself.
I think I will try again this evening. Yesterday's experience was great, and I would not mind a repetition.

Curse Female Takeover
In the last week, I have read a lot of interesting journals and forum-threads, but those about Curse Female Takeover fascinated me the most. I was too curious to not give it a listen. Last night I listened to it for the first time and was slightly disappointed. It seems less sophisticated than Bambi Sleep and I find it difficult to imagine how this could have a big effect. I gave it a second go this afternoon, but it didn't do anything for me. Maybe I should use another file to make me more receptive before listening to the file itself?

Continue?
This site and these files are a pretty, new world for me, and I want to experiment. I'm pretty certain I will continue listening to Bambi, but I'm not sure about CFT. The supposed 'danger' is somewhat exciting to me, but for now it is a bit boring. Any advice on relaxing, getting into a trance and being more receptive to suggestions would be appreciated.

UPDATE - October 18th 2021
Well...more than 1.5 years later, and I now consider myself a transwoman. I have been on hormones for the last half year and have transformed a lot, but not nearly as much as I would like to. I still boymode outside (although my breasts are outing me), but I'm sure I will socially transition to female within another half year. Danique (or Dani) is my name and I feel a huge distance to the depressed, fearful, derealized, selfhating 'man' I seemed to be a few years ago. When I used to consider myself a pansexual non-binary (with a preference for woman), I can now only view myself as a heterosexual woman.

How much of this is caused by hypnosis files? It is probably very exciting to think that 'Rudolf' was another victim of CFT and a new person/tulpa took over. However, I don't feel this to be the case. My interest in these files was partly caused by existing doubts on my gender (despite my strong denial in the opening post) and I didn't continue long with the files. I discovered at the end of last year that I felt a whole lot better and more 'real' when taking estrogen. At first, I didn't dare taking it for a longer period, but after falling in a deep, suicidal depression at the beginning of this year, I decided I would start again and continue using until there were transformations I was uncomfortable with. This last half year (since starting in April 2021) has been the best time of my life. I never knew life could actually be so fun and pleasant. I never expected to be this happy. When my breasts came, I was filled with euphoria and I knew that this was not some sick fetish. This wasn't about sex, I'm really a woman. At no point was there a real break between personalities, and the biggest change in my personality came only after starting HRT, more than a year after listening to these files.

Even if 'Rudolf' was a separate (and the original) personality and I took his place, I really don't feel guilty. He was done with life and never really enjoyed it. There was no future or prospects before starting the transition, and now there is. Even though it is going very slowly, I'm hopeful and excited about what is still to come.

(08 Jun 2024, 16:56 )yourscrumptiousdreamofacookie Wrote: You decide what role hypnosis played here. Did it help to change the reality?

(08 Jun 2024, 18:16 )jadefortyfour Wrote:

(08 Jun 2024, 16:56 )yourscrumptiousdreamofacookie Wrote: You decide what role hypnosis played here. Did it help to change the reality?

This could be our story as well - word for word in some places.  The point here is subjective quality of life imo.  The "did hypnotism affect these changes" are kind of pointless as the answer is obviously 'yes', so the next question becomes "is my quality of life improved"? If we judge hypnotism to be a positive tool in stopping smoking for health reasons them we must consider the benefit of recognizing buried parts of our consciousness we have been socially conditioned to deny or suppress. 

We would always counsel those with a dysphoric relationships to discuss their challenges with a professional before making life altering decisions but, let's face it, some people won't go this route based on cost, shame or the stigma of "being weak".

Please do note that the downside of bringing these feminine aspects of personality forward are primarily societal implications in the "what will others judge or condemn" sphere of concerns and not whether the person is living a more integrated and fulfilling and meaningful existence.

(16 Jun 2024, 01:35 )yourscrumptiousdreamofacookie Wrote: I don't know where you quoted me from because I never wrote that anywhere😅.

(08 Jul 2024, 09:10 )endy Wrote: Hopefully this is relevant to the thread. I'm hopefully going to move out from my parents soon once I land a job, and I'm just compiling a list of things I'm going to start doing to become more like a sissy. My thought process is that I think I would enjoy a sissy lifestyle (I say I think because although I have had this fetish for years, I haven't fully delved into it because of external factors like my family) and that I might as well go in the deep-end since I'm only 21 and I don't mind fucking up my early 20's if it ends up not being what I want or I for some reason fall out of this fetish. The question is, are there certain files or creators I should commit to listening long-term to achieve my goals? Like, which would be the most effective? I've dabbled amongst a lot of files for years but I haven't committed to any for a long period of time. I'm also wondering this because if I'm aeady this committed to going for this lifestyle, would listening to any files be beneficial or just a waste of time? Of course, people listen to these files just to enjoy the trance and the temporary effects afterwards but I feel like I'll value my time more once I get a proper job. I'm definitely just rambling at this point about the thoughts that have been building for the past couple weeks; I'd appreciate any recommendations or thoughts

(09 Jul 2024, 14:38 )brandynette Wrote: ive seen sissy hypnos on the darkweb

(10 Jul 2024, 00:32 )Oldself Wrote:

(09 Jul 2024, 14:38 )brandynette Wrote: ive seen sissy hypnos on the darkweb

Is this really a thing? i'm very curious about this, sure it might content some disturbing and disgusting stuff, but i'm more interested in the so called "dangerous files".