And now, now it's time, time for a change in who you are. Not exactly a change, more of an adjustment, more of a way of looking at yourself, of dividing up your thoughts and your life, more finding a piece of yourself, that might be a very true way of saying it. A way of finding part of yourself.
You see, somewhere deep down inside, there is another, more feminine part of you. You've always known she's there. There have always been desires to be more feminine, to do more feminine things, perhaps even to cross-dress, and involve yourself in other activities.
There has always been a more feminine you, and that part of your personality has always been there on some level, and we are going to bring that portion of your personality out. We are actually going to find her and bring her out, and to a very real degree, give her a life of her own.
Not a life that is completely separate from you, not a life in which she can take over and do whatever she pleases, but more a separate but equal life, a life in which she has her own thoughts, her own desires, her own ideas, and on a subconscious level, she can communicate them to you. The truth is, on some level, she probably has for years. On some level, this more feminine part of you has poked its head through at times, made you want to do things, made you want to behave in certain ways, made you want to do specific feminine acts or actions.
Oh yes, I suspect that she has always been there, perhaps buried away, deep in the background, not even really a personality, just simply the more feminine part of who you are.
But right now, I want you to try and find that more feminine part of yourself. All of those things that are truly feminine, all of those needs and wants and desires, that perhaps you've suppressed, or kept very, very hidden for weeks, months, years at a time, those impulses, the occasional wanting to go out and paint a nail, shave your legs, any number of extremely feminine activities that have always kind of lurked in your mind.
I want you to find them coalescing into a truly separate but equal personality, the feminine yin to your yang, a part of you that is there all of the time, a part of you that has her own wants and desires, a part of you that is even capable of taking charge, taking control, and taking over, not because she's stronger, not because she's the dominant personality, but because the two of you, on some level, decide it's time for her to be in charge, for her to be in charge for a minute, an hour, a day, however long is needed.
The two of you will share knowledge, memories, you may not share all of the same desires, after all, you can feel her getting stronger, and as she does, her desires may not always match yours, but in the end, the two of you will decide who is in charge, and in the case of greatest need, whichever one of you is most appropriate to the situation can push the other aside to take care of what needs to be done, but in the case of more simple things, if you have to, you will be able to bluff your way through a conversation that she had, and she will be able to do your job or other activities if she absolutely has to, but in general, the two of you will maintain a fairly separate, but constantly connected existence,
you see, as she grows stronger and stronger in your mind, she will have her own wants and desires.
Odds are, over time, she's going to collect her own wardrobe, the things that she wants to dress in, her own hobbies and interests, they may not match your own,
even her own likes and dislikes about food, music, even her own choice in friends may not be the same as the people you would choose, just because she is truly separate, even though the two of you share the exact same body.
She knows everything you know, and you know all of the things she knows.
There are no secrets; there are never any blackouts. If for some reason she is in charge, you will just simply find yourself fading away to the background, watching, ever present, knowing exactly what is going on, on some level, you just simply aren't the one that's in control; instead, you become the observer.
On the other hand, when you're in control, she will find herself in that position, she will be the one observing, while you go about your daily routine, doing the things that you need to do. Even when you are in control, that doesn't mean that either of you goes away, it actually means that they're there, always, watching, they may even occasionally comment, or if you're in the background, you may make comments. After all, you live together, harmoniously. That's right, this is going to be a harmonious existence.
The two of you will rely upon each other, you will connect to each other. She will understand that there are certain things that only you can do, and certain things that she'll enjoy it more if you do rather than her. On the other hand, there are certain things that she will do that you will find much easier when she's in charge. You will live in balance.
She may come out when she wills, when the time is right, and you may re-exert yourself when you need to. You may even occasionally find there's a conflict, that there's something that one of you wishes and the other one does not, but you will always find a way to work through it, to carry it out and move forward, because after all, you are together; you are not separate entities, you are one.
She is your feminine half, she is the essence of your femininity, and while that does not prevent you from being feminine when you are in charge, she will definitely be far more feminine than you are on a normal, daily basis.
