"Transition for me" by Mistress Clarissa Hello Sissy, this is Mistress Clarissa. Many of you will already know how good it feels to listen to my soft voice and sink into deep relaxation and trance. Others may be new, it doesn't matter, for as soon you will all be very deeply relaxed. Enjoy laying back and listening as your pleasure increases. You will become more receptive to my voice, and more open to my will. It happens very easily because you are naturally submissive. You long to be passive. It's such a relief when I take the burden of independent thought and action away from you. You like to feel yourself become so relaxed and so weak as you listen and sink into trance and you love feelings so seduced, so overwhelmed and so controlled when a beautiful woman, a powerful hypnotist, a dominatrix who can control your body and mind takes control of you. And you are going to want to go so deep for me, you are going to want to open to me and become so receptive to my messages because the thought of giving yourself to me, of transforming for me, of being totally feminised and irreversibly transitioning for me. The thought of existing for me excites you so much. It makes you feel so aroused to imagine being so completely owned, but it also scares you. But it's okay because I can help you my flower. So if you are somewhere safe, somewhere quiet where you won't be disturbed, we can begin. Make yourself comfortable, sweetie. All you have to do is listen to my voice. It's so simple. It's so easy. It happens naturally. You listen to my soft voice. Do you relax? You relax more and more with every word I say. Every sentence I say, you feel more relaxed as you listen and become accustomed to allowing my voice to lead your attention. And it's easy to feel safe. And to let go, you feel safe to open to me because you are safe. You're safe to relax and safe to sink into trance. You want to trance and to take my words deep inside your mind. You know the sensation so well. You recognise it so well. That sensation is starting to slide into trance. Everything softens. Your body softens and your mind relaxes. And it's even easier to listen to my voice. It's easier to listen and to sink into the pleasure it gives you. It feels so good to let go. It feels so good to relax. You recognise that feeling of becoming drifty and floaty as your mind goes on a journey with me. Following my voice, I leave to relax to everybody behind. It's such a relief to sink into trance. It feels so good to have this time to just be here with me now in the moment. Not thinking, not worrying, just experiencing pleasure as you sink down into such a lovely warm trance. As you sink down the pleasure increases and you feel so sleepy, so very sleepy, drifty, dreamy and floaty. It's so easy to follow my voice, to go all the way down, so deep into trance. And it's easy because you want to go deeper. You want to go all the way down because it feels so good. It feels so good to sink into trance. To sink into such a warm, drifty, floaty state is such a relief to become so passive. To just lie back and listen and feel so relaxed and so content. As you focus on my voice, it's easier to sink down deeper into trance. You feel so warm and cozy and content. This just my voice is my word to place your thoughts. As my voice fills your mind. It feels so good to let go. It feels so good to become so blank. So open as you drift deeper. It's so good to close your eyes, to close them and feel yourself wanting to sink deeper now. Your body is so heavy now. It's such a delicious way. It feels so heavy as if you couldn't move, even if you wanted to. But you don't want to. You want to sink deeper into this lovely feeling of drifting away. Whilst this thing to me, you want to come closer to me. You want to be close to me and feel my words, resonating deeper inside your mind. You're so relaxed already. It's so easy now to follow my voice all the way down, all the way down into such a deep trance. And you want to go deeper. Because you want to feel my voice, you want to feel my control deep inside your mind. I'm going to count you down from 5 to 0, 5 being a mild trance and 0 being a lovely warm relaxing deep trance. 5. It feels so good to lay there and listen to myself voice. It gives you so much pleasure. You're so relaxed and wanting to go deeper now, wanting to sink deeper into trance, deeper into pleasure. 4. You're so relaxed, so content, so sleepy. It feels so good to allow yourself to drift away. As you follow my voice, you can feel your mind following my voice down into trance. You're so drifty and open, so receptive to my words. 3. Sinking deeper now, sinking down into trance, feeling the warmth wash over you. That lovely sensation that you drop down, drop into deep trance, 2. Sinking down and feeling my voice travel through your mind, from your consciousness to your deep mind, and feeling my words resonate deeper inside your mind. 1. So open to me now, and so happy, as you sink deeper into a lovely warm trance. It feels so good as you sink all the way down, all the way down to 0. You're at 0. It's such a lovely, deep, warm, central trance. You're just still sinking deeper, sinking deeper into trance as you follow my voice, sinking deeper with every word I say. You're so open to me now, so open and receptive. You can feel my words deep inside your mind. It feels so good as my words reach out, as if they're caressing your mind. The pleasure you feel