Long-term effects from hypnosis and conditioning

[Intrigue]

I literally can't remember myself anymore. It's super hard. Like, who was I when I was me? That's hard to grasp anymore. You forget entirely that the world is real and that the truth is real. You live in a bubble inside your head. It's almost as if you hypnotize yourself into transgenderism (I don't want to argue about transgenderism and potential causes or whatever, I'm just trying to find a way to communicate what I'm experiencing.) I have literally had conversations with girls that I would never have wanted to have. Things that as a male would be of severe embarrassment, and yet, I feel nothing. I literally became so obsessed that my life goals changed, my focus changed, and the world continued to develop around me. An entire life built inside my pretty little head. When your image of yourself is something that once would have caught your eye, would have attracted you, and you haven't noticed, it's chilling when you finally do. 

At this point, it would be easier for me to go all the way. But the unsuspecting world around me would be way past shocked. The hard part is, you make the same assumptions as you did before. 

You stop hanging out with your friends because your conscience says, "they're men, and they like manly things, and I don't want to be bored." 

When you realize you're uncomfortable in male clothes, and conversations with friends wives and girlfriends are what you gravitate towards. When you realize all the group chats you are in, you are the only biological male. When you do actually do male things (Fishing for example) and the girl that never wears anything but pink and spends hundreds of dollars on her nails a month, and is almost a role model of femininity is more willing to touch the icky slimy fish than you are? You've changed. 

I think I can also count the damage watching Paris and Nicole with my babysitter did to me as a child.

[Like Ra]

Sounds familiar, but "it happened" years before my first sudden exposure to sissy hypnosis. The last years definitely added some fun 😊

"they're men, and they like manly things, and I don't want to be bored." 

#metoo. I got misandry 😆 What can you talk with men about? I feel very uncomfortable and awkward with men... I find them and their clothes ugly. And so on, and on... I still love cocks, though. But not THAT they are attached to! Did you notice that in most (gay men stuff excluded) porn videos, men are not shown - just girls and cocks.

[Intrigue]

Inspired by me noticing how girly I walk whenever I wear panties and how I sit down to pee without realizing/thinking, the decade of hypno review thread (didn't want to hijack the thread), and also from reading a few chat logs I had forgotten... what are some changes, effects and conditioning that have affected and stayed with you after several years of hypnosis? 

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Please dont go further with memory play. it will hurt you emotionally. I promise it isn't what you want it to be. Complete memory changes will eliminate "You" (Ego Death.) and you will simply be a vessel for a hypno created entity.

[Like Ra]

Yes, let's merge these threads: https://www.likera.com/forum/mybb/showth...p?tid=3894

[Intrigue]

Sounds familiar, but "it happened" years before my first sudden exposure to sissy hypnosis. The last years definitely added some fun 😊

"they're men, and they like manly things, and I don't want to be bored." 

#metoo. I got misandry 😆

Go to the beach and hit on girls? No, I really want to wear and look amazing in a bikini. I won't be attracted, I'll be extremely jealous. 
No, I won't go to the gym with you, I'm pathetically weak, can't spot you, and I don't want muscles and stuff. 

You all work construction? I can't fit in in that conversation. I would be so scared of everything, plus am no help in carrying things. My dream job, provided I went all the way with my body, is a lot different than back in the day. Get me a job at Sephora, or send me to beauty school. It's like I'm afraid of men.

[Like Ra]

I got misandry

I'm afraid of men.

Androphobia?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Misandry

[hypnotizedslut]

Is that an effect from all the hypno? Memory play? I don't feel like my experience with people have changed? Maybe more understanding towards both genders, but also maybe generally blurring or ignoring gender specific stuff now?

[hypnotizedslut]

Probably didn't get this from hypno, or maybe... an indirect side effect? I was just shaving my body, and for some reason my shaving cream scent was really overwhelming, in like a "For men" scent kind of way? I've been using women deodorant for a few months now but that's about it, so it was a bit surprising, maybe I should start using more feminine products, they tend to be more neutral or subtle <3

[Intrigue]

I got misandry

I'm afraid of men.

Androphobia?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Misandry

it definitely didn't exist before hypnosis.