She will be quite possibly very flirtatious, vivacious, outgoing.
She will live her life to the fullest.
You can imagine exactly what she looks like on the inside, even if that doesn't match what she looks like on the outside. you can still picture her. you can hear her voice in your head. it is a truly separate and unique voice, and when she speaks through your mouth, you may even discover that her voice is different then as well, that your voice goes up or changes in some distinct way to show which of you is in charge, but in the end, neither of you is in charge.
this is something you do together. This is something that truly does exist between the two of you. It is a shared life, a shared existence, a shared knowledge.
That's right, you both share the same body, and you are both able to communicate with one another at will. This does not mean you have to have a constantly ongoing internal dialogue. There may be times where either she or you seems to fade away, far off into the distant, almost as if that portion of you has slipped into the deepest of trances, just there, watching, letting things happen, not really doing or saying much.
There may be other times where the two of you are conversing together inside of your mind, making a decision, choosing exactly which activity the both of you want to do on a given evening; after all, there will be times when the two of you will be in conflict, but you will work it out, you will make a choice, and then you will move on, one of you being in charge, the other one being passive.
it may just simply be a something as an argument over which movie to go see,
it may be something more complicated, it could even be a date, it doesn't really matter.
The two of you will exist together in a truly harmonious manner.
You will find ways to work through any issues you may have.
You will talk when you need to, or be completely silent.
There will be times where only one of you needs to be in charge, and the other just sort of fades away, and there will be other times where you are conversing extensively over whatever it is, clothing, issues, plans, whatever needs done.
But you truly will be separate but equal entities living inside of one body. You can imagine that, I know you can.
You can go ahead and give this imagining a voice. start with a voice. picture what it would be like inside of your head, speaking to you, whispering to you, telling you what she would like you to do, making you do what she would like you to do, redirecting you ever so slightly, so that instead of just washing your hands, you manicure your nails, and put on a beautiful shade of nail gloss.
Or perhaps she just simply watches, and suggests. That will be up to her.
But she truly will be alive, and when she's in charge, you will feel how alive she is.
She will truly be unique. She is not a part of your personality, she is herself.
Go ahead, listen for her voice, and as you listen, you'll begin to hear it, and as you begin to hear it, you'll realize more and more exactly how real she is, because as she develops a voice, she will develop a will of her own, and as she develops a will of her own, she will find her own name, and when she's ready, she will speak that name to you, and when she speaks that name to you, she will be really and truly alive within you, and you will know her name, and you will know her voice, and you will know that she is a part of you, and that she will always be a part of you.
You will know that she is a wonderful, marvelous woman, and that she will do exactly as she chooses, but she will never do so without some regard for you.
neither one of you is completely in control. You share this body, you share this mind, you share this life, and you will continue to do so from now on.
She is waking up, as if from a sleep, and as she does, her voice will grow and get stronger until she speaks. Her voice will grow and get stronger within your mind until she chooses a name. She will find herself, find her footing, and begin to talk to you, and the more she does, the more real she will become, and the more control she will be able to influence.
She will become your equal partner in just about everything, walking through life with you, helping you find your truly feminine side, helping you enjoy it more than you ever could have alone, because from now on, you are not alone.
One half of you is alive and awake and has her own feelings, needs, emotions, wants and desires, but she will share this life with you, and neither one of you will ever truly take complete control.
You are separate but equal,
the merging of one person into two,
the creation of two unique personalities that share one body, that enjoy each other's company, that enjoy this life, and that make life better for both of you, because now, your truly feminine side has an opportunity to go out and explore the world, and you get a chance to step back and let these things happen, and observe, and enjoy, to truly have a unique life from now on.
And if, perchance, she does not wake up immediately, then bring yourself back to this file, and listen, and repeat as many times as you need to, until you hear her voice, and hear her name, and by the time you've heard her speak her name, she will be so real within your mind, that she will be with you always.