as you listen, radiates from your mind into your body. I want you to be relaxed, I want you to be open to me, I want you to be receptive to me, I want you to feel pleasure, and I want you to want my control. It's so easy to want my control, because being in trance feels so good, submitting to me, trancing for me feels so good. It's so lovely to have you here with me, it's lovely to have you laying there so passive, so open and so submissive for me. We both know there is a reason why you chose to listen to this file. We both know it excites you. It arouses you to think about making the ultimate sissy sacrifice. It's the ultimate sacrifice and the ultimate submissive high in some ways, the ultimate submission to your mistress, surrendering your masculinity forever, irrevocably. Such an intensely submissive desire, the desire to give your masculinity, your manhood, your sex, your cock, to me like a kill, like a bloody sacrifice laid upon my altar. I find it an exciting proposition too. I like the permanence I've played with so many little bits of sissy fluff and beater boys who are all messed up about their tiny cocks and their inability to measure up as a man. They all want to be my emasculated or feminised toy. They want me to make the pressure to be a man go away. They all want to be submissive starts. They want to be the object of my ferocious desire to dominate and to control. They love feeling so weak, so objectified, so owned, so emasculated by me, so overwhelmed and overpowered. But by a large they bore me with their self obsession and with their inability to give to me. As an experienced dominatrix, roleplay bores me, being the learning curve for wannabe subs and sissies who are scared of their own shadows and who think wearing panties is humiliation and painting their toenails as taking a risk bores me. They lack discipline and focus. They lack experience and commitment. I like real power exchange. I crave it. I need it. I'm attracted to commitment and a real desire for power exchange. I've played with a lot of sissies and sluts. I always remember those that go further for me than they thought they could. I remember seeing their arousal at the realisation they had arrived at real submission. And that thought excites you too, doesn't it, my sweet? The thought of taking it further, making a real commitment for someone who would notice, someone who would care, someone who would gain dominant pleasure from it excites you. You want to be significant. You want to be special to that person. What I'm describing is so much deeper than putting on a collar, signing a contract, wearing some slutty lingerie, heels and makeup and sucking cocks for my entertainment. This is so much more profound than being locked in chastity for months and being driven crazy with ever deepening submissive arousal. You've done it all before, just as I have. And we both want to go further. You understand what I'm saying. You're attracted to the idea, to the weight of the action, to the permanence, to the inescapable consequences. Otherwise, you won't be here now listening. It's such a powerfully erotic idea. It isn't hit my sweet transforming in such a powerful way for me, transitioning for me, not because you want to, not because you're trans. You want to do whatever you can to transition to feminise your body, your voice, your movements, to change your identity. But because it gives me pleasure to see you transformed, not only emasculated, but truly feminised. It would be so intense to mourn for me. To become my daughter play with, there would be no taking off the makeup and the heels and the dress and going home to wifey, going back to your job, your male friends like nothing happened. There would be no promising me the earth, promising me undying submission and devotion, worship and service, only to flake out and disappear. There would be nowhere to go, no more purging and binging, no more hiding in the closet and trying to have the best of both worlds. This is more powerful than outing yourself, or asking me to out you to tweet your photos and name and where you live and work. This is more intense even than being blackmailed by me, to keep your dirty little sissy secrets, to keep all your nasty sordid secrets. This is the ultimate sacrifice, the ultimate act of submission. You would need me so much. You would exist for me. You would need my pleasure, your transformation, my arousal at the intense power exchange, my arousal that you're giving yourself to me completely, to get through it. You would literally exist to please me. You would be mine. It excites you so much, the idea of going all the way, becoming my toy, my plaything, my transform slot. Just imagine all the things you'd have to do, all the processes you'd have to undergo, and all the submissive pleasure it would bring you. Just imagine being lasered everywhere, to remove all that masculine body hair, and becoming so smooth for me. Imagine saying goodbye to your cock and balls, having them chopped off and disposed of like so much offending carry-on. Imagine getting breast implants, asking me if you should go bigger or smaller, what kind of tips you should have, big around or smaller and pertur. You might need to have surgery on your Adam's apple, surgery on your features to make them finer, more delicate. You'd need your eyebrows shaped and tinted, you'd need nail extensions, hair extensions, eyelash extensions. You could get your lashes tinted and curled to give you big pretty open eyes. You'd feel yourself become softer, rounder, more feminine, you'd feel more submissive than ever before, learning to walk and talk like a girl all the time, needing a whole new wardrobe, a new name, a new identity, having no idea how to be or how to act sometimes, needing me to construct you, train you, teach you, guide you and shape you. You'd want me to show you how to be such a good girl, how to please me, and of course how to please men. After all, after you transition, you'll have no choice but to suck and be fucked, and having no choice is not the same as having a choice. It's not the same as having a cock to use if you choose to. You may well have sucked cock and been fucked before, you may well be a well-used slut, a submissive slut who accepted her place long ago, who accepted her role as an obliging passive bottom, pleasing whichever man wants her. But it's not the same, in some ways this saw that's left for you, the final frontier, the final sacrifice, or that's left for you to do. This is the last day to a journey you've been on for a long time, a journey that began long ago, the first time you slipped your girlfriend's panties on in secret, or slipped your feet into your big sister's heels, or when you hid in the closet and enjoyed feeling your mum's silky petticoat against your skin. There will have been many secret moments and revelations over time that added up to bring you to this point, where the next logical step is to transition, to say goodbye to your cock and balls, to accept that they are useless to you. I want to own you and control you, and you want it too. You want to transform for me. You want to give yourself to me, in a way you can never give yourself to anyone again. You want to serve and please me. You want to obey me. You want to feel my domination all around you, like a beautiful cage that you love to live in. You want to be my beautiful exotic pet, my caged bird. You want your existence to be about your submission, your desire for intense power exchange, and I can understand and appreciate that intense desire. I'm hungry for that intensity to my flower. It's understandable that worries, concerns and anxieties about the consequences of transitioning may hold you back at first, worries about friends and family, and whether they will understand or accept you, concerns about worker normal, concerns about relationships are normal. But you don't want to be normal. You want to be special, and special people don't let other people limit them, or stop them from doing what will make them happy, or what they need to do. People who are brave, and take action to pursue what they want and need, rather than settle for what they have, are rewarded in this life. I know it's hard sometimes for someone submissive, to have this kind of resolve, this kind of certainty, clarity and focus, which is why it's easier, if I tell you to do this. It's easier if I tell you to do what you know will make you happy. You keep returning to it over and over again in your mind. You've thought about it for years, but you've not moved forwards. And I can help you now. I can help you today, to move beyond your barriers. And it will be so easy. All you have to do is listen, and open your mind, and take my words deep into your subconscious, where they will take root like little seeds. Instead of thinking about the problems, the issues, I want you to focus on the pleasure. The pleasure transition will bring you, the arousal peace, and the happiness that becoming feminised, and transitioning will give you. It's just a set of conversations, a set of jobs to be done. I want you to focus on how aroused you will feel the other side. I want you to focus on feeling the pleasure. You will be doing what you want to do, what you've always wanted to do, and even better. You're taking your submissive sissy journey to its ultimate conclusion. You're going all the way. You're reaching for a new high, a new level of submission, by sacrificing your manhood forever, and transitioning. You will be freed. It's exciting and arousing. It gives you butterflies in your tummy to think about it. The more you listen to these positive feelings, the more your pleasure will come to replace any doubt and uncertainty. Imagine your skin so soft and smooth, your body becoming softer and rounder, instead of being muscular and lean. Having beautiful breaths that move and sway, gently against your clothes, that everyone notices. Having nice clothes, in soft feminine materials that make you feel sensual, wearing perfume and cosmetics, being gentle and kind and loving, and being valued for it. You would love being such a girly girl, sweetie. So I'm going to help you get some clarity in a very simple way. I'm going to help you accept that this is what you want in a very easy way. Everyone has stress in their body and mind, and we can actively lessen that stress, which enables the person to relax and feel calm, and therefore more able to make positive changes. It may be possible for them to feel empowered in their decision making. Everyone has what hypnotherapist call a stress bucket, and we can learn to empty that bucket so that you can start each day in a neutral place, feeling calm and rational, as opposed to feeling stressed and overwhelmed and emotional. Transactively contributes to relaxing you and therefore emptying your stress bucket. And so relaxation is essential to maintaining a positive attitude and to your well-being. Every time you trance, you feel they're stressed, are more relaxed, and so you're changing your biochemistry and your psychology. So even without this technique we're about to use, you're already benefiting from being in trance. You can easily visualize yourself holding a bucket of water, tipping it away. You can see that bucket in your hands. You can feel its weight and you can feel how full it is. It might be full to the brim, or three quarters full, or less. The water level represents how much stress you have in your body and mind. It doesn't matter how much stress there is. You can decide not to carry that bucket around with you. You can choose to empty the water out and empty your stress out so that you can focus on what you want to achieve. So you can experience each day, starting from a calm space, where you're in touch with yourself, with your rational mind, and able to take action to realize whatever goals you set for yourself. I want you to take a moment to relax again, to drop deeper for me now, drop deeper sweetie, so you're nice and open, and totally receptive before we begin. Maybe you have a nice fun memory involving a bucket. Maybe you used to play on a beach with a little bucket and shovel, building sand castles, or maybe you went crabbing, catching little crabs or shellfish, or tiddlers in the net, and looking at them in your bucket, before returning them carefully to the rock pool. Maybe you used to play with a little bucket or water at primary school. Even if you don't have a happy memory of playing with a bucket, these images are soothing and make you feel warm. Almost as if you could feel the warmth of seaside sun on your skin. It feels good, doesn't it, sweetie? And now I want you to go back to visualizing the bucket, the bucket in your hand, its color, its texture. Feel its weight in your hands, feel the water level as you bring it up to pour out the contents. Feel the weight of the water and feel its volume shifting as you move the bucket. Feel it tip as you start to pull the water away. You can pour it into a drain or onto the earth or into a pond or you can walk to where the waves gently lap at the shore and empty it into the sea. You can pour it away. As you do, you can feel your stress emptying out. You can watch the water pouring out and feel your stress levels drop. Let all your stress and anxiety and tension go. Feel it all emptying away now. And now it's gone. You can realize that so much of that tension is not your own. It's not yours at all. It belongs to other people. It's all other people's anxieties about you, their expectations, their conditions and pressures. It's other people's stuff. You exist independently of those people's needs and wants and expectations and their fears. And as you tip the water away, you feel relief and you can recognize that a weight, a burden, has been lifted from your shoulders. You can let go of all the fear, stress, anxiety, self-doubt and shame that holds you back, that keeps you in the closet or from moving forwards in this process. You can use this visualization whenever you feel anxious or just as a daily practice to stop yourself from becoming anxious. Whenever you have a few minutes, you can visualize pouring your stress away. Just knowing this will help you. Just knowing you can choose to empty away your stress and anxiety at any time will help you to feel more in control, more confident and more relaxed. And of course, every time you listen to me, you are actively helping yourself to relax and you are listening the stress in your body and mind. You are decreasing the stress that clouds your thoughts. And so now, after emptying away all that stress, or you can feel it's a pleasure and the arousal that this process of laying there listening to me, becoming more and more passive, more and more submissive and weak and sliding deeper into transprings you. Now that all the stress is gone, now all your fear is gone. You can focus on feeling so excited, so excited about the idea of transitioning from me. You can focus on your arousal instead of feeling clouded by fear. Now the fear is gone. Now the stress is gone. You can feel the pleasure you feel when you imagine yourself changed, morphed, transformed for me. You've been around the sissy block and you know that you want to go deeper. You want to go further. You want to feel a new depth of submission. You want to feel irrevocably bound to your mistress. You want to feel that you exist for her, that she's taken possession of your body and mind. You want to do it, but you don't want to be alone. You want someone to understand and know that this is something that gives you deep submissive arousal, that thinking about transitioning, changing to please me turns you on, thinking about completely surrendering your masculinity, being feminised and having no ability to hide away, to retreat back into your male identity excites you. It's the ultimate extension of your arousal that being objectified. It's the ultimate development of being made into an object of desire and of being conditioned to be used. The rouse is used so much to be utterly submissive, to be aroused by beer, calm dump, a pain slut, a sissy maid. Whatever your mistress wants you to be, you love to feel wanted, you love to feel your dawns hunger to dominate you and to take what they can from you. You like feeling my desire to control you. It finds the flames of your growing need to go further, to do more, to submit completely. You get excited about the notion of serving yourself up to me, like a rare dish, serving your manhood up on a plate. It excites you so much to think of me, wanting to take your cock and balls like hunting trophies, wanting to devour your submission, wanting to take your masculinity and take possession of you as my sweet slave girl. And now all there is is the arousal you feel, the deep submissive desire to be such a good girl for me, to be my special girl, to belong to me, to exist for me. You can feel it like a delightful warmth radiating from your mind throughout your body. You can feel the pleasure building, the pure submissive desire filling your body. You are so naturally submissive, so naturally soft and sweet. It's so easy for you to surrender. It feels so good. It feels so good to feel my control, to feel my voice caressing your mind, to feel my energy all around you. You are so easily overwhelmed, entranced, mesmerized and seduced by me, by my soft melodious voice, by my powerful feminine energy, and by my dominant sexuality. You are so attracted to my desire to take you, to claim you, to make you mine. Now it's in your mind. You can't get rid of the thought. You keep returning to it over and over again. It's easy to become obsessed when you realize you've reached a new level, a new depth, arrived at a new stage of development. The thought of transitioning is so attractive to you now. It gets more attractive every time you listen. So many different processes to undergo, to be feminized, to be transformed. So many ways to submit, so many ways to surrender and becoming so pretty, so soft, so smooth, having beautiful curves. It fills you with pleasure to think about it. I want you to imagine yourself transformed. Imagine your smooth hairless skin, so caressible. Imagine your newly rounded form, your hips and buttocks, your beautiful breaths. Imagine running your hands over your form, feeling your hips swelling out of your waist, cradling your soft, slightly rounded tummy, and running your hands over your breasts, so soft and firm at once, raising from your ribcage, of feeling yeriolis, the nipples so distinct, standing up so responsive to your own touch, your pretty face, your soft full lips, your arched brows, your softly fluttering eyelashes like butterflies' wings, your hair in tousled waves or braids or tumbling curls or long and sleep like silk, long or short, but start to suit you. And between your legs, your lips open when you gently run your fingers along them, to reveal your very own clit and vagina, a new world of sensations to explore my sweet. All of the vaginas inside surface is full of nerve endings designed to feel sensation and to translate it into pleasure, of a generous designed to move, to contract, to spasm with pleasure. It is not passive, it does not only receive, it pulls and squeezes and clenches a cock or a finger or a tongue that pleases it, and your clitoris is so much more interesting than a cock, because it never gets tired, it can give you orgasm after orgasm after orgasm. A female body is designed to receive endless pleasure, let's able to peek and peek and peek again, and it's possible for the energy, the arousal to become more and more intense. Female orgasm is so much more intense than the average male orgasm. Your vagina will be new, your clitoris will be new, it will take time for you to gain sensation, to be able to feel, do what take time to learn, how to feel your pleasure building, how to feel your arousal building, it will take time to discover how you like to touch yourself, how you like to be touched, you will feel differently about your body, about yourself, you will realize that all of a female body is sensual, all of a female body is sensitive, you will realize your sexuality is experienced across your body, not in a localized way, as many men experience it, your hands, your wrists, your feet and legs, your buttocks, your tummy, your armpits, your breasts, your neck and back, your ear lobes, as well as your pussy and anus are all erogenous zones, even as I describe this, you can feel the warmth flush your skin, you can feel your so relaxed, your body is so heavy and so full of pleasure, and although you're so drowsy, your body is also so sensitized, you feel so sensual, so that as you listen, it's as if my words are caressing you, gently, softly caressing you, giving you so much pleasure, you can feel that pleasure like a lovely warm flooding sensation, you can feel it on the surface of your skin like a lovely gentle tingling, you can feel your skin, it's just wanting to be touched so much, or feel divine to be caressed, to be stroked, to feel sensual pleasure, to feel how easily your body responds, you're so deep in trance, there are no barriers, no guilt, no shame, no worries about receiving pleasure, there is just the pleasure you feel, and it's flooding you now, do you can feel that your nipples are sensitized, you can feel them wanting to be touched, you can feel them tingle and speak to you, wanting to be played with, wanting to be squeezed, the erotic energy is building in your body, you can feel it spiraling, coiling like a serpent in your groin, coiling and building its energy before release, it feels so good to be so relaxed, so sleepy, and so aroused, it feels so good to feel so passive, so submissive and so open, and you want me to take you, you want me to have my way with you, everything in you longs for me to dominate you, to control you, you've been locked away in chastity for so long, so chaste, so submissive, so soft, you're like a cactus in the desert, so thirsty and ready to shoot into life, and burst into bloom, with the slightest opportunity, just the slightest moisture, you're so full of desire, so full of deep submissive need, you carry it with you all the time, it's like a scratch that can never be itched, a thirst that can never be quenched, a quest that can never be ended, your submission is driven by never ending desire, there is no peace for you, no release, no end until you're free of your manhood, and when you are the girl, the woman you long to be, you will be freed and you will discover desire again, as an unknown continent, you will feel your sexual power growing, you will feel the power you have as a female to be seen, to be desired, you will come to understand this is because the female is the source of all things, she is creation, and her beauty radiates, her light shines out from her essence, the female is the sacred embodied, and it is every female's privilege and responsibility to carry the goddess with her, it will give you so much pleasure to be my special girl, and to be by my side is my submissive pet, my rare orchid, I will watch you blossoming, I will watch your tentative steps, and be there to guide you as you become, you will need me to tuck you under my wing and keep you close until you can stand on your own two feet, and you will grow and flourish and become strong and make me proud of you, it makes you feel so warm and so happy to think about it, such a rich mixture of feelings, centrality, arousal, warmth and contentment, you know that you want it, you know that all that holds you back as fear, old patterns, old behaviours, and you know that part of you is ready to emerge, like a butterfly from your chrysalis, part of you is ready to surrender to your desire, to your destiny, and that nothing else can give you as much pleasure as giving your manhood to me, sacrificing it, so that you can exist for me, so that you can reach the ultimate conclusion of your journey, it's been so lovely to take you deep into trance, to help you understand that the next logical step on your journey is transition, I've enjoyed knowing you're lying there so passive, so submissive listening, and taking my words deep inside your mind, so that I can help you to focus on the arousal this idea brings you, the pleasure this sacrifice will give you over your fear and anxieties that hold you back, I think you understand now that you want to move forwards, and every time you listen it will get easier and easier to visualise yourself, the other side of transition, so happy, so submissive, so owned, and you will get closer and closer, that's all your fear's lesson, and your arousal becomes so much stronger than your worries, as you listen over and over again, your feelings will change, and you will feel able to action the process, it will all fall into place once you're mentally ready, it will be so easy my sweet, all the barriers to being the sludge you've longed to be will be removed, you could be soft and sweet and submissive all the time, you will never need to pretend to be a man again, you'll become mine, you'll belong to me, all of your pleasure and arousal coming from transforming for me forever, for my pleasure, such intense submission, I love the thought of having my simple tattooed on you after you transitioned, as the final touch, but now it's time to gently wake you up, I'm going to count you from 0 to 5, 0 being a deep trance, and 5 being wide awake, and as you listen, you're going to follow my voice, gently up and out of trance, and when you wake up, you're going to feel good, refreshed, and excited about the thought of transitioning for me, 0 you're so deep down, it's such a lovely relaxing central trance, but now it's time to gently follow my voice back up, back up and out of trance, 1 some sensation is slowly returning, you can feel yourself returning to your body, 2 you feel calm, and you can follow my voice easily back to waking, 3 more sensations returning now, you can feel your body and center awareness coming back, 4 you're relaxed and refreshed, and it feels good to be in such a relaxed body, as your awareness returns to your hands and feet, to your face, 5 you can feel yourself back in your body, you can feel yourself getting ready to wake up, and wake up now sissy, wake up, welcome back, you can take a few minutes to allow yourself to get used to being back in your body, and you can continue to lay there and to listen to my voice, you've done very well, going so deep into trance and opening yourself to me, you've done some important work, to remove all the barriers to your success, you've started to replace the doubt, fear and anxiety you feel about making changes with the happiness, and arousal you feel at the thought of transitioning, you can see yourself now, for you, for you you want to be, and it helps that I'm removing the choice, you need a nudge, you need some encouragement, and I'm giving it to you, as you feel it working, as you feel pleasure and excitement, replacing fear and worries, you will want to listen more and more, as you listen over and over again, it will seem more more tangible, more and more possible for you to do this, to transition for me, until you wonder why you ever hesitated.